Class of February 2017 Support Thread Part 5
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I just need to get something to help me make it a full 30 days. Just as a starting point. I can't commit to inpatient because of my job, which I know causes a lot of stress in my life, but that work stress is made worse by drinking. If I stay sober I am much more productive and energetic at work.
I also need a hobby. Something to do between work and bedtime. I waste too much time playing dumb cell phone games and watching YouTube. Exercise will eventually fill that void but I have to get over some aching joints and other crap from alcohol.
I know this stuff is hurting my but I can't seem to stop. Ugh.
I also need a hobby. Something to do between work and bedtime. I waste too much time playing dumb cell phone games and watching YouTube. Exercise will eventually fill that void but I have to get over some aching joints and other crap from alcohol.
I know this stuff is hurting my but I can't seem to stop. Ugh.
The funny thing about me is that I have no desire to drink when I go camping, go on vacation, or any of those things. I always get sober fast. It's home that makes me want to drink. Even when I used to stay at my sister's place to watch the dog, when I drank a lot, I'd want nothing. I'm the same now, hence the talk of getting on a plane.
Another decent day. That is, no booze, nothing crazy happened. I didn't tell you guys, a few days ago I left the lights on in my car. I've jump started 100 cars in my life, and in a moment of distraction I hooked the positive cable to my negative terminal and negative to positive terminal.........BAM!! long story short I absolutely lucked out. I blew the main relay in the car. It's a $10 part. It's fixed. I didn't even damage the battery, which is lucky. Doing that could 'total' any car.
Anyway. My parents have been having a tough time, so being in the house is a more difficult.
I'll check in tomorrow. Good night everyone.
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Another decent day. That is, no booze, nothing crazy happened. I didn't tell you guys, a few days ago I left the lights on in my car. I've jump started 100 cars in my life, and in a moment of distraction I hooked the positive cable to my negative terminal and negative to positive terminal.........BAM!! long story short I absolutely lucked out. I blew the main relay in the car. It's a $10 part. It's fixed. I didn't even damage the battery, which is lucky. Doing that could 'total' any car.
Anyway. My parents have been having a tough time, so being in the house is a more difficult.
I'll check in tomorrow. Good night everyone.
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I'm trying to coordinate switching four phones located in three days different places from one carrier to another. It's exhausting.
Viper, I've managed to reprogram myself so that drinking at home is something that I just don't do. I've literally had that response when my brain decides to pipe up with s suggestion that I get something here. I just didn't my do that.
Now I need to reprogram for camping, but I will freely admit to being ambiguous about it. Which is not a good thing.
Viper, I've managed to reprogram myself so that drinking at home is something that I just don't do. I've literally had that response when my brain decides to pipe up with s suggestion that I get something here. I just didn't my do that.
Now I need to reprogram for camping, but I will freely admit to being ambiguous about it. Which is not a good thing.
My apologies for not posting as much but it's been a busy week.
The bottom line for me, and has been for ten years is that drinking made my life crap.
Not drinking has made it immeasurably better.
Every drink is a vote for the crappy status quo and no change.
If your lifes not immeasurably better yet guys, maybe you've not been working on this for long enough yet.
Thats not a put down or me puffing up my chest - it took me at least 3 months to start thinking out from under the dark cloud drinking had me under for 20 years, and probably another 2 or 3 to trust that new perspective, and then the part about building a sober life I love and didn't want to run away from started...
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The bottom line for me, and has been for ten years is that drinking made my life crap.
Not drinking has made it immeasurably better.
Every drink is a vote for the crappy status quo and no change.
If your lifes not immeasurably better yet guys, maybe you've not been working on this for long enough yet.
Thats not a put down or me puffing up my chest - it took me at least 3 months to start thinking out from under the dark cloud drinking had me under for 20 years, and probably another 2 or 3 to trust that new perspective, and then the part about building a sober life I love and didn't want to run away from started...
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I hear ya, Dee. Need to take those words to heart regarding camping. If I really think about it, what did I get from the beers this past weekend that was better than I would have been without? Nothing at all. Except maybe communing with DH and his state (a fifth and two pints in three days). That's not a worthy goal.
After reading my last post, due to my crazy autocorrect, it looked like I was drunk texting. So lightbulb moment this morning - I was able to reset my iPhone dictionary. Yay!
After reading my last post, due to my crazy autocorrect, it looked like I was drunk texting. So lightbulb moment this morning - I was able to reset my iPhone dictionary. Yay!
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I woke up without a hangover today. Have my sleeping meds back which I am going to try to use a littler more sparingly, but we've agreed my wife controls them, and they do not mix with a single drink (as they shouldn't). So, my best nights sleep is now - don't drink so you can take one. That'll easily get me through the week and we have a busy Daturday. I have a path to success in front of me. An easy one at that. I'll report back to you all!
Axe, not a bad idea. Maybe there are other things like that you can do. I wish I had someone to properly implement some controls, because we/I just don't have them.
Dee is right. At 90 days clarity is fantastic.
Purplecat, keep reprogramming.
I'm planning the rest of the day. I'm packing up the laundry and shaving gear to go to my sister's house and wash the clothes and me. I've been showering almost as often as a normal person now! And I gotta have clean clothes when I get out. Every other day beats the heck out of where I was before.
I've got to pick up an Acura power steering pump I ordered from a junkyard. 'Condition A' used pump $100. Acura new pump $900. I kept bringing the car back for that same issue over and over. Aftermarket pumps don't work. I'll head to my sister's and start that laundry after I get the pump, and my nephew wants to watch Netflix stuff at 3:30. I've got dinner in the car.
Check in later,
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Dee is right. At 90 days clarity is fantastic.
Purplecat, keep reprogramming.
I'm planning the rest of the day. I'm packing up the laundry and shaving gear to go to my sister's house and wash the clothes and me. I've been showering almost as often as a normal person now! And I gotta have clean clothes when I get out. Every other day beats the heck out of where I was before.
I've got to pick up an Acura power steering pump I ordered from a junkyard. 'Condition A' used pump $100. Acura new pump $900. I kept bringing the car back for that same issue over and over. Aftermarket pumps don't work. I'll head to my sister's and start that laundry after I get the pump, and my nephew wants to watch Netflix stuff at 3:30. I've got dinner in the car.
Check in later,
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Every drink is a vote for the crappy status quo and no change.
Every drink is a vote for the crappy status quo and no change.
Every drink is a vote for the crappy status quo and no change.
Repeat 5,000 times.
Every drink is a vote for the crappy status quo and no change.
Every drink is a vote for the crappy status quo and no change.
Repeat 5,000 times.
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I have to confirm what Dee is saying. After about 3 and 1/2 months without alcohol, I am feeling better than I have in a long time. I am currently camping in Greenville, Maine and have only a little over a week remaining before I pick-up my wife for the drive home.
I am really pleased because even the desire to drink has left me, although I am sure it will return again.
I think it is important to remember alcohol doesn't help with stress, it only creates more stress!
Keep tryin guys, it is worth it!
I am off to catch (and release) some trout/salmon (hopefully!)
I am really pleased because even the desire to drink has left me, although I am sure it will return again.
I think it is important to remember alcohol doesn't help with stress, it only creates more stress!
Keep tryin guys, it is worth it!
I am off to catch (and release) some trout/salmon (hopefully!)
Hi folks. Good day.
Thanks all. I met with my therapist. My new meds were ready and I picked them up. I feel have they have a lot of promise for me.
I'm just chillin' right now and for the last few days. The AV tried talking to me today but was just shut down by something.
I'm trying to figure a way out of this little trap I'm in. I need to redirect my energy because I'm just going in circles. There is no answer with things as they stand. I'm looping in my head and I see I'm in 'impending catastrophe' mode, none of which is helpful.
Ok. Later on folks. Either before bed or tomorrow.
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Thanks all. I met with my therapist. My new meds were ready and I picked them up. I feel have they have a lot of promise for me.
I'm just chillin' right now and for the last few days. The AV tried talking to me today but was just shut down by something.
I'm trying to figure a way out of this little trap I'm in. I need to redirect my energy because I'm just going in circles. There is no answer with things as they stand. I'm looping in my head and I see I'm in 'impending catastrophe' mode, none of which is helpful.
Ok. Later on folks. Either before bed or tomorrow.
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I am in a similar place as retired guy as far as not drinking goes. I am also 3.5 months in and I feel so much better. I have no desire to drink and my AV has been surprisingly quiet and easily recognizable when he does pipe up. I made it through the camping weekend and while others drank in moderation (which never used to happen with these particular folks) it didn't interest me in the least and I had an absolute blast. Today I played in an industry charity golf scramble which has a solid, well deserved reputation as a drunk fest and I didn't even think of drinking and without even thinking about it came into work and got some good stuff done. In past years I would still be at the course 6 hours after my round ended and nearing black out status still being drunk for the first part of tomorrows round until I powered on to the next blackout while spending the weekend drinking more or just trying to recover. I will easily rise and play golf again tomorrow and still be able to work in the afternoon if needed and have plenty left for whatever the weekend brings. I only wish I would have stayed with it 5 years ago when I first realized that I had an addiction. I don't dwell on it though I simply move forward each day and find a way to enjoy today. It feels so worth it. Keep moving forward everyone and find what it takes for you to find a sober path. I believe any thoughts to the contrary are the addictions talking not the wonderful humans trying to kick them to the curb.
Hi everyone. Another month in the books, and it's been great aside from some depression/anxiety earlier in the week. It's something I've been aware of having, though it hasn't manifested in a while. Instead of letting it trap me in a hole for weeks on end, I acknowledged it and treated it like a cold. Forced exercise, reading, and early bedtimes if I felt like it. I don't know why I never thought to do that before, but it helped.
Retiredguy, good luck fishing and hope you do okay adjusting to not living in a tent. Nexttime, the way you describe your past golf tournaments sounds a lot like the war stories I hear from some folks at work (I just assumed that's how golf worked ). Viper, find whatever that thing was that shut down your AV and channel it.
Company shindig tomorrow with food and keg beer. It will be interesting.
Retiredguy, good luck fishing and hope you do okay adjusting to not living in a tent. Nexttime, the way you describe your past golf tournaments sounds a lot like the war stories I hear from some folks at work (I just assumed that's how golf worked ). Viper, find whatever that thing was that shut down your AV and channel it.
Company shindig tomorrow with food and keg beer. It will be interesting.
Axeman, you're right, getting that first 30 days is imperative. You don't get your head screwed on right and really realize the situation until 30 days, give or take. I'm trying to get back there. And these folks are right at 3 months. I was so much better.
Good job Oaks.
Ok. 10pm. Lights out.
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Good job Oaks.
Ok. 10pm. Lights out.
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