24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 262
Member
Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: Northern Michigan
Posts: 28,801
Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper 
Hi, it's me again. Another day done, sober. It's a good day, even though it seems like everything is going south.
Thank you Efra and Leigh and Giving and Kris and everyone for your encouragement. Giving, you will find work soon, I am sure.
I can make a job change. I have a decent job money-wise, and actual work-wise--it is the environment. I can work for a smaller entity, or solo so I can help reverse some blood pressure and insomnia issues . I don't absolutely have to stay in a massive, very noisy open office doing database and server work indefinitely., right. They have databases and servers in other places, or you can work remotely. I need to get ready .
I will stay hopeful and not let a temporary situation get me down. I have lots to focus on that is good.
Thanks again
Red
Thank you Efra and Leigh and Giving and Kris and everyone for your encouragement. Giving, you will find work soon, I am sure.
I can make a job change. I have a decent job money-wise, and actual work-wise--it is the environment. I can work for a smaller entity, or solo so I can help reverse some blood pressure and insomnia issues . I don't absolutely have to stay in a massive, very noisy open office doing database and server work indefinitely., right. They have databases and servers in other places, or you can work remotely. I need to get ready .
I will stay hopeful and not let a temporary situation get me down. I have lots to focus on that is good.
Thanks again
Red
Member
Join Date: Apr 2016
Location: UK
Posts: 4,553
Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper
Hi, it's me again. Another day done, sober. It's a good day, even though it seems like everything is going south.
Thank you Efra and Leigh and Giving and Kris and everyone for your encouragement. Giving, you will find work soon, I am sure.
I can make a job change. I have a decent job money-wise, and actual work-wise--it is the environment. I can work for a smaller entity, or solo so I can help reverse some blood pressure and insomnia issues . I don't absolutely have to stay in a massive, very noisy open office doing database and server work indefinitely., right. They have databases and servers in other places, or you can work remotely. I need to get ready .
I will stay hopeful and not let a temporary situation get me down. I have lots to focus on that is good.
Thanks again
Red
Thank you Efra and Leigh and Giving and Kris and everyone for your encouragement. Giving, you will find work soon, I am sure.
I can make a job change. I have a decent job money-wise, and actual work-wise--it is the environment. I can work for a smaller entity, or solo so I can help reverse some blood pressure and insomnia issues . I don't absolutely have to stay in a massive, very noisy open office doing database and server work indefinitely., right. They have databases and servers in other places, or you can work remotely. I need to get ready .
I will stay hopeful and not let a temporary situation get me down. I have lots to focus on that is good.
Thanks again
Red
I'm going to tell you something now. I've not really got one true friend. Out there in the real world I mean. I've 2 beautiful daughters, a lovely family and caring boyfriend so I'm very lucky don't get me wrong. But friends? No. The L in HALT at times is an issue for me.
Sorry for rambling I just wanted to let you know you are not alone in this journey. If it was easy we wouldn't be here. Being scared and tired and anxious and confused and angry are all part of the process I think.
You inspire me Red just like many others here I hope you find some way of finding a little more peace soon ❤❤❤
Member
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Strailya
Posts: 8,021
Checking in for 24 hours. A good 24 hours have past with some hard runs and reflections.
I've been reading the posts of late with some folks struggling. FWIW, my personal experience (so far!) is the sober path is a deliberate journey I undertook. Its a long journey that has good, bad and unexpected experiences. A key aspect I have learned is to be patient and have no expectations.
One can plan for the future, reflect on the past but one can only live in the present.
Every day is new.
Every day unfolds with new opportunities.
Let go of expectations. You will be in for some very pleasant surprises
Congrats to all the milestoners. *****, way to go !
Another 24 hours of well being, loving kindness and sobriety pls ! Its 8:36am here !
I've been reading the posts of late with some folks struggling. FWIW, my personal experience (so far!) is the sober path is a deliberate journey I undertook. Its a long journey that has good, bad and unexpected experiences. A key aspect I have learned is to be patient and have no expectations.
One can plan for the future, reflect on the past but one can only live in the present.
Every day is new.
Every day unfolds with new opportunities.
Let go of expectations. You will be in for some very pleasant surprises
Congrats to all the milestoners. *****, way to go !
Another 24 hours of well being, loving kindness and sobriety pls ! Its 8:36am here !
Member
Join Date: Apr 2017
Posts: 382
Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper
Hi, it's me again. Another day done, sober. It's a good day, even though it seems like everything is going south.
Thank you Efra and Leigh and Giving and Kris and everyone for your encouragement. Giving, you will find work soon, I am sure.
I can make a job change. I have a decent job money-wise, and actual work-wise--it is the environment. I can work for a smaller entity, or solo so I can help reverse some blood pressure and insomnia issues . I don't absolutely have to stay in a massive, very noisy open office doing database and server work indefinitely., right. They have databases and servers in other places, or you can work remotely. I need to get ready .
I will stay hopeful and not let a temporary situation get me down. I have lots to focus on that is good.
Thanks again
Red
Thank you Efra and Leigh and Giving and Kris and everyone for your encouragement. Giving, you will find work soon, I am sure.
I can make a job change. I have a decent job money-wise, and actual work-wise--it is the environment. I can work for a smaller entity, or solo so I can help reverse some blood pressure and insomnia issues . I don't absolutely have to stay in a massive, very noisy open office doing database and server work indefinitely., right. They have databases and servers in other places, or you can work remotely. I need to get ready .
I will stay hopeful and not let a temporary situation get me down. I have lots to focus on that is good.
Thanks again
Red
Member
Join Date: May 2016
Location: Texas, US
Posts: 2,478
Originally Posted by joandmelandhan
(((Red))) I'm kind of starting to think there's something about this 2 month mark. I've seen a lot of it about me included. I think we're really starting to live life as it is warts and all and it's comes as a bit of an overwhelming shock. Ive had to do some kind of emergency recovery plan work this week as I was lost and upset and actually angry. Also I don't know about you but I'm also having to face myself as a person who's papered over the cracks with wine for 15 years. I'm not keen on her yet but I have to trust that with a plan and with sobriety and with TIME this will improve.
I'm going to tell you something now. I've not really got one true friend. Out there in the real world I mean. I've 2 beautiful daughters, a lovely family and caring boyfriend so I'm very lucky don't get me wrong. But friends? No. The L in HALT at times is an issue for me.
Sorry for rambling I just wanted to let you know you are not alone in this journey. If it was easy we wouldn't be here. Being scared and tired and anxious and confused and angry are all part of the process I think.
You inspire me Red just like many others here I hope you find some way of finding a little more peace soon ❤❤❤
I'm going to tell you something now. I've not really got one true friend. Out there in the real world I mean. I've 2 beautiful daughters, a lovely family and caring boyfriend so I'm very lucky don't get me wrong. But friends? No. The L in HALT at times is an issue for me.
Sorry for rambling I just wanted to let you know you are not alone in this journey. If it was easy we wouldn't be here. Being scared and tired and anxious and confused and angry are all part of the process I think.
You inspire me Red just like many others here I hope you find some way of finding a little more peace soon ❤❤❤
Thank you so much. Please message any time. We are headed for easier times, but have this wonderful group of friends here to help us through. I want to start helping others too. Love sober life too much. A day like this is still better than any day drinking.
xx.
Red
Member
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Strailya
Posts: 8,021
Hey Givingup54
I am going through a similar experience to you. I am also in my 50s. Its hard. What I have learnt is to not give up. Persevere, persevere, persevere. It may take a long time but opportunities will arise. Be patient !
I am going through a similar experience to you. I am also in my 50s. Its hard. What I have learnt is to not give up. Persevere, persevere, persevere. It may take a long time but opportunities will arise. Be patient !
Member
Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: Northern Michigan
Posts: 28,801
Celebration time!
Serving a Four Layer Chocolate Cake with Fudge Frosting for our awesome celebrants today. They are Badger with 3 Terrific Weeks, Neoo with Five Fantastic Months, Venuscat with 2 Beautiful Years and 8 Months and 1new with a Fabuous Four Years and 10 Months!!!! Awesome Job Guys!
and Bananna Ice Cream!
Serving a Four Layer Chocolate Cake with Fudge Frosting for our awesome celebrants today. They are Badger with 3 Terrific Weeks, Neoo with Five Fantastic Months, Venuscat with 2 Beautiful Years and 8 Months and 1new with a Fabuous Four Years and 10 Months!!!! Awesome Job Guys!
and Bananna Ice Cream!
Member
Join Date: Apr 2017
Posts: 382
Originally Posted by Kaneda8888
Hey Givingup54
I am going through a similar experience to you. I am also in my 50s. Its hard. What I have learnt is to not give up. Persevere, persevere, persevere. It may take a long time but opportunities will arise. Be patient !
I am going through a similar experience to you. I am also in my 50s. Its hard. What I have learnt is to not give up. Persevere, persevere, persevere. It may take a long time but opportunities will arise. Be patient !
Keep Going
Join Date: Apr 2017
Location: England
Posts: 1,530
Originally Posted by SoberLeigh
Good afternoon, Weev!!!!!
Googling time zones hasn't helped!!!
💜💜💜
Member
Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: German Village, Columbus with my love ♥
Posts: 88,496
Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper
I am really down today. I need to stop counting days because I don't have enough. Two months is nothing. It feels like so much longer. There is so much to do--I just feel lost and worried that I won't be able to put my life back together as fast as I need to. I need to find a new job and new friendships--I am alone. It's just one of those days where it feels like too much but I will not drink. I may not see any hope but it's there.
60 days is fantastic.....60 days is a miracle I never ever believed could achieve when I started this journey.
Everything that we have to do and want to do starts here. With this.
As for fast....I know that feeling. I know how scary it can be to see how much there is to do. But you only want to do all of this because of those amazing 60 days that you have worked so hard for.
It will all come....perhaps not in the timeframe that you had in mind, but that's part of the process. Learning to be patient. Learning that it is not all in our hands. But it IS all possible, and it will happen. You need to stay strong and believe.
It's going to be OK.
So much love.
♥
Member
Join Date: May 2016
Location: Texas, US
Posts: 2,478
Originally Posted by Kris47
Get out and go for a walk, a meeting, the zoo or museum. Do something when this feeling hits. Call me.
thank you my friend, Have a great night and I hope your husband is doing better and that you are feeling better. I know it's been hard for you lately and we are here for you, dear Kris!
xx
Red
Member
Join Date: May 2016
Location: Texas, US
Posts: 2,478
Originally Posted by venuscat
Two months is everything. It is day after day after day sober.
60 days is fantastic.....60 days is a miracle I never ever believed could achieve when I started this journey.
Everything that we have to do and want to do starts here. With this.
As for fast....I know that feeling. I know how scary it can be to see how much there is to do. But you only want to do all of this because of those amazing 60 days that you have worked so hard for.
It will all come....perhaps not in the timeframe that you had in mind, but that's part of the process. Learning to be patient. Learning that it is not all in our hands. But it IS all possible, and it will happen. You need to stay strong and believe.
It's going to be OK.
So much love. ♥
60 days is fantastic.....60 days is a miracle I never ever believed could achieve when I started this journey.
Everything that we have to do and want to do starts here. With this.
As for fast....I know that feeling. I know how scary it can be to see how much there is to do. But you only want to do all of this because of those amazing 60 days that you have worked so hard for.
It will all come....perhaps not in the timeframe that you had in mind, but that's part of the process. Learning to be patient. Learning that it is not all in our hands. But it IS all possible, and it will happen. You need to stay strong and believe.
It's going to be OK.
So much love.
♥Love back, have a great night
Red
Member
Join Date: May 2016
Location: Texas, US
Posts: 2,478
Dear Giving up,
We will have great lives sober. Jobs will change, relationships change for the better..it's just scary and so slow it's hard to notice. I would like to make some major changes and I am, I just don't see it yet. I started school and a new career as a sober woman in 2007 and was sober 6 years. Slowly, things began to unravel. I got stuck in a less than good environment due to a reorganization--nothing about me but I wasn't able to take action while I was beginning to drink again. Today I am sober and will get back to being able to change my circumstances again. Alcohol always, always kept me stuck with less than I could have sober. Sometimes it was a bad relationship, or a bad job...but there was always that stuck feeling. How wonderful that we are free now and have the means to change. I know other alcoholics are 'functional' or whatever, but I was never one of those. If I could scrape by I was doing great. No more! It will take time but I will make a good life again. I have such wonderful friends to help me, and I can do things for others. It's awesome.
Hugs,
red
We will have great lives sober. Jobs will change, relationships change for the better..it's just scary and so slow it's hard to notice. I would like to make some major changes and I am, I just don't see it yet. I started school and a new career as a sober woman in 2007 and was sober 6 years. Slowly, things began to unravel. I got stuck in a less than good environment due to a reorganization--nothing about me but I wasn't able to take action while I was beginning to drink again. Today I am sober and will get back to being able to change my circumstances again. Alcohol always, always kept me stuck with less than I could have sober. Sometimes it was a bad relationship, or a bad job...but there was always that stuck feeling. How wonderful that we are free now and have the means to change. I know other alcoholics are 'functional' or whatever, but I was never one of those. If I could scrape by I was doing great. No more! It will take time but I will make a good life again. I have such wonderful friends to help me, and I can do things for others. It's awesome.
Hugs,
red
Member
Join Date: May 2016
Location: Texas, US
Posts: 2,478
Efra,
thank you for your beautiful post to me. It is so nice to have this place to come to where people understand the hurt, and the way out of that hurt. I really do need to have more faith, and stop struggling so much. It's hard to slow down but sometimes it's what we need to do.
Sending hugs and many thanks,
Red
thank you for your beautiful post to me. It is so nice to have this place to come to where people understand the hurt, and the way out of that hurt. I really do need to have more faith, and stop struggling so much. It's hard to slow down but sometimes it's what we need to do.
Sending hugs and many thanks,
Red
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 2 (0 members and 2 guests)
