24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 266
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Originally Posted by erfra7 
Good morning everyone
In a pity mode top with lots anger my foot still broken. Plus thinking Suicide why my brain go there.
But I don't I don't want to drink or drug over it. So here it goes please give me another 24:00 more............................
There are really only two ways to approach life--as victim or as gallant fighter-and you must decide if you want to act or react, deal your own cards or play with a stacked deck. And if you don't decide which way to play with life, it always plays with you.
—Merle Shain
Being the victim is, or was, uncomfortably familiar to many of us. Perhaps some of us are only now realizing we have choices, that we need not let life happen to us. Becoming responsible to ourselves, choosing behavior, beliefs, friends, activities, that please us, though unfamiliar at first, soon exhilarates us. The more choices we make, the more alive we feel. The more alive we feel, the healthier our choices.
Our aim is recovery. Recovering means participating fully in our lives. It means self-assessment and self-direction. It means trusting to move forward, step-by-step, choice-by-choice, knowing all the while that no thoughtful action can trouble us.
Many opportunities to make choices will present themselves today. The choices I make will satisfy me; they will move me toward my goal of recovery.
In a pity mode top with lots anger my foot still broken. Plus thinking Suicide why my brain go there.
But I don't I don't want to drink or drug over it. So here it goes please give me another 24:00 more............................
There are really only two ways to approach life--as victim or as gallant fighter-and you must decide if you want to act or react, deal your own cards or play with a stacked deck. And if you don't decide which way to play with life, it always plays with you.
—Merle Shain
Being the victim is, or was, uncomfortably familiar to many of us. Perhaps some of us are only now realizing we have choices, that we need not let life happen to us. Becoming responsible to ourselves, choosing behavior, beliefs, friends, activities, that please us, though unfamiliar at first, soon exhilarates us. The more choices we make, the more alive we feel. The more alive we feel, the healthier our choices.
Our aim is recovery. Recovering means participating fully in our lives. It means self-assessment and self-direction. It means trusting to move forward, step-by-step, choice-by-choice, knowing all the while that no thoughtful action can trouble us.
Many opportunities to make choices will present themselves today. The choices I make will satisfy me; they will move me toward my goal of recovery.
You are not alone.
Xxx pebbles xx
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Originally Posted by Babs1234
hi Everyone !
24 more please
A great congratulations to all the milstoners today ! ! ! !
I had that ugly AV voice hit me over the 4th and It's not been around
that bad for a long time. It passed. Thanks for being here.
hugs
Babs
24 more please
A great congratulations to all the milstoners today ! ! ! !
I had that ugly AV voice hit me over the 4th and It's not been around
that bad for a long time. It passed. Thanks for being here.
hugs
Babs
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Originally Posted by erfra7
Good morning everyone
In a pity mode top with lots anger my foot still broken. Plus thinking Suicide why my brain go there.
But I don't I don't want to drink or drug over it. So here it goes please give me another 24:00 more............................
There are really only two ways to approach life--as victim or as gallant fighter-and you must decide if you want to act or react, deal your own cards or play with a stacked deck. And if you don't decide which way to play with life, it always plays with you.
—Merle Shain
Being the victim is, or was, uncomfortably familiar to many of us. Perhaps some of us are only now realizing we have choices, that we need not let life happen to us. Becoming responsible to ourselves, choosing behavior, beliefs, friends, activities, that please us, though unfamiliar at first, soon exhilarates us. The more choices we make, the more alive we feel. The more alive we feel, the healthier our choices.
Our aim is recovery. Recovering means participating fully in our lives. It means self-assessment and self-direction. It means trusting to move forward, step-by-step, choice-by-choice, knowing all the while that no thoughtful action can trouble us.
Many opportunities to make choices will present themselves today. The choices I make will satisfy me; they will move me toward my goal of recovery.
In a pity mode top with lots anger my foot still broken. Plus thinking Suicide why my brain go there.
But I don't I don't want to drink or drug over it. So here it goes please give me another 24:00 more............................
There are really only two ways to approach life--as victim or as gallant fighter-and you must decide if you want to act or react, deal your own cards or play with a stacked deck. And if you don't decide which way to play with life, it always plays with you.
—Merle Shain
Being the victim is, or was, uncomfortably familiar to many of us. Perhaps some of us are only now realizing we have choices, that we need not let life happen to us. Becoming responsible to ourselves, choosing behavior, beliefs, friends, activities, that please us, though unfamiliar at first, soon exhilarates us. The more choices we make, the more alive we feel. The more alive we feel, the healthier our choices.
Our aim is recovery. Recovering means participating fully in our lives. It means self-assessment and self-direction. It means trusting to move forward, step-by-step, choice-by-choice, knowing all the while that no thoughtful action can trouble us.
Many opportunities to make choices will present themselves today. The choices I make will satisfy me; they will move me toward my goal of recovery.
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Really struggling today.
I think yesterday was just too much for me- too much socialization, too much stress with the AV tempting me at the pool, and too much stress wondering how much my husband was going to drink (he only had 2 beers.)
I'm just in a bad place and I want this feeling to end.
I think yesterday was just too much for me- too much socialization, too much stress with the AV tempting me at the pool, and too much stress wondering how much my husband was going to drink (he only had 2 beers.)
I'm just in a bad place and I want this feeling to end.
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Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife
Really struggling today.
I think yesterday was just too much for me- too much socialization, too much stress with the AV tempting me at the pool, and too much stress wondering how much my husband was going to drink (he only had 2 beers.)
I'm just in a bad place and I want this feeling to end.
I think yesterday was just too much for me- too much socialization, too much stress with the AV tempting me at the pool, and too much stress wondering how much my husband was going to drink (he only had 2 beers.)
I'm just in a bad place and I want this feeling to end.
Sorry you are having a rough day. I am proud of you for yesterday, and I also appreciate your kind words to me on my previous post. I am sending you lots of love. What are your plans for today?
❤️Delilah
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10:44 in California and checking in for another 24. Heading to the beach with the kids for a few hours, and then heading to Hatha yoga tonight at 6:00. The class is an hour and a half, and always puts my mind in a good place.
Thank you to all of you who offered positive comment and suggestions on my post last night. First, it is nice to know that others have had those pesky thoughts after a good amount of sober time. Second, it was nice to just have your support.
I'm glad I was never tempted to act on the thought, and also suppose the awareness is good, and will just ensure I continue to work on the things that have really helped me in recovery. That is why I combining two of my favorite things today: the beach for the day to relax by the waves of the ocean, and then yoga tonight to relax, reset, and recharge.
Hope everyone is having a great day.
❤️Delilah
Thank you to all of you who offered positive comment and suggestions on my post last night. First, it is nice to know that others have had those pesky thoughts after a good amount of sober time. Second, it was nice to just have your support.
I'm glad I was never tempted to act on the thought, and also suppose the awareness is good, and will just ensure I continue to work on the things that have really helped me in recovery. That is why I combining two of my favorite things today: the beach for the day to relax by the waves of the ocean, and then yoga tonight to relax, reset, and recharge.
Hope everyone is having a great day.
❤️Delilah
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Some days I feel like a big fat fraud. I mean what gives me the right to give anyone advice? The one and only thing I have managed to do is not drink alcohol for 77 days. Don't get me wrong that's amazing for me and I am happy and proud about it. But my brain is exactly the same. Except now it's sugar it's caffeine it's nicotine it's TV it's social media...... I could go on. Mood swings, anger, fear, lethargy...... all run rampant at times. It's like instead of just an AV my little voice wants to sabotage any progress I make in terms of my self esteem. Maybe it is just an AV trying other tactics to bring me back "see nothing is better yet plus you're moody and getting fatter by the day so might as well drink" I dont really know whats going on in my crazy mixed up head. All I do know is that I have a long way to go and I'm going to try my best
Take care all and hugs to anyone suffering. We are doing an amazing thing ❤❤❤
Take care all and hugs to anyone suffering. We are doing an amazing thing ❤❤❤
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Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife
Really struggling today.
I think yesterday was just too much for me- too much socialization, too much stress with the AV tempting me at the pool, and too much stress wondering how much my husband was going to drink (he only had 2 beers.)
I'm just in a bad place and I want this feeling to end.
I think yesterday was just too much for me- too much socialization, too much stress with the AV tempting me at the pool, and too much stress wondering how much my husband was going to drink (he only had 2 beers.)
I'm just in a bad place and I want this feeling to end.
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Originally Posted by joandmelandhan
Some days I feel like a big fat fraud. I mean what gives me the right to give anyone advice? The one and only thing I have managed to do is not drink alcohol for 77 days. Don't get me wrong that's amazing for me and I am happy and proud about it. But my brain is exactly the same. Except now it's sugar it's caffeine it's nicotine it's TV it's social media...... I could go on. Mood swings, anger, fear, lethargy...... all run rampant at times. It's like instead of just an AV my little voice wants to sabotage any progress I make in terms of my self esteem. Maybe it is just an AV trying other tactics to bring me back "see nothing is better yet plus you're moody and getting fatter by the day so might as well drink" I dont really know whats going on in my crazy mixed up head. All I do know is that I have a long way to go and I'm going to try my best
Take care all and hugs to anyone suffering. We are doing an amazing thing ❤❤❤
Take care all and hugs to anyone suffering. We are doing an amazing thing ❤❤❤
Keep walking the walk, Jo. You are doing a fantastic job and I am so grateful you are part of my recovery. Get out of your head. Go for a walk, read a good book. You are amazing.
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Originally Posted by Bobbieka
Keep walking the walk, Jo. You are doing a fantastic job and I am so grateful you are part of my recovery. Get out of your head. Go for a walk, read a good book. You are amazing.
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Originally Posted by Delilah1
Hi Sunny,
Sorry you are having a rough day. I am proud of you for yesterday, and I also appreciate your kind words to me on my previous post. I am sending you lots of love. What are your plans for today?
❤️Delilah
Sorry you are having a rough day. I am proud of you for yesterday, and I also appreciate your kind words to me on my previous post. I am sending you lots of love. What are your plans for today?
❤️Delilah
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Originally Posted by Bobbieka
Hey, you got this. We often get the "I made it through the tough moment, now I deserve a drink" thought. It will end. You survived the first two months, you can survive a little AV attention. Just let it know it doesn't get to take up space in your life anymore. Hugs, Sunny.
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Good afternoon, SR peoples! Checking in from Idaho and am ready for another 24. I hope everyone had a safe, sober, and happy 4th!
p.s., a prayer for you today from me, efra. p.s. 2.0, I know exactly how you feel, Sunflower!
p.s., a prayer for you today from me, efra. p.s. 2.0, I know exactly how you feel, Sunflower!
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Originally Posted by joandmelandhan
Some days I feel like a big fat fraud. I mean what gives me the right to give anyone advice? The one and only thing I have managed to do is not drink alcohol for 77 days. Don't get me wrong that's amazing for me and I am happy and proud about it. But my brain is exactly the same. Except now it's sugar it's caffeine it's nicotine it's TV it's social media...... I could go on. Mood swings, anger, fear, lethargy...... all run rampant at times. It's like instead of just an AV my little voice wants to sabotage any progress I make in terms of my self esteem. Maybe it is just an AV trying other tactics to bring me back "see nothing is better yet plus you're moody and getting fatter by the day so might as well drink" I dont really know whats going on in my crazy mixed up head. All I do know is that I have a long way to go and I'm going to try my best
Take care all and hugs to anyone suffering. We are doing an amazing thing ❤❤❤
Take care all and hugs to anyone suffering. We are doing an amazing thing ❤❤❤
But you know what? We are sober. We are freaking changing the most important thing in the world for ourselves and for those we love. We are choosing to love ourselves after years of abuse. We are choosing life over death. We are choosing clarity over toxic, poisoned thinking.
I think the rest will slowly fall into place.
Let's give ourselves a little break. It's okay to have an "off" day filled with sugar and cigarettes. It's OKAY.
Hang in there, maybe tomorrow we will feel better. You are in no way a fraud- you are loving, caring and helpful towards others. And most importantly you are HERE because you want a better life. Let's try to go easy on ourselves for the rest of the day. It's going to be okay, a few extra calories and some wasted social media time and all. It's really going to be okay.
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