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Old 09-04-2017, 02:22 AM
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I havent posted in the class for a few days (i was on the mitch )
Just wanted to say hello to you all. Im nearly 4 weeks (thurs)

I had a massive craving friday, dont know if i could even call it a craving cause it hit me around 11h00 in the morning and i was still fighting it off that evening... got through though. And am I glad i did

I have added a new tool to my sober toolbox its called Chi Nei Tsang.
Its a traditional chinese medicine technique more like abdominal refloxology. I have an appointment on wednesday, this will be my fourth session. I fell asleep on the massage table the last time. (must be working )

Take care all
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Happy Monday! Good stuff tea or coffee, no doubt you got this m friend. We are with you if you need us.

Blonde, I have that dream all the time as well. I did not know about the connection you mentioned. I will have to think about that now. I also have a recurring strange dream that I did not graduate and they took my diploma back.

Good work on fighting the AV vman. Not an easy thing to do on a weekend.

Time to start the day, have a wonderful one team. Attitude of gratitude for making it through a holiday weekend here in the states with a clear mind and no regrets. Priceless.
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Morning!! How is everyone doing? Last night with my friends turned out to be really nice. It wasn't much of a movie night, but a warm up before Nick Cave's gig later this month, so we watched a three-hour DVD featuring live performances, rare footage and interviews. It was awesome! My friends were having drinks and I had a brief thought of joining them, but then I played this scenario in my head: I will have a drink, I will stop focusing on what I'm watching and start obsessing over when I can have a next drink and how to leave before 10pm so I can still buy alcohol (Licensing hours in Scotland). It helped, and I had a very nice evening instead.

Purplrks3647 - yay, so it's big 30 days for us today!

SoberBlondie - I can hardly remember my dreams, but I used to have dreadful nightmares about various things, so I'm ok with not being able to recall them anymore. I love to read about different symbols & interpretation of dreams though, it's really fascinating. Also congrats on day 24!

theVman31- Well done for fighting your cravings! I know it's a real struggle sometimes
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Old 09-04-2017, 05:17 AM
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Good day!
Hope you are all having a great day.
I am enjoying a coffee and feel good, going to AA tonight and also meeting with a guy who offered to sponsor me.
Have a lot of thought on my mind, though.
As i probably mentioned before I moved from Denmark to Norway this spring, but that move seemed to be a wrong turn into a dead end for me, I didn't like the job at all once I got started, and I live in really poor conditions, and even before I fell back into drinking I though of changing job a lot, and even applied and interviewed for other jobs, even though I did not get these.
I am a landscape gardener, and ever since I started this career I have struggeled to find a job i really enjoy, partly because a lot of work in this field these days are done by immigrant workers from Eastern Europe, who work at minimum wage and generally press down work conditions to a minimum (No offense to Eastern European people, many of my collegues are great individuals - it's just the trend in my occupation, that makes things hard).
I told myself several times that I job I would really fancy would be to work as a graveyard gardener - I think this job would offer a deeper spiritual meaning, and it's a more pedictable work situation - I will have one specific place to work, and predicable work hours - until now I worked a lot, many days with 10-12 hours of tough physical work on construction sites all across the area.

Now I just saw the position as graveyard gardener is up at the very graveyard where my grandparents and my family several generations back are buried, a job I have been hoping to get many times. But that would mean moving back to Denmark abandoning my plans to live in Norway.
I have been in Denmark since i quit drinking, to feel safe and be by my relatives - and I have been scared thinking about going back to Norway, as I am all by myself there in a tough situation.
Yet I am also scared about making big descitions now in early recovery. Also my GF had planned to move to Norway with me, she has always dreamt about living there - but I feel I have so little to offer up there, with a job i dislike and living in bad place.
I need to think this through - but I sense here in Denmark, i have my roots, my relatives and better options getting a stable life to support my recovery...
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Old 09-04-2017, 12:23 PM
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Day 36

I turned down FREE wine tonight and went to SMART.
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Vman - what does'on the mitch' mean?

SoberBlondie - a couple of nights ago I dreamed that I was drinking pints of cider with my mum - weird as I've never done this. I'm sure there's a message somewhere, possibly something about parental (dis)approval...

I'm on day 23 but I've had a rubbish couple of days. I've pulled a muscle in my back and I have the most excruciating spasms. Really hope it heals quickly but it's certainly a distraction from the cravings.

Happy to see so many of us still going strong (or just still going!)
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Originally Posted by decchemist View Post
I turned down FREE wine tonight and went to SMART.
Good for you. Free wine is not something I'd like to be faced with.
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Old 09-04-2017, 12:44 PM
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Good for you. Free wine is not something I'd like to be faced with.
I am still at my parents house and often before, I'd steal their wine, and often then would hide any alcohol if they knew i was coming over - and at night, when everybody was asleep I would search through all the house to find it - my drunkard brain would have remembered seing some bottles of wine left over after a dinner, so I'd know it was in the house somewhere, and I'd spend hours searching until i found it.
Now, luckily, that urge is gone. There are some bottles of wine in the kitchen, I saw, but I have no desire to drink it and no trouble staying away...
Even though my old alcoholic mind still scanned the house when I arrived - that bad old habit of just looking around to see if there is any alcohol was still there, even though I don't want to drink it.
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Evening! Had a very trying day which just culminated in me losing a huge post responding to everyone else's! Bugger! Suffice to say I'm thinking of you all and I did not drink today though it's probably been the hardest day I've had so far. Goodnight everyone, sweet dreams and keep on keeping on!
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Morning!! How is everyone doing? Last night with my friends turned out to be really nice. It wasn't much of a movie night, but a warm up before Nick Cave's gig later this month, so we watched a three-hour DVD featuring live performances, rare footage and interviews. It was awesome! My friends were having drinks and I had a brief thought of joining them, but then I played this scenario in my head: I will have a drink, I will stop focusing on what I'm watching and start obsessing over when I can have a next drink and how to leave before 10pm so I can still buy alcohol (Licensing hours in Scotland). It helped, and I had a very nice evening instead.

SoberBlondie - I can hardly remember my dreams, but I used to have dreadful nightmares about various things, so I'm ok with not being able to recall them anymore. I love to read about different symbols & interpretation of dreams though, it's really fascinating. Also congrats on day 24!
Dream analysis is the best! I love it
Thanks for the support and wonderful job on getting through your night without drinking.
Nights out with friends are often triggers for me, especially when it's something to do with music. Used to go to so many live shows and the memories all include alcohol.
Actually, the few times I saw bands sober were some of the best memories! Once I was on antibiotics, and once I just decided not to drink (an oddity back in the day) but I remember the nights like they were even more magical

I am going to a festival on the 22nd for a friends' Bachelorette party- excited to watch some live music and not drink!
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I went to see Coldplay last June friends weee all drinking but I wasn't. Best concert I've ever been to and probably the only one I was sober for. Coincidence? I don't think so. Have a great day everyone 😊
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[QUOTE=SoberBlondie - a couple of nights ago I dreamed that I was drinking pints of cider with my mum - weird as I've never done this. I'm sure there's a message somewhere, possibly something about parental (dis)approval...

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It's so interesting to see what people/patterns our subconscious strings together. I find dreams to be tools that can help us uncover our deepest pains/struggles and also help us to embrace the strength and wisdom that we all have inside of us!
Great job on Day 23 (24?)!!!
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I agree about the concerts.....before I couldn't imagine going to a show without drinking..... but I've had much better experiences while sober.....(especially getting a chance to say hi to my crush & not be a sloppy mess like I was last time!)

I need to keep my guard up for the show tonight, though....

I'll check back in later.....hang in there, everyone!
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Old 09-05-2017, 04:15 AM
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I saw a lot of good concerts sober this summer.
Before I was also always drinking at shows, it actually ruined how I feel about some bands.
You know, you would see the concert annonced month before, buy your ticket and be all excited that one of your fave bands come to down - then you will end up drinking, not remembering the show or do something stupid - or end up binging for days after the show... Totally ruining it for yourself.
I have a few bands, that I really used to like, but that I can hardly enjoy anymore because listening to their music now makes me think about how I disappointed myself getting drunk at their concerts. i think I need to see these bands live again sober, to try to erase those bad memories and learn to enjoy them again
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Evening everyone. Another busy day at work for me, nothing much to report. Can't wait to hear about the concert purps, hope you have a great time.

Vman, we are still waiting to hear what 'on the mitch' means, sounds fun!

Tyger, how are you getting on with the decision on where to live? Can't advise you on it, but hope you choose what's best for you.

Dechemist, how was smart? I'd like to go to a smart meeting but haven't found the time yet. I do think it all makes sense though and use the online stuff.

All this talk of dreams is making me sleepy guys. It's almost 1030 pm. And I just realised today that it's now six weeks sober for me. I'm feeling pretty good about that but I am anything but complacent. Yesterday was hard and there have been other tough days as well, but right now I am just putting one foot in front of the other and as much distance between me and my last drink as I can get. I'll figure out the big stuff eventually I hope.

Goodnight from me, have a great night and stay safe everyone.
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Hi Classmates, a few days since I caught up on here, so have just enjoyed reading your posts & catching up. Nice to see how well you all are doing. I am doing ok and enjoying not being in the AV's clutches today. On Thursday I am going to be meeting with an HR specialist to help upgrade my CV and point me in the right direction in attempting to upgrade my worklife. It's been all too easy to coast & not care, but I'm ready to make some changes. Thanks for letting me offload, feels good to make some plans. Hope you have a lovely day/evening wherever you are.
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I'm around but little access to internet.
It has been relatively easy not to drink and I've been calmer and more relaxed as a result.
Hoping this continues.
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Evening everyone.
I'm still thinking my life situation over, taking things easy and giving it good thought. My brain was so blurred after my last drinking binge that it's only the last few days I find I can think somewhat clearly. Throughout my life I have been world champion of making rushed, drastic decitions - often in panic to get away from the mess I made of my life - so this time I will give it much thought.
I did send an application for the graveyard gardener job, won't do any harm applying, then I'll see if they are even interested in me
Tomorrow I'll go for the first time to my sponsor, and talk a about working the steps in AA. - also, in the evening I will attend a bigger AA meeting in the big city.
I am so grateful for the AA people around here, so far I have only been to 3 meetings in this area, but already so many people are queving up to offer help, offer to sponsor me, offer to drive me to meetings in other towns, etc... It's just overwhelming how many people want to help me in the right direction - all of them people I didn't even know one week ego, it's amazing
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Morning everyone.

A bit tired this mirning but that's because I went to bed late.

I'm interested innyour therapy vman. Do you tell them it is specifically to stop cravings?
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Morning all. Halfway through another week already, where is the time going? Hope everyone has a good day, another busy one on the cards for me!
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