Class of March 2016 part 57
Velveteen Rabbit
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: San Diego, Cali
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Originally Posted by CaseyW 
Not going to drink today. Period. How about you?
Day 17 I think.
I'm in the sky again at 30,000 feet....LA down below. It's pretty fun talking to you guys from an airplane!
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Join Date: Mar 2016
Location: US
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Day 20 here, I believe.....
Good to see you, Mish! I'm feeling like a "fatty poombah" as well, after all the crap I've eaten this week.....
Hi everyone! Startin' fluid o'clock on this fine Friday morning....going to make my SR rounds ~ if anyone wants to take a ride on the sober bus, feel free to join us (in the "Alcoholism" forum.) Canadian Koala wrote and recorded a song about us yesterday
Good to see you, Mish! I'm feeling like a "fatty poombah" as well, after all the crap I've eaten this week.....
Hi everyone! Startin' fluid o'clock on this fine Friday morning....going to make my SR rounds ~ if anyone wants to take a ride on the sober bus, feel free to join us (in the "Alcoholism" forum.) Canadian Koala wrote and recorded a song about us yesterday
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Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Adelaide, Australia
Posts: 28,657
AH YES- Ms Scarpetta- Ms Cornwell's dream figure. A good read.
Deep meeting- topic. I chose fear/anger. Bit of a raw nerve for a few. Many coped with forced laughter at some of the shares. I shared- basically about forgiveness- to self and others HAS to be unconditional. Part of this means for me- accpeting that my behaviour when actively drinking- was BAD. Normal people see it as BAD, I knew it was BAD. I can say 'it is not my fault- I have a disease, alcoholism', or 'I was mentally unwell so not accountable for my actions'. If that is the case- why then, does it still cause me to feel guilt and shame...and that my behaviour was unacceptable? Because when I am not actively drinking- I know this to be true. Thus blaming others, getting angry if others 'do not understand addiction' or if I lash out- like a cornered animal- that shows I need to grow up.
Well the gist of it- perhaps disjointed- but it seemed to make sense.
Went back to the service provider- thinking expert in house help would get my online woes sorted. I was told by 3 different people...'I have only worked here 2 weeks; and that I would have to use my own phone to call their help line. These people are in their 20's- not old and stupid like me. Apparently they are hired more for their looks and hipster attitude to sell stuff, not support those same products.
Deep meeting- topic. I chose fear/anger. Bit of a raw nerve for a few. Many coped with forced laughter at some of the shares. I shared- basically about forgiveness- to self and others HAS to be unconditional. Part of this means for me- accpeting that my behaviour when actively drinking- was BAD. Normal people see it as BAD, I knew it was BAD. I can say 'it is not my fault- I have a disease, alcoholism', or 'I was mentally unwell so not accountable for my actions'. If that is the case- why then, does it still cause me to feel guilt and shame...and that my behaviour was unacceptable? Because when I am not actively drinking- I know this to be true. Thus blaming others, getting angry if others 'do not understand addiction' or if I lash out- like a cornered animal- that shows I need to grow up.
Well the gist of it- perhaps disjointed- but it seemed to make sense.
Went back to the service provider- thinking expert in house help would get my online woes sorted. I was told by 3 different people...'I have only worked here 2 weeks; and that I would have to use my own phone to call their help line. These people are in their 20's- not old and stupid like me. Apparently they are hired more for their looks and hipster attitude to sell stuff, not support those same products.
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Join Date: Mar 2016
Location: Pennsylvania
Posts: 593
Day 50. Whew, must be decades since that happened.
My moods are somewhat iffy so I'm still wary. It sounds a little sad but I don't really like being home and living with (indeed confronting) my self. I like traveling and visiting and walking on beaches and living out of a suitcase. Just have to figure out how to pay the bills that way, lol.
Just thinking. Anyway, have a good, solid, sober day all!!
My moods are somewhat iffy so I'm still wary. It sounds a little sad but I don't really like being home and living with (indeed confronting) my self. I like traveling and visiting and walking on beaches and living out of a suitcase. Just have to figure out how to pay the bills that way, lol.
Just thinking. Anyway, have a good, solid, sober day all!!
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Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
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Morning everyone! Quick check in before I head to therapy. We are going to stop the trauma work for a short while and I am going to work the 12 steps with him. I'm not strong enough to deal with the trauma & PTSD that came from my "mother" yet & need to stay sober first and foremost!! I'm grateful that I've recognized this and have a therapist that is helping me!
Anyways, we will do a step each week along with other addiction/recovery work and once I have a few months of sobriety under my belt (and some more tools) we will tackle the trauma once and for all. My AA sponser is very supportive!
Anyway...got to see my son at college yesterday. He's growing up!!! He's not a baby anymore but I'm proud of him!
PELAGIC: Congrats on 50 days! Amazing!
Love & hugs to everyone else! I am NOT drinking today!
Anyways, we will do a step each week along with other addiction/recovery work and once I have a few months of sobriety under my belt (and some more tools) we will tackle the trauma once and for all. My AA sponser is very supportive!
Anyway...got to see my son at college yesterday. He's growing up!!! He's not a baby anymore but I'm proud of him!
PELAGIC: Congrats on 50 days! Amazing!
Love & hugs to everyone else! I am NOT drinking today!
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Join Date: Jun 2010
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Mornin' Marchers. Slept like a baby last night. Startin' fluid in hand and contemplating my day. Hopefully it'll be even more productive than yesterday.
I do so much better if I don't drink! I know that. Gotta' quit this relapsing garbage!!!
I do so much better if I don't drink! I know that. Gotta' quit this relapsing garbage!!!
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Join Date: Feb 2016
Location: St. Louis, Mo
Posts: 7,334
Morning!!
Hey immri!!
Great job Pelagic!! 50 is looking great on you!
BBG - good job getting right back at it. You rock!
Kiki - I'm so happy you are finding your way. You can do this. Hugs.
Phoenix - I would also like to attend your meetings.
Lillian - thanks for the shout outs from the air.
Purple - Good freaking morning!
PR - love Kay Scarpetta.
Have an awesome day, guys!
Casey - wake up!
Hey immri!!
Great job Pelagic!! 50 is looking great on you!
BBG - good job getting right back at it. You rock!
Kiki - I'm so happy you are finding your way. You can do this. Hugs.
Phoenix - I would also like to attend your meetings.
Lillian - thanks for the shout outs from the air.
Purple - Good freaking morning!
PR - love Kay Scarpetta.
Have an awesome day, guys!
Casey - wake up!
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Posts: 1,479
I slept like a rock last night, to bad my wee one was up before 6:30 😡
I've got my startin fluid in hand and reading a little while the kids eat and watch cars. Hubby is still asleep. For once I'd like to sleep like a husband 😐
Have a good day everyone!
I've got my startin fluid in hand and reading a little while the kids eat and watch cars. Hubby is still asleep. For once I'd like to sleep like a husband 😐
Have a good day everyone!
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 7,909
Day 16.
Stayed up late playing video games after my last check-in here. Gonna go back to sleep in a few minutes, I think. Work tonight. Trying to have a positive attitude about that.
I'm not going to drink today. No matter what.
Stayed up late playing video games after my last check-in here. Gonna go back to sleep in a few minutes, I think. Work tonight. Trying to have a positive attitude about that.
I'm not going to drink today. No matter what.
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Join Date: Mar 2016
Location: Ontario, Canada
Posts: 3,197
Hi all!!
Late check in. Did lots of running around today looking for a going away gift for a good friend at work (she's going back to school) but came up empty handed. Might have to Google some ideas.
Home now.....going to make a tea and do some laundry. Hope you're all having a great Friday!!
Late check in. Did lots of running around today looking for a going away gift for a good friend at work (she's going back to school) but came up empty handed. Might have to Google some ideas.
Home now.....going to make a tea and do some laundry. Hope you're all having a great Friday!!
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Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
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Hi everyone! Evening check in after a long day. I'm exhausted. I think it's gonna be an early bedtime night for sure!
And I've been fighting my AV all damn day! Ugh! Old hag! I'm NOT drinking today! No matter what!
And I've been fighting my AV all damn day! Ugh! Old hag! I'm NOT drinking today! No matter what!
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Join Date: Mar 2016
Location: US
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Hope you're safe out of Harvey's path, Casey.....a friend of mine lives in Texas but she's in Cali this week, thank goodness. It's a scary looking storm!
Kiki that's awesome how your therapist is working with you!
Happy weekend everyone
Guess I have to try to wind down for the evening so I can be up early tomorrow ~ one week to go until Bamm Bamm comes to town
Kiki that's awesome how your therapist is working with you!
Happy weekend everyone
Guess I have to try to wind down for the evening so I can be up early tomorrow ~ one week to go until Bamm Bamm comes to town
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