24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 312
,,Sweet Sassy
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Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper 
Good morning,
It was very hard to get to sleep last night. Hate to lose a friend to addiction but I have to remember that she wasn’t really a friend. A drinking pal was really what it was about. Like me, she wasn’t capable of ‘being there’, really—too busy being drunk or hungover or battling through something caused by drinking. I am sad but happy to be free.
Kenton, thank you. Yes, she has done that..implied that I was boring now or somehow sanctimonious or whatever but it is so not true! I’m actually coming back to life and she can’t ok with being an alcoholic/addict if she doesn’t portray sobriety negatively, It is just how all that stuff works. Glad it’s over. I can hope every day and think good thoughts for her recovery but I need distance. Originally, she wanted to stay at my house after her surgery but I sidestepped that! Just can’t pretend it’s ok anymore.
Up and time to move on early. I will have a good day. Lots of good things going on. My mother is feeling better, and Dad seems well enough for another family gathering this weekend. Work is tough but I am practicing not caring so much. I still care too much but working on that! So many of us get our primary identity from our careers, or it’s just way too important . I am just not strong enough to change it right now so I need to deflate it! Focus on family and friends, and this good sober life with all of you. Xxxxx
Red
It was very hard to get to sleep last night. Hate to lose a friend to addiction but I have to remember that she wasn’t really a friend. A drinking pal was really what it was about. Like me, she wasn’t capable of ‘being there’, really—too busy being drunk or hungover or battling through something caused by drinking. I am sad but happy to be free.
Kenton, thank you. Yes, she has done that..implied that I was boring now or somehow sanctimonious or whatever but it is so not true! I’m actually coming back to life and she can’t ok with being an alcoholic/addict if she doesn’t portray sobriety negatively, It is just how all that stuff works. Glad it’s over. I can hope every day and think good thoughts for her recovery but I need distance. Originally, she wanted to stay at my house after her surgery but I sidestepped that! Just can’t pretend it’s ok anymore.
Up and time to move on early. I will have a good day. Lots of good things going on. My mother is feeling better, and Dad seems well enough for another family gathering this weekend. Work is tough but I am practicing not caring so much. I still care too much but working on that! So many of us get our primary identity from our careers, or it’s just way too important . I am just not strong enough to change it right now so I need to deflate it! Focus on family and friends, and this good sober life with all of you. Xxxxx
Red
I was rather blunt with a good friend very recently. He winced at my bluntness but i would rather lose a friendship (which I don't think I have but . . .) than lose his existence in this world.
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Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper
Good morning,
It was very hard to get to sleep last night. Hate to lose a friend to addiction but I have to remember that she wasn’t really a friend. A drinking pal was really what it was about. Like me, she wasn’t capable of ‘being there’, really—too busy being drunk or hungover or battling through something caused by drinking. I am sad but happy to be free.
Kenton, thank you. Yes, she has done that..implied that I was boring now or somehow sanctimonious or whatever but it is so not true! I’m actually coming back to life and she can’t ok with being an alcoholic/addict if she doesn’t portray sobriety negatively, It is just how all that stuff works. Glad it’s over. I can hope every day and think good thoughts for her recovery but I need distance. Originally, she wanted to stay at my house after her surgery but I sidestepped that! Just can’t pretend it’s ok anymore.
Up and time to move on early. I will have a good day. Lots of good things going on. My mother is feeling better, and Dad seems well enough for another family gathering this weekend. Work is tough but I am practicing not caring so much. I still care too much but working on that! So many of us get our primary identity from our careers, or it’s just way too important . I am just not strong enough to change it right now so I need to deflate it! Focus on family and friends, and this good sober life with all of you. Xxxxx
Red
It was very hard to get to sleep last night. Hate to lose a friend to addiction but I have to remember that she wasn’t really a friend. A drinking pal was really what it was about. Like me, she wasn’t capable of ‘being there’, really—too busy being drunk or hungover or battling through something caused by drinking. I am sad but happy to be free.
Kenton, thank you. Yes, she has done that..implied that I was boring now or somehow sanctimonious or whatever but it is so not true! I’m actually coming back to life and she can’t ok with being an alcoholic/addict if she doesn’t portray sobriety negatively, It is just how all that stuff works. Glad it’s over. I can hope every day and think good thoughts for her recovery but I need distance. Originally, she wanted to stay at my house after her surgery but I sidestepped that! Just can’t pretend it’s ok anymore.
Up and time to move on early. I will have a good day. Lots of good things going on. My mother is feeling better, and Dad seems well enough for another family gathering this weekend. Work is tough but I am practicing not caring so much. I still care too much but working on that! So many of us get our primary identity from our careers, or it’s just way too important . I am just not strong enough to change it right now so I need to deflate it! Focus on family and friends, and this good sober life with all of you. Xxxxx
Red
I was rather blunt with a good friend very recently. He winced at my bluntness but i would rather lose a friend (which I don't think I have but . . .) than lose his existence in this world.
P.S. - so glad to hear that your parents are doing better
,,FBL.
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Originally Posted by ChloeRose63
RedBerryJuniper,
A wise Professor of mine once told me that:
"Things are only boring to boring people!"
Enjoy your new sober life without "boring people"!
Count me in for 24 more hours, please!
A wise Professor of mine once told me that:
"Things are only boring to boring people!"
Enjoy your new sober life without "boring people"!
Count me in for 24 more hours, please!
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Originally Posted by abcowboy
"I guess the real fact of the matter is, we don’t know what tomorrow is going to bring and the only thing we really have is right now. So, don’t stay angry for too long and learn to forgive. Love your friends and family with all your heart. Have fun and live your life the way you want to live it. Most of all, don’t worry about people that don’t like you and enjoy the ones who do."
6:00am in Alberta, today is going to be a darn good day not to drink!
Another 24 for me please, and thanks...
, cowboy And another darn good day, indeed.
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Originally Posted by shortstop81
Good morning all, it's 7:40am here in Mississauga. Another 24 please and thanks!
Yesterday I was in kinda of funky mood at work - quiet and withdrawn. I can't even think of any real reason either, but then again I'm in early recovery so it's par for the course.
I even had a supervisor come up to me "Are you OK?? You're as pale as a ghost!!" And yeah, I felt relatively OK but something was clearly 'off.'
Anyway, I have a busy day today! Maybe I'll wear a bit of makeup to deal with my uber pasty skin tone...
Yesterday I was in kinda of funky mood at work - quiet and withdrawn. I can't even think of any real reason either, but then again I'm in early recovery so it's par for the course.
I even had a supervisor come up to me "Are you OK?? You're as pale as a ghost!!" And yeah, I felt relatively OK but something was clearly 'off.'
Anyway, I have a busy day today! Maybe I'll wear a bit of makeup to deal with my uber pasty skin tone...
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Originally Posted by Cascabel
Good morning everyone. It is 5:53 AM on a rainy morning in SE Arizona. I'm here for another sober day.
Enjoy the rain! I always do.
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