Dee74

Have a great week guys

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stargazer016

Amp, enjoy the few remaining days off before your new school year kicks off. Hopefully, the seeds you planted this summer will allow your business to regrow and thrive once again.

Inc, where are you?

stargazer016

Last full day at the beach. It's odd that I feel that I have had to learn how to relax since getting sober. Vacation for me always meant more drinking and earlier in the day. It was certainly simpler in the old days, just the results weren't the best.

Enjoy the day all!

Dee74

Summer seems to have gone fast for you guys

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amp123

Summer does seem to be fading fast but still some good days left.

Thinking about what you said about switching off, SG. That's an area that is beginning to improve for me. When I sit down at a table and others need a drink to unwind, I feel myself slipping into the dynamic without any of the trouble I used to experience. I still don't like being in environments where there's heavy drinking going on, but that's pretty logical. As far as switching off from work is concerned, I was never any good at that anyway!

Inc, what's going on mate? Worried about you...

Incontrol15

Thanks for your concern Amp. I've been so involved in other forums lately, I neglected home base. I'm sorry.

Doing well. I'm learning more and more about myself. I'm on this incredible journey to find myself.

Have you guys seen, or read "The secret"? It's about the law of attraction and how you your life is manifested by your feelings and thoughts.

There's a 90min movie on Netflix, a book, a Facebook page, and several YouTube videos. I watched the movie and found that to be a great summary of the concept.

amp123

Relieved to hear you're well, Inc! Will check out The Secret

Dee74

hows the Kratom thing Inc?

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stargazer016

Good to hear from you Inc! We worry when you disappear for a couple weeks. Will try to check out the Secret when I can.

Incontrol15

The kratom thing is going OK. Still using, still reduced, hang out at a smaller dose. You know the insanity.....2 steps forward, 1 step back. Sometimes 3 steps back.

Overall, I am satisfied with where I am and what I'm learning along the way.

Dee74

I hope you break the connection completely soon INC.
I'd hate you to start to lose the things you love.

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stargazer016

I second Dee's thoughts. You have been strung out on this for quite a time by now Inc. I think your overall recovery and focus will improve when you completely quit. That is my hope for you.

Enjoy the day all!

amp123

Agree. Really hoping you're able to follow through on that, Inc! Rooting for you!

stargazer016

Inc, how is the job search going? Are you able to interview without fearing going through withdrawals? I know you will want to get back working before you have to explain a gap in your resume. Another thought I had- is this stuff expensive? Seems like an unnecessary expense for someone without a job? Though I know an addict will always find the bucks for their drug of choice. If the withdrawals are difficult, it would seem better to get it done before you start a new job and be done with it. I know it must eat at you having another drug running your life once again, after overcoming so many other things in your past. You don't seem to be enjoying life at all now. You seem emotionally lifeless recently. I know you can do this if you put your mind to it. We have seen you succeed before.

amp123

Hey guys!
Was at a wedding last night. It's been quite a full on weekend. The wedding was a 7 hour drive and we had to work Friday so we decided to fly. Leaving for the airport to return in a couple of hours. A little tired but ok.

Weddings and Christmas have been the toughest events for me since I got sober, but they are getting easier. I had a few of those thoughts, feeling jealous of people enjoying a nice glass of wine and such, but overall I was pretty relaxed and even managed to have a good time. I retired at 2am with my kids before the serious drinking started kicking in. My wife stayed on till 5'30 with her brothers and cousins and apparently it got quite messy so I was glad to miss that. Had the impression that I'm light years from where I was two or three years ago.

Hope you guys are all well. Any update Inc? Hope you are doing ok!

stargazer016

I am glad the big events are becoming easier for you Amp. I totally agree that I don't stress about these things much now. For me, the hardest thing to overcome has been the "Alcohol is my reward" syndrome, but that too has faded greatly over the past year. It's hard to believe we are approaching two and a half years next month!

Incontrol15

You are right SG at all fronts. I want to get more serous with this.

Job hunt hasn't been #1 priority. My mom just left town after a visit. Good time to put the job hunt as top priority.

stargazer016

Amp, how is the new year starting out for you after the chaos at the end of last year? Has some new blood helped to bring in a better attitude?

amp123

Well, it's been a slow start to enrolment which has me very nervous. I need 2 or 3 hundred people through the doors between now and the end of October and in the first 3 days which are normally pretty active, there have only been 6 or 7. I need about that every day so, yeah, could be better...

It's my birthday tomorrow but I haven't given it too much thought. Mostly I'm just concerned about getting people into my business. Also all the stuff that happened with my brother over the summer is still very present. My mother has found out everything and is desperate about the rift in the family. She is right to be concerned because I don't see how we can continue to (and neither do we want to) spend time with my brother's family.

Sorry if I sound downbeat. Considering everything that's going on, I'm actually more positive than this appears. Philosophical really. I have realised things about myself... Like I've been pushing myself to achieve for years because I needed to prove some kind of point. To who? Why? I don't feel that I need to kill myself over work anymore. There are so many more important things to life!

Take care all!

stargazer016

Sorry business is starting off slowly Amp. Hopefully, things will pick up shortly. I am sorry about the rift in your family caused by your brother's accusations. It will likely take a very long time for that wound to heal.

Happy early birthday!