Neoo

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WeaverBird

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Day 20, another 24 for me

WeaverBird

Well done Hats I remember day 20 was a good day!!!

Weev here for 24 more at 6:25pm after another day of "facing stuff". I opened all my mail when I got in and took action.

I am concerned but not anxious like I used to get drinking, and since there's nothing more official I can do this week, I'm going to think about something else and head for a meeting.

Looks like my sober life is moving forward

Love you guys. Happy day, evening and night to you all

joandmelandhan

Ugh why am I such a self centred volatile poor excuse for a mum? I just went bat crazy with the girls for interrupting a work phone call. And by bat crazy I mean horrible. Made them both cry then I started crying too. How utterly wrong and dysfunctional. Of course I then had to try and make amends but it came out about the blood test etc. My eldest can read me like a book...
I hate myself right now and you know the AV loves a bit of self loathing......

ChickChick

24 please.

PippoRossi

24 more. Heading to the mountains for one last overnight stay/hike. It's supposed to snow at the higher elevations!!!

Goat

Overreacting at kids when you are under stress does not make you a poor excuse for a mum... it makes you a human being. It's just a mistake, and we learn from those. You apologized to them, which shows them that you are human as well. A poor parent would never apologize, but instead would choose to maintain superiority rather than showing humility. Forgive yourself, please. We all make mistakes as parents. What counts is what we do next

IcedVoVo

I agree with Goat--you are human and make mistakes, and so do your daughters, sometimes. We all do. You did the right thing and owned your mistake. None of us are perfect, but so few people apologize. Maybe you feel guilty about the past, but no worries--you are a new person now. Forgive yourself, and please don't connect the dots where one mistake = horrible person. We all make mistakes. You're still quite lovable, Jo. You're under a lot of pressure, and are exhausted and worried. I think you deserve some kindness.

Lots of love and hugs,

Red

joandmelandhan

Thank you both. They've gone to their dad's now so I've taken myself up to bed with a herbal tea and a book to read. It's been quite a day and best thing to do now is relax I think

venuscat

Glad you listened to our wise 24ers dear jo.....sending love and a huge hug. ♥

joandmelandhan

Bless you Suze. I'm just a little all over the place. A good night's sleep should help. Love you hun ❤❤❤

IcedVoVo

I am so glad to be here! Week is over at last.

I am so tired of bullies and dirty office politics--just part of the culture at my job. Part. That is the part I am not going to focus on. I know several people, actually quite a few who are fine people, that don't backstab their colleagues, and are always willing to help. I am going to train my mind to see their faces when someone is nasty to me or a colleague. Otherwise, the misery becomes mine. And suddenly it looms larger than anything, and soon I want to drink.

This is a safe, supportive place. So glad. I am gonna hang out here till I get my head turned around!

24 please. Please

Love

Red

Hevyn

Need another 24 please.

joandmelandhan

Dearest Red. You have such a sweet soul. I think it's a case of finding that balance between what we have to do and what helps us recover. It can be a tough old world out there which can be difficult to cope with. That's why we need this safe little oasis of niceness. No egos no backstabbing just a group of genuine people brought together through our common goal. I think you're doing an amazing job trying to balance your work life whilst remaining true to yourself . It's not easy at times I know but be reassured you've got a lovely outlook on life and all will be well. Enjoy your evening Red. How wonderful not to be tied to the chains of alcohol any more! ❤❤❤

Neoo

I am the worst at giving advice on here it is not that I do not care it is just I never know what to say.. Sorry Jo

joandmelandhan

Thank you Neoo..... are you feeling a little better today?