24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 236
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Originally Posted by Mizzuno 
24 more please and Thank You.
A bit of a tough day. I have multiple facets in my work. Expectations are quite high with upper management. I can reach some of those expectations and then some are unrealistic.
This morning, a friend mentioned my Birthday. Asked me if I remember the event. Asked twice if I remember. As if I blacked out. I didn't and yes I do remember. I remember that I was not in control of my words. I remember. Even though it was a good time shame covered me like a blanket today. I couldn't shake it. I was trapped in feeling. The flood gates of emotions opened and I was raw for the remaining of my day.
I remember. I know. I understand that Im an alcoholic. I cannot erase this fact.
I know I am growing. These sudden feelings of shame are bound to come. They only helped to solidify that I no longer have to live in a space of not knowing my words or actions. I choose to remember and be in control of my actions now. It's such a relief. Im free of the cycle of destruction tonight. All we have is this moment to make a different decision.
Have a good night all.
A bit of a tough day. I have multiple facets in my work. Expectations are quite high with upper management. I can reach some of those expectations and then some are unrealistic.
This morning, a friend mentioned my Birthday. Asked me if I remember the event. Asked twice if I remember. As if I blacked out. I didn't and yes I do remember. I remember that I was not in control of my words. I remember. Even though it was a good time shame covered me like a blanket today. I couldn't shake it. I was trapped in feeling. The flood gates of emotions opened and I was raw for the remaining of my day.
I remember. I know. I understand that Im an alcoholic. I cannot erase this fact.
I know I am growing. These sudden feelings of shame are bound to come. They only helped to solidify that I no longer have to live in a space of not knowing my words or actions. I choose to remember and be in control of my actions now. It's such a relief. Im free of the cycle of destruction tonight. All we have is this moment to make a different decision.
Have a good night all.
Each sober day we live and love soon becomes part of our past, a past we can be proud of.
Be proud of today, dear Mizz - a sober day well-lived.
Sending you love.
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23:15 EDT and another 24 for me! Here I am pushing the envelope of time again. Every morning I swear to go to sleep early and again every evening I am here until (almost ) the next day...sounds like my drinking days when the morning commitment was destroyed by happy hour. So grateful to no longer be in THAT place.
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Originally Posted by Vinificent
23:15 EDT and another 24 for me! Here I am pushing the envelope of tI'm again. Every morning I swear to go to sleep early and again every evening I am here until (almost ) the next day...sounds like my drinking days when the morning commitment was destroyed by happy hour. So grateful to no longer be in THAT place.
It's far past the bewitching hour
THAT place was so dreadful, wasn't it????? Why in the world did we hang out there for so long?????
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Originally Posted by SoberLeigh
Sounds familiar, Vini.
It's far past the bewitching hour
THAT place was so dreadful, wasn't it????? Why in the world did we hang out there for so long?????
It's far past the bewitching hour
THAT place was so dreadful, wasn't it????? Why in the world did we hang out there for so long?????
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Originally Posted by Mystikaldawn
Its only been 25 hours for me, and us here in Newfoundland love our Newfie Screech... But I would love another 24 hours away from it!
Best wishes everyone!
Best wishes everyone!
So many hugs and wishing you a wonderful day tomorrow.
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Originally Posted by Mizzuno
24 more please and Thank You.
A bit of a tough day. I have multiple facets in my work. Expectations are quite high with upper management. I can reach some of those expectations and then some are unrealistic.
This morning, a friend mentioned my Birthday. Asked me if I remember the event. Asked twice if I remember. As if I blacked out. I didn't and yes I do remember. I remember that I was not in control of my words. I remember. Even though it was a good time shame covered me like a blanket today. I couldn't shake it. I was trapped in feeling. The flood gates of emotions opened and I was raw for the remaining of my day.
I remember. I know. I understand that Im an alcoholic. I cannot erase this fact.
I know I am growing. These sudden feelings of shame are bound to come. They only helped to solidify that I no longer have to live in a space of not knowing my words or actions. I choose to remember and be in control of my actions now. It's such a relief. Im free of the cycle of destruction tonight. All we have is this moment to make a different decision.
Have a good night all.
A bit of a tough day. I have multiple facets in my work. Expectations are quite high with upper management. I can reach some of those expectations and then some are unrealistic.
This morning, a friend mentioned my Birthday. Asked me if I remember the event. Asked twice if I remember. As if I blacked out. I didn't and yes I do remember. I remember that I was not in control of my words. I remember. Even though it was a good time shame covered me like a blanket today. I couldn't shake it. I was trapped in feeling. The flood gates of emotions opened and I was raw for the remaining of my day.
I remember. I know. I understand that Im an alcoholic. I cannot erase this fact.
I know I am growing. These sudden feelings of shame are bound to come. They only helped to solidify that I no longer have to live in a space of not knowing my words or actions. I choose to remember and be in control of my actions now. It's such a relief. Im free of the cycle of destruction tonight. All we have is this moment to make a different decision.
Have a good night all.
I know love....I know exactly how that feels.
But, we can choose ~ as you did today ~ to let go of the shame and the pain, because we are not those people anymore.
I am so proud of you, and so proud to be your friend on this journey.
All of us together are truly amazing. :HUG: ♥
and nite-nite,
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