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Old 09-15-2017, 03:40 PM
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Well, mom passed away this afternoon.
It struck me more than I thought it would but I'm also happy that she is no longer suffering.

I just pray that she can't look down on us from heaven and see all the BS that's starting already.

I want to try and help them through getting the estate settled even though I'm not asking for anything. I'm also trying to make plans to jump ship at the spur of the moment incase things get too toxic here.
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Old 09-15-2017, 04:29 PM
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I'm sorry for your loss UP but I'm glad your stepmoms suffering is over

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Old 09-16-2017, 01:19 AM
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Like Dee , I'm glad her suffering is over .

Is your back still improving Up ?
.....was wondering if you're able to take bike rides again like you were doing a while ago ?
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Old 09-16-2017, 05:33 AM
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My back is doing pretty good. I haven't been riding much, not because of my back, just didn't seem to be up to it.
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Old 09-16-2017, 08:43 AM
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That's got to encouraging progress Up .
My bike riding has apparently stopped altogether since going on those two or three rides a long time ago . Not blaming the rain,.... but a few small project work took up the dry days ,....and then the guy working 3 nights quit .

Still excited about them finding someone new at some point ,...to give myself a chance to get in a normal sleep cycle ,....what the Dr.s call a Circadian rhythm I guess .

Had tried fasting a couple times that had me feeling way better ,..but without a consistent healthy sleep pattern, I read it's tough to feel good and energetic . Some hormone gets out of whack apparently.

How are you doing Mariah ?

And if you read this Izzy,...how's the new teaching job this far in ?
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Old 09-16-2017, 08:30 PM
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I'm sorry for the loss of you Mom Up & ddf remove yourself from the drama as soon as you can
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Old 09-16-2017, 08:32 PM
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I'm sorry I haven't posted, if not just to let you know what's going on & im too tired for that tonight but to say I am so busy.

Thinking of you all, all the time
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Old 09-18-2017, 08:34 PM
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Hello peeps.

I'm still here.
I know that I've made some bad choices in my life and felt like a bad son. After living with these people for a while and especially how they are acting now that my step mother is gone, I feel like I might be a saint! Seriously, I know that I wasn't the best song or father but I wasn't that bad either.

I believe in God and that things, good or bad, happen for a reason. I know that God had me here to help mom in the end. I have no complaints about that, I'm not happy about the path I went down to get here but ...
I do feel like I may have blown the chance for true happiness. Nothing I can do about that now.

These people ignore me if I try to offer advice and act like I don't know what I'm talking about. So be it if you want to do it the hard way.

I hope you all are doing well.
Peace be with you.
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Old 09-18-2017, 08:46 PM
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I dunno about you UP but everytime I think my life is mapped out something changes.

I definitely don't think you've seen your last chance at happiness go by - not by a long chalk

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Old 09-18-2017, 08:58 PM
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Hi Gang.....how's everyone doing? I'll start....OK but not good but with drinking. Stopped yesterday after a few & haven't drank today. Petty depressed but just going to take it easy on myself this week & not drink. I'm not very good support to anyone here & have been at this for awhile.

The rains finally came today which will help get these wildfires under control. Have lived here all my life & have never seen it so bad......something my Dad, a Forester saw coming with the decline of forest management for fear the owls wouldn't have a place to live & other ridiculousness so this summer we watched our beautiful forests burn. Anyway, looks like rain for a week so there will be a lot of happy Forest Fighters going home soon now, bless their hearts.

TS, looks like it's going to be a rough hurricane season & hope Maria settles down. Are you back to your original new schedule?

Hi Up....how are you doing?

Hope your having a restful Holiday Free

Hope your doing OK Obo & Dee

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Old 09-18-2017, 09:06 PM
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Posted at the same time Up Im glad you have that faith Up.....always my saving grace. So glad you were there for your Mom.
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Old 09-18-2017, 09:44 PM
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Hope things are good with you too Izzy
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Old 09-19-2017, 12:48 PM
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I'm not saying that things are mapped out, or that I have a clue about what lies around the next corner. I do believe that there is a guiding hand.

Hope things improve for you Mariah.
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Old 09-19-2017, 05:11 PM
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I'm fine thanks Mariah - hope Obo is too...Obo?

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Old 09-20-2017, 07:22 PM
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How are you all doing?

I was struggling with anxiety earlier today. So many unknowns.

Where has top been?
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Old 09-22-2017, 05:21 PM
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Day 5 today.......i will check in here now & again as I continue my journey.
Keep up the good work Tops, Up, Freein.....Dee. Be Cool Fools
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Up, I'm sorry for your loss. I'm happy you've found some solace via god for these hard times.

Mariah, congrats on the five days! I hope those wild fires dissipate.

Tops- I've been considering trying fasting lately. My sleep is hit or miss though, so something to consider, haha.

Hey guys, sorry it's been so long. I think of this from time to time. I hope you are all well and in good health.

Life continues to get better. Some days are harder than others of course, but I'm really settling into my recovery. I had 20 months on 9/16 and am grateful for all the support from this site.

Sorry I don't recall the last time I posted. I returned from South America in May. It was nothing short of miracle I was able to spend 6 weeks from home on holiday and not have an urge to use drugs or alcohol. If you would have told me 20 months ago I would be in Columbia and not doing massive amounts of cocaine, I would have called you a liar! haha

On the home front, I'm well into my fourth semester in graduate school. I also moved back home at 30, haha. It felt strange, but I've decided I want to take another big trip next May, so it's the only way to afford that.

On the recovery front, my routine is currently two AA meetings a week. I've found two that are full of people who inspire me and keep me interested in recovery. I'm also excited about a new Refuge Recovery meeting that is starting tomorrow.

Well, that's all for now. I will try to not be such a stranger!
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Hi everyone, I'm back home today, and wanted to catch up on what's going on.

UP, I'm sorry to hear your mum has passed away too. It's a sad time for sure. I hope your family can find a way to come together and support each other a bit better. It's painful enough without all of the nonsense going on, I hope you're coping with everything you need to do. My thoughts are with you.

I had a very quiet, reflective time while I was away. People deal with bereavement differently, I like lots of time on my own, and that's what I've been able to do these last two weeks.

Now I'm home I need to let my digestive system get back to its normal functioning! I've not been eating my usual plant based foods, it's all been a bit haphazard. I'm looking forward to getting back to my exercise routine too.

So I have a date with my skipping rope tomorrow before breakfast.

I've had an e-mail to say that I have an interview for another job, and its a job I'd really like to have. I'll need to do quite a bit of work between now and then to update my knowledge and skills, and to be honest I don't stand a great chance of getting it, but the interview will be good experience, and you never know....luck might be on my side.

Noolan, it's good to hear things are going well for you at the moment. Keep up the great work.

Mariah, you'll be back on track soon, it's surprising how quickly the days turn in to weeks and months, then suddenly you realise that you're feeling positive and confident, and you've got your life back again. Let us know if we can help with your journey. You deserve a healthy happy future.

Tops, I would probably benefit from a fast right now to cleanse my body of some of the junk I've fed it recently. I've just had a plate full of mixed salad and a greenish smoothie to get me started.
I hope you get someone to fill that post at work soon, it sounds like your hours have been increasing instead of decreasing. Isn't work a nuisance? We could all devote our time to healthy living and spiritual enlightenment if we didn't have to find ways to pay the bills, we could just float around aimlessly on an astral plane, maybe bumping in to each other on the odd occasion but with no risk of road rage, just tranquillity and peace

That's what a 12 day holiday does for me......cleanses my mind of unnecessary sensibility

I think I need an early night.
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Old 09-28-2017, 04:24 PM
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good to hear from you Noolan and Free

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Noolan ,....just reading about Refuge Recovery ,....it sounds like a fascinating approach !

Welcome back Free ,.... congrats on the upcoming interview ,.... that's pretty darn exciting .

Y'all may ( or may not ) really benefit from intermittent fasting ,...or a longer two or three day fast . They talk about definite contra indicators and candidates who would ( and would not ) benefit from fasting in that one interview between Dr. Mercola and Dr. Jason Fung . It was new info for me to learn ,.....mostly as a dietary intervention as an additional effective tool and so,.....so easily available .

Was sweating it out earlier pushing the walk behind mower ,....and finished up most of what was left on the riding mower . Our soil is very sandy this close to the ocean ,.....so it's never a good idea to mow without a good respirator mask.

Heading down to a wedding in Florida in a couple weeks . I met the groom getting married when I was out in Colorado this past Christmas for the wedding there . These are all cousins of my daughter's extended family .

It's kind of convenient because these folks happen to vacation in Florida ,...hence the idea to marry there,....and it's only about an 8 hour drive I think !?

Free ,....this work thing is a bit of a boondoggle ,... It's currently reduced from a 5 to 4 day workweek ( as of this week ) and in October will be reduced again to a three day workweek,...until they " find" someone. The new schedule in just a few days will be Sun. Mon. ,...and Wed. nights ,....which will be a piece of cake ,...as they say.
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