Class of March 2016 part 48
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Hey Sam
I remember I used to do so much to stop myself drinking - but when it came down to it once the idea was in my head, I really only made very weak no noises.
I used to console myself I'd done all I could, but that wasn't true.
I know there's a part of you, a big part of you, that doesn't want to drink.
That's the part you need to fuel and thats the part you need to fight for......even of you post 37 times in a row...we can take it
Drinking is so 2016 - get with the programme!
D
I remember I used to do so much to stop myself drinking - but when it came down to it once the idea was in my head, I really only made very weak no noises.
I used to console myself I'd done all I could, but that wasn't true.
I know there's a part of you, a big part of you, that doesn't want to drink.
That's the part you need to fuel and thats the part you need to fight for......even of you post 37 times in a row...we can take it
Drinking is so 2016 - get with the programme!
D
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Originally Posted by Caramel 
Had temptation scratching at the door to be let in today;
processed the thought and when I came home I had a good strong cup of tea, and a meal that included onions, horseradish sauce, pickled beets, butter and salt - all those strong tastes and sensations that give me something else to think about.
I'll have a fresh date in a minute too.
And coffee.
With cream.
Satisfying!
Best wishes, everyone xxx
processed the thought and when I came home I had a good strong cup of tea, and a meal that included onions, horseradish sauce, pickled beets, butter and salt - all those strong tastes and sensations that give me something else to think about.
I'll have a fresh date in a minute too.
And coffee.
With cream.
Satisfying!
Best wishes, everyone xxx
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Originally Posted by Purplrks3647
I managed to stay sober for the ABR gig I went to in March & it was eye opening. By the end of the show I noticed other girls who were drunk & sloppy......made me think, That's normally me.....
Well it's Friday I believe. First cuppa startin' fluid in progress!
Well it's Friday I believe. First cuppa startin' fluid in progress!
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Been on the sick list for a few days.
Welcome FallingLeaves and welcome back Sam - what happened?
Force yourself out of the house and talking to people Casey - you know it makes sense
hugs and best wishes to everyone else too
D
Welcome FallingLeaves and welcome back Sam - what happened?
Force yourself out of the house and talking to people Casey - you know it makes sense
hugs and best wishes to everyone else too
D
Hope you're on the mend.
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Originally Posted by samantha14
Morning class!
Okay well our summer weather has disappeared and it is COLD again! Should warm up through the day today so all is not lost. Lol.
Dee - hope you're on the mend! As for what happened I don't really know. I did do a lot of the right things - I asked for help, I told on myself, I posted here. But I guess in that last moment the darkness I was feeling overtook everything else. It had been coming for a while and I do feel like I gave a valiant effort but I need to get past the idea that it numbs my pain...because it obviously doesn't. Just makes everything worse. The momentary gratification is not worth the long term feelings of shame and worthlessness. Not sure if any of that makes any sense at all...still working it out in my own head. I have a therapy session on Tuesday to discuss some recent changes to my medication so I am exploring every option.
Morning Purplrks! Happy Friday! Are you off this weekend?
Well I am off to work. I have a dentists appointment tonight as I had a filling fall out a few days ago. Man I hate the dentist. Lol
Have a great day everyone. ❤️❤️
Okay well our summer weather has disappeared and it is COLD again! Should warm up through the day today so all is not lost. Lol.
Dee - hope you're on the mend! As for what happened I don't really know. I did do a lot of the right things - I asked for help, I told on myself, I posted here. But I guess in that last moment the darkness I was feeling overtook everything else. It had been coming for a while and I do feel like I gave a valiant effort but I need to get past the idea that it numbs my pain...because it obviously doesn't. Just makes everything worse. The momentary gratification is not worth the long term feelings of shame and worthlessness. Not sure if any of that makes any sense at all...still working it out in my own head. I have a therapy session on Tuesday to discuss some recent changes to my medication so I am exploring every option.
Morning Purplrks! Happy Friday! Are you off this weekend?
Well I am off to work. I have a dentists appointment tonight as I had a filling fall out a few days ago. Man I hate the dentist. Lol
Have a great day everyone. ❤️❤️
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Originally Posted by PhoenixJ
I hope you are on the mend, Dee.
Sam- remember HALTS and triggers over the weekend.
Stay safe LB.
Purp- said a RIP for Chris C. at a lunch time meeting today. Thoughts of mortality. The topic was relapse/busts. I certainly had a lot of experiences to share- and a reminder that material success does not reflect spiritual peace.
Doing a lot of stuff about self esteem and looking at how self perception affects one's view of the world. Ironically based on a doctor by the name of 'Burns'. First found huim when researching the effects of physical burns and depression. Challenfging stuff- if done properly. Today's 'workbook' module looked at how I engaged in various social activities. 300 questions. So intense and challenging when faced without defenc
e mechanisms up.
Sam- remember HALTS and triggers over the weekend.
Stay safe LB.
Purp- said a RIP for Chris C. at a lunch time meeting today. Thoughts of mortality. The topic was relapse/busts. I certainly had a lot of experiences to share- and a reminder that material success does not reflect spiritual peace.
Doing a lot of stuff about self esteem and looking at how self perception affects one's view of the world. Ironically based on a doctor by the name of 'Burns'. First found huim when researching the effects of physical burns and depression. Challenfging stuff- if done properly. Today's 'workbook' module looked at how I engaged in various social activities. 300 questions. So intense and challenging when faced without defenc
e mechanisms up.
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So, I skipped my meeting last night. Just feeling too overscheduled lately. I needed a night off. My husband acted like he thought I was going to go back to drinking again because I didn't go. That man needs Al Anon.
I got some stuff done in my yard, ran 5 miles, just felt like me again. It was Sophia's second birthday. We Facetimed her and I sang to her. Her face lit up. Made my heart light up. Those moments are what it's all about. Her birthday party is Saturday. It will be over the top with lots of booze and food. Everything they do is over the top. Oh well. I will play with Sophia.
Not a lot on my plate today. I'm sure we will play Canasta. (old people cards) Not going to lie - I'm not a big fan, but I do enjoy the Friday night company with the friends that we hang out with. I used to do some serious drinking with these same people. Go figure.
Have a great day everyone!! It's freaking Friday - time to get happy!!
I got some stuff done in my yard, ran 5 miles, just felt like me again. It was Sophia's second birthday. We Facetimed her and I sang to her. Her face lit up. Made my heart light up. Those moments are what it's all about. Her birthday party is Saturday. It will be over the top with lots of booze and food. Everything they do is over the top. Oh well. I will play with Sophia.
Not a lot on my plate today. I'm sure we will play Canasta. (old people cards) Not going to lie - I'm not a big fan, but I do enjoy the Friday night company with the friends that we hang out with. I used to do some serious drinking with these same people. Go figure.
Have a great day everyone!! It's freaking Friday - time to get happy!!
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About the same. Forced myself to do some walking- go to a meeting, do some art. Just that negative default kicking in. In part I think the emotional pain is a reminder I still have aways to go....
meh.
meh.
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Yeah. You know, there are times I'm like so up - "pink cloud" I suppose. Those other days are easier to feel now and don't last as long as they used to. I just go through the healthy motions and then the healthy feelings take over. "fake it till you make it" I suppose.
Your answer is simple. You need to get a profile on match.com or something.
(what? it can't all be serious)
Your answer is simple. You need to get a profile on match.com or something.
(what? it can't all be serious)
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