Class of March 2017 Support Thread Part 3
Sunshine, thank you so much for your post. Acceptance is so hard for me. And I am very confused by it all. And obsessed. I cant think about anything else. I am frozen in time, and just lovesick.
I. did drink Friday, and yesterday and will likely today. So its day -1 for me. But I will be back tomorrow.
I. did drink Friday, and yesterday and will likely today. So its day -1 for me. But I will be back tomorrow.
Lofty I am so sorry your hurting like this , please don't pick up , sending strength.
Good for you Lofty. Changing our decision after we had already decided to drink is great sign of strength. As you said your friend won't be drinking so you don't need too either. Enjoy the outdoors and time with your friend. You head will feel "straighter" by the end of day.
JCNY - great way to start the day. The house to myself is my biggest trigger. It is so sad that we thought drinking was a good way to pass the time. Keep busy and enjoy!
Double digits is great Casey. Keep the count moving upwards.
Hope you are all well and have a happy sober day. 😊
JCNY - great way to start the day. The house to myself is my biggest trigger. It is so sad that we thought drinking was a good way to pass the time. Keep busy and enjoy!
Double digits is great Casey. Keep the count moving upwards.
Hope you are all well and have a happy sober day. 😊
Mish and Lofty - thinking of you and sending positive thoughts your way.
Checking in on Day 35. Fought/prayed/meditated through some severe cravings Friday afternoon - that was always a big trip to the liquor store - and made it through just fine. We had old friends up for a visit that we haven't seen in many years yesterday. I felt very comfortable in my own skin, not drinking, and it was a total non-issue. My wife and our friend couple had a glass of wine each and that was all - I was pretty amazed at that. A nice reminder that that is completely impossible and not even desirable for me. I have two choices: continuing on the path I've created for myself over the past month+ or going back to daily binge drinking and all that comes with it. No choice at all.
You're all in my thoughts every day. Keep Rocking it.
Checking in on Day 35. Fought/prayed/meditated through some severe cravings Friday afternoon - that was always a big trip to the liquor store - and made it through just fine. We had old friends up for a visit that we haven't seen in many years yesterday. I felt very comfortable in my own skin, not drinking, and it was a total non-issue. My wife and our friend couple had a glass of wine each and that was all - I was pretty amazed at that. A nice reminder that that is completely impossible and not even desirable for me. I have two choices: continuing on the path I've created for myself over the past month+ or going back to daily binge drinking and all that comes with it. No choice at all.
You're all in my thoughts every day. Keep Rocking it.
Sunshine, thank you so much for your post. Acceptance is so hard for me. And I am very confused by it all. And obsessed. I cant think about anything else. I am frozen in time, and just lovesick.
I. did drink Friday, and yesterday and will likely today. So its day -1 for me. But I will be back tomorrow.
I. did drink Friday, and yesterday and will likely today. So its day -1 for me. But I will be back tomorrow.
Good morning Marchers, it's about 7:30 here in New York. My wife and daughter are going away for 4 days. In the past that was a trigger, but my AV has been quiet on this so far. I think back to days I'd be getting home from work with no plans to drink and find out that I had the house to myself for a few hours, then out came the booze.....SAD
I hope everybody is enjoying the weekend. We are strong, we are sober
I hope everybody is enjoying the weekend. We are strong, we are sober
There's so much to do when they're away. Buy a new piece of furniture and surprise them when they get back. Fix the walkway. Paint the gutters. Or buy records!!!!! Either way, it's all good as long as you're sober. Rock on, SoBro!
Hi Marchers.
Good news, bad news.
Good news: Mr. Arg was away for the weekend, first time since I got sober, and in the wee hours of Saturday morning (up with pain) I gave myself permission to drink Saturday night. But when the time came I decided not to drink. So that's good. And, today is Day 15, so that means that I have surpassed the number of non-drinking days I had since I first made the commitment to quit Feb. 24 (13, and then 11).
Bad news: I am feeling very, very unsteady these days. I know that's just AV trying to set the stage for a relapse, but it's how I'm feeling. My seemingly relentless chronic pain issues, which I was medicating with alcohol, are an easy way for AV to get in.
I feel stuck between two worlds.
Good news, bad news.
Good news: Mr. Arg was away for the weekend, first time since I got sober, and in the wee hours of Saturday morning (up with pain) I gave myself permission to drink Saturday night. But when the time came I decided not to drink. So that's good. And, today is Day 15, so that means that I have surpassed the number of non-drinking days I had since I first made the commitment to quit Feb. 24 (13, and then 11).
Bad news: I am feeling very, very unsteady these days. I know that's just AV trying to set the stage for a relapse, but it's how I'm feeling. My seemingly relentless chronic pain issues, which I was medicating with alcohol, are an easy way for AV to get in.
I feel stuck between two worlds.
Try and remember the AV no body, no arms,. no legs...not even any intelligence besides animal cunning...
it needs you to get what it wants.
You can refuse...and there's nothing the AV can do about it - it may scream and metaphorically throw things about...but like any toddler tantrum it'll end
you can do this argillaceous
D
it needs you to get what it wants.
You can refuse...and there's nothing the AV can do about it - it may scream and metaphorically throw things about...but like any toddler tantrum it'll end
you can do this argillaceous
D
Thanks Dee, I really needed to hear that. Have copied it to an electronic post-it to look at when I have this unsteady feeling (which lately feels like it's creeping in more and more).
No body, no legs, no arms...needs me to do its thing and I can say no. Got it.
No body, no legs, no arms...needs me to do its thing and I can say no. Got it.
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Just a quick check-in. I finished the project I had to do in addition to my taxes, so it was a productive weekend. I am feeling a little down/depressed, but no desire to drink. Drinking isn't an option because I don't drink anymore. I had some herbal tea and will head off to bed. I know the urges and real fight are coming. I've been down this seemingly easy path that lasts just long enough to convince me "I don't have a problem. "
Argi, as you know I can totally relate. You are stronger than the AV! And think about your making your body healthier to fight the chronic pain with treatment options.
BisB, congrats on Day 35! I hear you on the cravings, but just think it through to the next day, that's what I've been doing.
Oh, and today is Day 30 for me!
BisB, congrats on Day 35! I hear you on the cravings, but just think it through to the next day, that's what I've been doing.
Oh, and today is Day 30 for me!
Hello all! BE BRAVE day 30 for me too! Still at the beach. It's heavenly. Only urges I had are the random tiki bars around and we went to a bowling alley and there were pitchers of cold beer everywhere. Quick thoughts races through my head and then played the tape and snapped out of it. Life is good.
Day 1. Ready to tackle this thing and the many life problems that have resulted. And not to save my marriage, but to save myself. I have to get out of this funk, and to stop being a drunk is the only way forward.
You got this Lofty. Try to stay busy and avoid any down time. Text here BEFORE you pick up a drink and wait for support.....
Day 12 and feeling good physically except I'm extremely sleepy. On the mental side I'm not doing quite as well. A little bit of depression is lurking around. It sounds like this is pretty normal. However, this is exactly what led to me drinking in the past because when depressed I just don't care. In any event, there's 0% chance of me drinking because...you guessed it, I don't drink anymore.
On a side note, my wife showed me something family friends posted on social media regarding their high school senior who is getting into some great college. It sounded like a lot of bragging to me. Did I mention how much I despise Fakebook? I don't know, It's probably normal to be resentful when someone is showboating and you're just trying to survive. Anyway, enough of my psychotic rant. I hope to check in tonight to see how everyone is doing.
On a side note, my wife showed me something family friends posted on social media regarding their high school senior who is getting into some great college. It sounded like a lot of bragging to me. Did I mention how much I despise Fakebook? I don't know, It's probably normal to be resentful when someone is showboating and you're just trying to survive. Anyway, enough of my psychotic rant. I hope to check in tonight to see how everyone is doing.
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