Class of March 2016 part 48
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Thoughts were there again today but didn't act on them. Not gonna act on them. I'm tired of living that way. Maybe it's good that this is such a struggle early on this time--maybe it'll help me remember why I wanted to get sober in the first place when I do get a few days in a row under my belt.
Work was OK. Not dead. Not crazy busy. I made good money overall. Off tomorrow. That's good for the I-don't-wanna-work side of my brain, not so good for my I'm-bored side. I need to make it a recovery day.
Stopped at the grocery store on the way home. Bought a bunch of essentials. Gave the ol' Casey salute to the poison aisle. Just as I got home it started pouring down rain. It's supposed to be pretty bad weather here overnight. Tornado warnings and severe thunderstorms for much of West Texas though I don't think my city is supposed to get any of the former and a less severe version of the latter.
Going to watch tonight's Brooklyn Nine-Nine episodes and play some Zelda. Grateful I'm not drunk. Grateful tomorrow won't be yet another day one. Thanks to all of you for being here even if I wasn't able to check in much today because of work.
Work was OK. Not dead. Not crazy busy. I made good money overall. Off tomorrow. That's good for the I-don't-wanna-work side of my brain, not so good for my I'm-bored side. I need to make it a recovery day.
Stopped at the grocery store on the way home. Bought a bunch of essentials. Gave the ol' Casey salute to the poison aisle. Just as I got home it started pouring down rain. It's supposed to be pretty bad weather here overnight. Tornado warnings and severe thunderstorms for much of West Texas though I don't think my city is supposed to get any of the former and a less severe version of the latter.
Going to watch tonight's Brooklyn Nine-Nine episodes and play some Zelda. Grateful I'm not drunk. Grateful tomorrow won't be yet another day one. Thanks to all of you for being here even if I wasn't able to check in much today because of work.
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Hi guys!!
We've been busy bees here. I'm trying to crank through school. We all just want to be done and start our summer break. The weather feels like fall, I'm loving that!
Just wanted to check in real quick. I just discovered a new show on the food network on-demand "iron chef eats" OMG it's porn for for PR
I need to get an episode in before bed.
Night night all!
We've been busy bees here. I'm trying to crank through school. We all just want to be done and start our summer break. The weather feels like fall, I'm loving that!
Just wanted to check in real quick. I just discovered a new show on the food network on-demand "iron chef eats" OMG it's porn for for PR
I need to get an episode in before bed.Night night all!
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I feel a little burned out too Keets but drinkings not the answer.
I won't drink if you won't...and I won't, so...
If there's anything you can drop or offload maybe now is a good lime to do it?
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I won't drink if you won't...and I won't, so...
If there's anything you can drop or offload maybe now is a good lime to do it?
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Morning everyone! Things are crazy with planning my son's graduation, all the end of season sports & banquets but I just wanted to say hello!!! June 1st I can finally relax! Ahhhhhh! Can't wait! Have a great day everyone! Love u!
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Good morning class. Slept amazingly well last night and still up early this morning. Well, early for me anyways.
Off work today. No real plans except not to drink. Because that wouldn't make my day any better and it'd probably make it a lot worse.
Wishing everyone a safe, sober day.
Off work today. No real plans except not to drink. Because that wouldn't make my day any better and it'd probably make it a lot worse.
Wishing everyone a safe, sober day.
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Good morning, awesome people!
Sorry for the struggles Keets and Casey. And Sam and Purple and anyone else having that burned out feeling. I think for me, I started feeling restless. Like that "uncomfortable in my skin" sense of being. It passes and you make great strides in who you are if you let the feelings happen. You guys hang on to today.
Issues with my son again. Not going to bore everyone with the same stuff. I'm kind of burned out with this. He needs to be in rehab. I'm kind of cutting him off, hoping he will get desperate or lonely enough to seek help. I'm sure this action is hurting me way more than him at the moment. I got home last night and my husband straight up asked me if I had been drinking over this? No. I grabbed the breathalyzer, blew, handed it to him and kept doing what I was doing. That is not the way I handle my problems anymore.
I spent time with Kamry last night. At one, she is so fun. Tonight is with the rambunctious Sophia. I am blessed.
Have a great day, everyone!!
Sorry for the struggles Keets and Casey. And Sam and Purple and anyone else having that burned out feeling. I think for me, I started feeling restless. Like that "uncomfortable in my skin" sense of being. It passes and you make great strides in who you are if you let the feelings happen. You guys hang on to today.
Issues with my son again. Not going to bore everyone with the same stuff. I'm kind of burned out with this. He needs to be in rehab. I'm kind of cutting him off, hoping he will get desperate or lonely enough to seek help. I'm sure this action is hurting me way more than him at the moment. I got home last night and my husband straight up asked me if I had been drinking over this? No. I grabbed the breathalyzer, blew, handed it to him and kept doing what I was doing. That is not the way I handle my problems anymore.
I spent time with Kamry last night. At one, she is so fun. Tonight is with the rambunctious Sophia. I am blessed.
Have a great day, everyone!!
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Oh, we hate to be pushed! We get upset and angry when someone is pushing on us. What man likes it? Sometimes God does pushing, and it takes a while for us to realize it is God's pressure on us that we feel. Our natural reaction is to resist and push back.
When we keep getting headaches or stomachaches, maybe we should listen for the message. An unsettled feeling in our lives about women, money, health, work, or something else may carry a message for us. God might be pushing from within. In this program we try to develop our ability to hear God's will for us. Sometimes a problem is, in fact, a spiritual message. When we stop resisting and start listening, we soon grow wiser and stronger.
God, your message is not always clear to me. Today, I will try to put aside my own habit of pushing back so I can have a clearer mind to receive it.
When we keep getting headaches or stomachaches, maybe we should listen for the message. An unsettled feeling in our lives about women, money, health, work, or something else may carry a message for us. God might be pushing from within. In this program we try to develop our ability to hear God's will for us. Sometimes a problem is, in fact, a spiritual message. When we stop resisting and start listening, we soon grow wiser and stronger.
God, your message is not always clear to me. Today, I will try to put aside my own habit of pushing back so I can have a clearer mind to receive it.
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"Some of the posts here have reminder me of how just important it is to focus on today in sobriety. I cannot change yesterday- it is just a memory. Tomorrow has not happened yet- so apart from a bit of an eye to the future 9paying bills, food -etc) my focus has to remain on the here and now- on today" PJ
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While I can understand maybe not wanting to go into detail again here re: your son, Bobbie, please don't ever think you're boring us. We're here if you need to get it out. We're here if you don't. Glad you're one of us. You and your son both are in my thoughts and prayers today.
After posting in here earlier, I ended up going back to sleep for about an hour. Had a VERY vivid dream about my great-grandmother, who pretty much raised me. Woke up and realized that she passed away 10 years ago today. She got to deal with some of the worst of my drinking wreckage and would be glad to know I'm not drinking today.
How's everyone else doing?
After posting in here earlier, I ended up going back to sleep for about an hour. Had a VERY vivid dream about my great-grandmother, who pretty much raised me. Woke up and realized that she passed away 10 years ago today. She got to deal with some of the worst of my drinking wreckage and would be glad to know I'm not drinking today.
How's everyone else doing?
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