24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 293
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Originally Posted by joandmelandhan 
Ugh why am I such a self centred volatile poor excuse for a mum? I just went bat crazy with the girls for interrupting a work phone call. And by bat crazy I mean horrible. Made them both cry then I started crying too. How utterly wrong and dysfunctional. Of course I then had to try and make amends but it came out about the blood test etc. My eldest can read me like a book...
I hate myself right now and you know the AV loves a bit of self loathing......
I hate myself right now and you know the AV loves a bit of self loathing......
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Originally Posted by Weev1l
Well done Hats 
I remember day 20 was a good day!!!
Weev here for 24 more at 6:25pm after another day of "facing stuff". I opened all my mail when I got in and took action.
I am concerned but not anxious like I used to get drinking, and since there's nothing more official I can do this week, I'm going to think about something else and head for a meeting.
Looks like my sober life is moving forward
Love you guys. Happy day, evening and night to you all
I remember day 20 was a good day!!!Weev here for 24 more at 6:25pm after another day of "facing stuff". I opened all my mail when I got in and took action.
I am concerned but not anxious like I used to get drinking, and since there's nothing more official I can do this week, I'm going to think about something else and head for a meeting.
Looks like my sober life is moving forward
Love you guys. Happy day, evening and night to you all
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Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper
Yes. I can't even process the things going on now--my mom's cancer has returned. I have friends that need me, other family members need me. I need to be strong. I am doing well at work but getting so drained too...just feel helpless and exhausted so I am with you. I need to be rested, I need to reach out, I need to stay sober. Off to start a good supper for the first time this week. I haven't been able to sleep. Going to try to break the cycle. We are not alone, we have each other and everyone here.. and hope and our health is returning. It gets better every day--no matter how hard it seems. We are loved and now finally able to love back.
Self-care is always first. I am going to get some tea too....and make a nice goulash of some sort. Lots of veggies.
love you
Red
Self-care is always first. I am going to get some tea too....and make a nice goulash of some sort. Lots of veggies.
love you
Red
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Originally Posted by Sweetpeacan
Hey Everyone,
It's the weekend wooohoo
and I for one am ready for some chillaxing time. I don't plan on much, usual housekeeping stuff, my
favourite w/e meetings and sloping around in sloppy joe gear and hope the neighbours don't get a fright hahaha.
I hope everyone has a good peaceful weekend, and time to enjoy some good quality you time.
Anyway that's me in for another 24 of freedom pretty please. 22.40pm Thanks Dee. Thank you all for being here. Much Love, SP
It's the weekend wooohoo
and I for one am ready for some chillaxing time. I don't plan on much, usual housekeeping stuff, myfavourite w/e meetings and sloping around in sloppy joe gear and hope the neighbours don't get a fright hahaha.
I hope everyone has a good peaceful weekend, and time to enjoy some good quality you time.
Anyway that's me in for another 24 of freedom pretty please. 22.40pm Thanks Dee. Thank you all for being here. Much Love, SP
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Originally Posted by joandmelandhan
Ugh why am I such a self centred volatile poor excuse for a mum? I just went bat crazy with the girls for interrupting a work phone call. And by bat crazy I mean horrible. Made them both cry then I started crying too. How utterly wrong and dysfunctional. Of course I then had to try and make amends but it came out about the blood test etc. My eldest can read me like a book...
I hate myself right now and you know the AV loves a bit of self loathing......
I hate myself right now and you know the AV loves a bit of self loathing......
I don't know how to help you because I am in the same boat. But please don't feel alone or like you are the only one having trouble managing your emotions. Tomorrow is another day to try even harder to be our best. Take it easy on yourself.
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Originally Posted by PhoenixJ
ha! I never touched sent reply THAT time...I never.
Kris- I think you deserve to get and eat some cake in real time- in human land.
Neoo- I hope that marriage you spoke of does not ignite, then burn up too quickly.
Kris- I think you deserve to get and eat some cake in real time- in human land.
Neoo- I hope that marriage you spoke of does not ignite, then burn up too quickly.
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Originally Posted by Kaneda8888
Checking in for 24. Still managing to keep head above water.
Congrats to all the milestoners. Prayers to those who are struggling
Another 24 hours of calm, loving kindness and sobriety pls. Its 9:27am here !
Congrats to all the milestoners. Prayers to those who are struggling
Another 24 hours of calm, loving kindness and sobriety pls. Its 9:27am here !
Sending Good vibes your way.
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Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife
7:46 pm Maryland
Haven't checked in in a couple days. Laptop died and I have been in an awful mood. What else is new. The old AV came out to play today. I've been feeling so awful with my moods and general dislike for my life at the moment and we still have this bottle of wine tucked away on a high shelf from when the realtor brought it over in May after we moved in. I actually entertained the thought of drinking again just to get through all of this pain. Then I remembered who I am as a drunk, how I would feel tomorrow and how drinking today would mean I would be drunk probably for the next week or so. I can't go back to that place. I won't. I can promise myself that much. I also can't continue feeling the way I do. I just want someone to help me and I don't know who that someone is. My therapist is great but it's not enough. I am on supplements galore but nothing is working. I don't know what to do anymore. I am just not happy. I am going through the motions and dreading time with my family. All I want is to be alone. It's awful and on top of the feelings I have guilt for feeling this way. I don't know what to do. Hubby took the kids to the school for movie night and here I sit wasting my time on the couch with tv and sugar. This isn't how life is supposed to be.
Haven't checked in in a couple days. Laptop died and I have been in an awful mood. What else is new. The old AV came out to play today. I've been feeling so awful with my moods and general dislike for my life at the moment and we still have this bottle of wine tucked away on a high shelf from when the realtor brought it over in May after we moved in. I actually entertained the thought of drinking again just to get through all of this pain. Then I remembered who I am as a drunk, how I would feel tomorrow and how drinking today would mean I would be drunk probably for the next week or so. I can't go back to that place. I won't. I can promise myself that much. I also can't continue feeling the way I do. I just want someone to help me and I don't know who that someone is. My therapist is great but it's not enough. I am on supplements galore but nothing is working. I don't know what to do anymore. I am just not happy. I am going through the motions and dreading time with my family. All I want is to be alone. It's awful and on top of the feelings I have guilt for feeling this way. I don't know what to do. Hubby took the kids to the school for movie night and here I sit wasting my time on the couch with tv and sugar. This isn't how life is supposed to be.
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Originally Posted by PhoenixJ
Joand- fellow human....perhaps a thing to try to remember in those red flag emotional times- is the breathe and count to..3? 10?..whatever. Just to try and diffuse a little. If I come up with a cure for human, I will let you know.
RBJ- office politics sucks. There will always be people who think their existence in that office over that issue- or crapping on that person is the absolute more important thing in the Universe. When facing people like that- I often imagine them in some stupid, bugs bunny scenario- like the Coyote spending (probably) millions on a machine that never works. Or dressing them in my mind in clown outfits- ridiculous ones. Support to you.
Weev.
Kris- you are a very strong young lady. I
RBJ- office politics sucks. There will always be people who think their existence in that office over that issue- or crapping on that person is the absolute more important thing in the Universe. When facing people like that- I often imagine them in some stupid, bugs bunny scenario- like the Coyote spending (probably) millions on a machine that never works. Or dressing them in my mind in clown outfits- ridiculous ones. Support to you.
Weev.
Kris- you are a very strong young lady. I
. for those people who play politics, one thing I have noticed is that nothing is ever enough...even if they 'win', they immediately need MORE attention, more rewards they don't deserve, there are MORE people to tear down every day, and eventually it all wears thin even amongst those who initially fall for their nonsense. Clowns, yes!
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Originally Posted by Kris47
Just a big hug just because.
I feel better already.....just getting it out and working through the feelings. We really hold each other up around here, I love it.xxxooo
Red
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