Class of August 2017 Part Two
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Join Date: Aug 2014
Posts: 1,347
Hey team late check in here. AV surprise thoughts earlier. Funny it was about vacation a week from now. Really odd how our minds work. I felt the voice and shut it down as I know where it would land if I keep entertaining it.
Welcome all the folks that just joined!
We can do this, a plan for events and situations is critical. Much love guys, let's keep going. Here's to Monday without a hangover and our old friends guilt and shame!
Welcome all the folks that just joined!
We can do this, a plan for events and situations is critical. Much love guys, let's keep going. Here's to Monday without a hangover and our old friends guilt and shame!
Member
Join Date: Mar 2017
Posts: 723
I need to be accountable and I'm on Day 2
It's been a long road trying to be sober. Since November last year, I've really recognized my alcoholism but I keep falling off. I binge drink once every two weeks. I am going through a terrible divorce and custody dispute. My ex hasn't let me see our very young children in almost 3 months. I'm miserably depressed. I'm living by myself with only a mattress and a skillet.
I've enrolled myself in an evening iop and have been meeting with a therapist and a psychiatrist. I know I need to be more accountable. I was supposed to have a video call with my girls this weekend and it never happened. I'm feeling so very low right now. He's now blocked me from calling so I have no idea why they never called.
I'd like to join the August 2017 group. Could really use some support not to drink right now.
I've enrolled myself in an evening iop and have been meeting with a therapist and a psychiatrist. I know I need to be more accountable. I was supposed to have a video call with my girls this weekend and it never happened. I'm feeling so very low right now. He's now blocked me from calling so I have no idea why they never called.
I'd like to join the August 2017 group. Could really use some support not to drink right now.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 5,250
Originally Posted by bblackbirdflyy 
I've been gone because I've been drinking. Ughhhhh. Drinking alone I might add. I hate this so much. Day 1. I've been giving myself permission since I "have to" drink in October anyway for my bachelorette party and wedding. How insane am I? No one is going to force me to drink. And I've gained back the 10 pounds I lost for the event. I'm revoking my permission. Gotta put staying sober 1st.
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Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 5,250
Originally Posted by Emzy20
Please can I join this group? 
Welcome Emzy20! Glad you're here!
August 2017 Class!!!
PurpleCat
Forwards
Sober81
Lilymaz
teaorcoffee
Sath79
ReadyAtLast
Erratic
Doodles84
Michelle009
Eslsp
Surrender2win
determined99
fgo
Legolady
Awkwardkitty
Plenny
MNVikes4life
Jezzi
Flinders39
StartingOverNW
Islingtonite
Thomas59
Georgie123
DeniseLarkin
Evienne
LukeStanley
1StepUp
ghostgirl
courtneylove140
CaptainHaddock
Linners820
Poppy79
CJHolden
Susiegirl
Debbyjay
MovingForward1
Nic233
SoberNeveah
Atwitsend123
Pinky1
decchemist
snufkin
Purplrks3647
KIKI0615
Kgirl41
Thunderskies
Alock
DarkestHour
Horn95
LunaBlue
bblackbirdflyy
sweenzo
eremite
Lava256
Candie
BiskyRizness
Sunny06
GreatEscapade25
bllit
Jforce58
ChickChick
theVman31
Ekohe
emme99
Caramel
Areyoukittenme
Lyddie
Emzy20
*LET ME KNOW IF I FORGOT ANYONE! I am sure we will have more people join before the month is over.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 5,250
Originally Posted by Treesofgreen
It's been a long road trying to be sober. Since November last year, I've really recognized my alcoholism but I keep falling off. I binge drink once every two weeks. I am going through a terrible divorce and custody dispute. My ex hasn't let me see our very young children in almost 3 months. I'm miserably depressed. I'm living by myself with only a mattress and a skillet.
I've enrolled myself in an evening iop and have been meeting with a therapist and a psychiatrist. I know I need to be more accountable. I was supposed to have a video call with my girls this weekend and it never happened. I'm feeling so very low right now. He's now blocked me from calling so I have no idea why they never called.
I'd like to join the August 2017 group. Could really use some support not to drink right now.
I've enrolled myself in an evening iop and have been meeting with a therapist and a psychiatrist. I know I need to be more accountable. I was supposed to have a video call with my girls this weekend and it never happened. I'm feeling so very low right now. He's now blocked me from calling so I have no idea why they never called.
I'd like to join the August 2017 group. Could really use some support not to drink right now.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 5,250
Welcome Rah555, Sweetchick & Treesofgreen!!!
August 2017 Class!!!
PurpleCat
Forwards
Sober81
Lilymaz
teaorcoffee
Sath79
ReadyAtLast
Erratic
Doodles84
Michelle009
Eslsp
Surrender2win
determined99
fgo
Legolady
Awkwardkitty
Plenny
MNVikes4life
Jezzi
Flinders39
StartingOverNW
Islingtonite
Thomas59
Georgie123
DeniseLarkin
Evienne
LukeStanley
1StepUp
ghostgirl
courtneylove140
CaptainHaddock
Linners820
Poppy79
CJHolden
Susiegirl
Debbyjay
MovingForward1
Nic233
SoberNeveah
Atwitsend123
Pinky1
decchemist
snufkin
Purplrks3647
KIKI0615
Kgirl41
Thunderskies
Alock
DarkestHour
Horn95
LunaBlue
bblackbirdflyy
sweenzo
eremite
Lava256
Candie
BiskyRizness
Sunny06
GreatEscapade25
bllit
Jforce58
ChickChick
theVman31
Ekohe
emme99
Caramel
Areyoukittenme
Lyddie
Emzy20
Rah555
Sweetchick
Treesofgreen
*LET ME KNOW IF I FORGOT ANYONE! I am sure we will have more people join before the month is over.
August 2017 Class!!!
PurpleCat
Forwards
Sober81
Lilymaz
teaorcoffee
Sath79
ReadyAtLast
Erratic
Doodles84
Michelle009
Eslsp
Surrender2win
determined99
fgo
Legolady
Awkwardkitty
Plenny
MNVikes4life
Jezzi
Flinders39
StartingOverNW
Islingtonite
Thomas59
Georgie123
DeniseLarkin
Evienne
LukeStanley
1StepUp
ghostgirl
courtneylove140
CaptainHaddock
Linners820
Poppy79
CJHolden
Susiegirl
Debbyjay
MovingForward1
Nic233
SoberNeveah
Atwitsend123
Pinky1
decchemist
snufkin
Purplrks3647
KIKI0615
Kgirl41
Thunderskies
Alock
DarkestHour
Horn95
LunaBlue
bblackbirdflyy
sweenzo
eremite
Lava256
Candie
BiskyRizness
Sunny06
GreatEscapade25
bllit
Jforce58
ChickChick
theVman31
Ekohe
emme99
Caramel
Areyoukittenme
Lyddie
Emzy20
Rah555
Sweetchick
Treesofgreen
*LET ME KNOW IF I FORGOT ANYONE! I am sure we will have more people join before the month is over.
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Join Date: Aug 2017
Posts: 7
Thanks for the welcomes and kind words (a few pages back)!
Day 14 for me now. Had serious cravings on the evenings of 10-12, worse than the first week.
Today, I went to a family gathering and didn't drink a drop while everyone else did. No problem, really. I haven't told any of them that I am abstaining from booze. I think my sister and brother-in-law could tell that something was weird about me, but that's nothing new
Day 14 for me now. Had serious cravings on the evenings of 10-12, worse than the first week.
Today, I went to a family gathering and didn't drink a drop while everyone else did. No problem, really. I haven't told any of them that I am abstaining from booze. I think my sister and brother-in-law could tell that something was weird about me, but that's nothing new
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Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 5,250
Originally Posted by DarkestHour
Keep it going, all. I'm a lost case. Sorry.
That's the alcohol talking. It wants you to believe you are a lost case. It wants you dead. F alcohol! You can do this! Try to get some rest tonight and check in tomorrow.
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Join Date: Oct 2016
Location: Europe
Posts: 793
Morning All,
Back for a first proper day of work - it should be an ease in day, but we shall see.
DH - stay with us, I know it's hard right now, but once you get through the first bit, it will get better. Please, we want you to get better, plus we like having you around.
Back for a first proper day of work - it should be an ease in day, but we shall see.
DH - stay with us, I know it's hard right now, but once you get through the first bit, it will get better. Please, we want you to get better, plus we like having you around.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2017
Location: Kampala, Uganda
Posts: 327
Originally Posted by bblackbirdflyy
I've been gone because I've been drinking. Ughhhhh. Drinking alone I might add. I hate this so much. Day 1. I've been giving myself permission since I "have to" drink in October anyway for my bachelorette party and wedding. How insane am I? No one is going to force me to drink. And I've gained back the 10 pounds I lost for the event. I'm revoking my permission. Gotta put staying sober 1st.
Member
Join Date: Jun 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 2,332
Originally Posted by Treesofgreen
It's been a long road trying to be sober. Since November last year, I've really recognized my alcoholism but I keep falling off. I binge drink once every two weeks. I am going through a terrible divorce and custody dispute. My ex hasn't let me see our very young children in almost 3 months. I'm miserably depressed. I'm living by myself with only a mattress and a skillet.
I've enrolled myself in an evening iop and have been meeting with a therapist and a psychiatrist. I know I need to be more accountable. I was supposed to have a video call with my girls this weekend and it never happened. I'm feeling so very low right now. He's now blocked me from calling so I have no idea why they never called.
I'd like to join the August 2017 group. Could really use some support not to drink right now.
I've enrolled myself in an evening iop and have been meeting with a therapist and a psychiatrist. I know I need to be more accountable. I was supposed to have a video call with my girls this weekend and it never happened. I'm feeling so very low right now. He's now blocked me from calling so I have no idea why they never called.
I'd like to join the August 2017 group. Could really use some support not to drink right now.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2017
Location: Kampala, Uganda
Posts: 327
Originally Posted by Treesofgreen
It's been a long road trying to be sober. Since November last year, I've really recognized my alcoholism but I keep falling off. I binge drink once every two weeks. I am going through a terrible divorce and custody dispute. My ex hasn't let me see our very young children in almost 3 months. I'm miserably depressed. I'm living by myself with only a mattress and a skillet.
I've enrolled myself in an evening iop and have been meeting with a therapist and a psychiatrist. I know I need to be more accountable. I was supposed to have a video call with my girls this weekend and it never happened. I'm feeling so very low right now. He's now blocked me from calling so I have no idea why they never called.
I'd like to join the August 2017 group. Could really use some support not to drink right now.
I've enrolled myself in an evening iop and have been meeting with a therapist and a psychiatrist. I know I need to be more accountable. I was supposed to have a video call with my girls this weekend and it never happened. I'm feeling so very low right now. He's now blocked me from calling so I have no idea why they never called.
I'd like to join the August 2017 group. Could really use some support not to drink right now.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,368
Welcome sweetichick areyoukittenme Emzy Rah StartingOver treesaregreen and Lyddie
Welcome back BBL I was pretty stubborn too - always trying to fit drinking into my life but not wanting to suffer any of the bad.
I couldn't do it. I'm sorry but I don't think you can do it either.
When you drink destructively you get devastation. Thats the bottom line.
I got sick of devastation.
DarkestHour - No ones a lost cause on my watch
The drive that got you to post here today will see you defeat this thing. Fan that flame
Thanks for posting Venecia!
Congrats to everyone racking up a milestone no matter what it is - apols if I missed anyone - braintired - long day
D
Welcome back BBL
I was pretty stubborn too - always trying to fit drinking into my life but not wanting to suffer any of the bad.I couldn't do it. I'm sorry but I don't think you can do it either.
When you drink destructively you get devastation. Thats the bottom line.
I got sick of devastation.
DarkestHour - No ones a lost cause on my watch
The drive that got you to post here today will see you defeat this thing. Fan that flame
Thanks for posting Venecia!
Congrats to everyone racking up a milestone no matter what it is - apols if I missed anyone - braintired - long day
D
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Join Date: Mar 2017
Location: Kampala, Uganda
Posts: 327
OK, so I drank last night. The AV started on me when I was making lunch during the day but I managed to not give in at the time. Later in the evening, though, it was really strong. I went to my computer to log in here and, guess what, my internet was not working and I couldn't reach out. Perhaps if I had, I may not have drank. Anyway, I did not drink immediately; I first made myself tea, put my son in bed and then got to thinking, 'I can't spend another long night drinking tea!!!! I want this night to be fun. I want to drink. I'm going to drink...Oh, and I certainly will not log in to SR!'. So I made myself the first drink, and it was just what I needed. Only that (maybe it was because I hadn't had dinner yet but..) I was super high after that first one. But did that stop me from getting a second? Nope. After number 2, I was super super high. I won't say drunk because my husband didn't even notice. But I was struggling staying focused. The last thing I remember is getting myself a third drink (suicide), my husband asking if I wanted to watch one of my TV shows, me getting off my desk and going to the couch to watch TV. This was at around maybe 10:30 pm. Then I wake up, in bed, at 4:30 am and I'm wondering how I got into bed. I reach under my pillow to check for my phone and I find the TV remote. I almost laughed. I get out of bed and what is that on my nightstand, my unfinished glass of gin and tonic. I was a mix of emotions. I was thankful that at least I stopped at some point in my quest to kill myself and managed to get myself into bed. So I took the glass of gin to the kitchen, the remote back to the living room, drank a glass of milk and went back to bed. I was apprehensive that maybe I'd had a fight with my husband but, thankfully, he was cool in the morning. More likely, he left me 'watching TV' and I crawled in quietly. Phew! We/He can't handle another drunken fight.
So I'm back to day one but very happy about it, this time. I sure dodged a million bullets last night because, who knows, a million horrible things could've have happened to me while I was blacked out. I can't live like this anymore. I just can't. So, here's to day one.
So I'm back to day one but very happy about it, this time. I sure dodged a million bullets last night because, who knows, a million horrible things could've have happened to me while I was blacked out. I can't live like this anymore. I just can't. So, here's to day one.
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