CuteNGayYay

Those drinking dreams are a nightmare even if the rest of the dream is normal huh? had quite a few so far. Day 79 here.

dontlookbacchus

Day 95.
Good morning Januarians. A slightly more optimistic morning as my work insanity has cleared slightly.

Congrats Ina, Site, and InaSilentWay for crossing into our 4th month ! More classmates are on the way soon, I think. Amazing to think how far we are getting into this.

J9, you did great being able to socialise, one-on-one, without drinking. I have to be social at a party this weekend and am already planning ahead. Last time I had a sober stretch, my non-alcoholic drink of choice was tonic, on the rocks with a splash of lime cordial and a slice of lime. It has some zing if anyone ever fancies a try. It looks the part at least. I already plan on just moving around meet-and-greet style before bailing.

Well done Cute on 79 !!!

My drinking dreams are crazy also. Just flashes of me reaching for a wine bottle from the fridge, and waking with a jolt, freaking out with regret that I F*cked everything up. Finding out I hadn't is always such a relief.

I was up too early but feel OK. I will see if/when it hits me later on. Ready for my morning exercise. Have a lovely day Januarians.

MrMcTell

Ha! I have been dreaming about drinking quite a bit, actually, which I never did while actively drinking. Quite unpleasant actually.

I think of all these little unwelcome bumps in the road as my addiction adjusting to my sobriety and finding new ways to mess with me. I tell myself all these things are a good sign as it means I am progressing and getting better.

Kimmy2002

Hi there everyone. Day 69 for me! Congratulations to everybody reaching such great milestones. Have a wonderful day. Lots of love to you all. Xx

J9NoWine

Thanks DLB. Good luck at the party and with your exit strategy... shake a few hands, kiss some babies and then 'get the hell out of dodge'!! I will be cheering you on whilst drinking my new found lime bevy and binge watching 'Orange is the New Black'...it is such a novelty to actually make it through a program without passing out on the couch and remember what it was about the next day...who knew??

Have a great 'hump' day everyone!

J9

CuteNGayYay

Can't wait for the new season of OITNB. Def one of my faves! I had a drinking dream right after posting my post last night hahaha. I find it funny. Like MrM said its my addiction messin with me.

Dee74

Congrats Kimmy

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dontlookbacchus

Day 96.
Good morning classmates. A slightly shorter one today as I am running a little late.
Well done Kimmy on 69 !
My insomnia has seemed to have been replaced by complete exhaustion by the end of the day and ridiculously deep sleep. I still get up in the early morning but now feel like a truck hit me. It takes a full cup of coffee just to not feel concussed ! I am not sure if anyone else is still having unusual sleep patterns - other than strange drinking dreams.

I do take this wiping-out as a good sign and much prefer it to laying in bed awake for hours. My days are very long, busy and my exercise routine is slightly more consistent. That is probably why.

Have a wonderful, sober and healthy day classmates, whatever time zone you are in.

J9NoWine

Finding that I really need to get a good 7 to 8 hours of sleep since I stopped drinking. I have been working crazy long hours for the last few weeks and haven't been getting enough sleep...Completely exhausted and not eating/exercising as much as I should. Takes me a while to fully wake up and shake an almost hung over feeling in the mornings.

MrMcTell

Going to bed in a short while, which will mean 77 days. Eleven weeks.

Today is the first day where I have seriously questioned persevering, as I am back in a serious slump again. Not just the regular "Oh. A beer would be nice!" kinda thinking. But really depressive thoughts of just chucking the towel in. I'm getting impatient to feel better again...

Don't worry--- I'm not going back now. NO drinking for me ever again. I plan to give it time. But I've been knocked back definitely in my improvements and feeling sorry for myself.

Dee74

slumps pass Mr T

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jv369

i hear ya. it is day 70 for me and i am certainly in a slump, both mentally and physically. just feel drained.

i have no intention of drinking, but it can be tough to deal with. my impatient addict brain says "it's been sooo long.... a whole 70 days, you should feel awesome all the time by now!" and then i listen to my logical brain say "it's only been 70 days, a mere blip compared to the years of heavy daily drinking....gonna take a while longer to bounce back".

gotta put things in perspective sometimes, it WILL get better.....but not all at once and not right away, takes time. this uncomfortable fact is a big reason why a lot of people relapse in the first year, they don't want to invest the time.

earlier i had convinced myself to stay at home and sulk a bit but then realized that wasn't productive so i forced myself out to a meeting, talked to some people and now i feel more at ease.

good on ya for 11 weeks! keep it going.

Dee74

Patience was not something I had - I wanted to be fixed to feel great, have my life turned around...and I wanted it now...

Of course when I think back that's a very alcoholic/addict way to think...lol

I learned the value of waiting for something and the value of working hard, and keep the faith even on the bad days...

I'm actually pretty patient now too

stay with us jv, Mr M and everyone

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CuteNGayYay

Got thru day 80. 90 will be a big deal for me. Goodnight all

Dee74

That's great CAGY

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site1Q84

I hate seeing that some of us are in a slump!
I think what Dee said rings true - we want things RIGHT NOW. I'm sure that's why we liked drinking in the first place - instant gratification! Just one more thing we all have to adjust to in this new life of ours.

I've been sleeping kind of irregularly too. I travel for work and I used to never be jet lagged, no matter what the time change, but this trip it seems to be taking it's toll on me.

I've been waking up early but using that time by getting up and working out a little bit, even if it's only a 20 minute video on youtube or something. Makes me feel more productive, helps me wake up and I have been sleeping a bit better since I started doing it. Plus I can already see and feel a difference, so that's a plus!

I think it's going to be a long road of trying out new things and seeing what works and what sticks. There's so much more time now that I'm not passing out drunk everywhere!

Dee74

Just remember - this is not the best it gets

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dontlookbacchus

Day 97.
Thanks Dee. It helps to have your longer term perspective as there are so many of us a bit down right now. I am not in a down mood but I certainly do get that way.

Thanks for your perspective, Site. Working out, for me, is a definite way to feel better. That has been a real change for me. Other than that, I tend to just look down. One step at a time and stick to my routine. I don't yet trust my AV to not get involved in any reasoning so am just riding out the good days and bad days. Hopefully heading in the right direction. Maybe I have no expectation that it will all feel great ever.

I can see that loved ones around me are befitting from my sobriety right now. That is enough for me to keep going. Even in the bad days.

Have a great, happy, sober and healthy day team mates.

Dee74

Have a good sober weekend guys

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MrMcTell

Thanks Dee!