F.I.S.T. (The First Insanity Survivors Thread)
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Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: PA and Florida
Posts: 4,179
No plans to drink or use today.
I've learned in recovery that is only one piece of the puzzle. I can fall into insanity thinking in a heartbeat. I call it active-addiction thinking.
I just need to forget to be grateful, let ego dominate my thoughts, think past and future tense, try to change what I have no control over, talk vs listen, not look for ways to give back the gift of sobriety....
A good friend shared a reminder at last night's meeting...my disease is doing push ups in the parking lot.
Sooo, to the degree that I can muster, and along with no drinking today, I plan to be mindful of my stinkin thinkin.
Enjoy the day, all.
Carlos
I've learned in recovery that is only one piece of the puzzle. I can fall into insanity thinking in a heartbeat. I call it active-addiction thinking.
I just need to forget to be grateful, let ego dominate my thoughts, think past and future tense, try to change what I have no control over, talk vs listen, not look for ways to give back the gift of sobriety....
A good friend shared a reminder at last night's meeting...my disease is doing push ups in the parking lot.
Sooo, to the degree that I can muster, and along with no drinking today, I plan to be mindful of my stinkin thinkin.
Enjoy the day, all.
Carlos
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Ashburn, VA
Posts: 30,196
Does that mean "Voice of the people, voice of God?" 
I had some insanity thinking for the last few days: my day was unstructured and I was too lazy to do the next right thing. I knew I was messing up my tight school schedule by procrastinating for no good reason--a complete waste of time that didn't even give me any pleasure or relaxation. In fact, I felt like the sword of Damocles was looming over my head, and deep beneath the exterior I started to feel a bit of hysteria.
So I ate a gargantuan amount. Granted, it wasn't alcohol; but it was same old addictive thinking, hiding behind a substance to help me drown out responsibility.
Thanks to the things I've learned in my alcoholism recovery, though (and thanks to my higher power), I was able to right myself and get back to business this morning.
I'm 3/4 of the way through my homework now: in a few minutes I plan to sit with some music and prepare the marinade for Tandoori Chicken (I've been procrastinating that for days, too! Good thing I'm finally on the ball today: this is the last day the chicken is good!
I had some insanity thinking for the last few days: my day was unstructured and I was too lazy to do the next right thing. I knew I was messing up my tight school schedule by procrastinating for no good reason--a complete waste of time that didn't even give me any pleasure or relaxation. In fact, I felt like the sword of Damocles was looming over my head, and deep beneath the exterior I started to feel a bit of hysteria.
So I ate a gargantuan amount. Granted, it wasn't alcohol; but it was same old addictive thinking, hiding behind a substance to help me drown out responsibility.
Thanks to the things I've learned in my alcoholism recovery, though (and thanks to my higher power), I was able to right myself and get back to business this morning.
I'm 3/4 of the way through my homework now: in a few minutes I plan to sit with some music and prepare the marinade for Tandoori Chicken (I've been procrastinating that for days, too! Good thing I'm finally on the ball today: this is the last day the chicken is good!
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Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: Northern Michigan
Posts: 28,801
All Good over this way today. No drinking for me. On another note, My sponsor has stopped going to meetings for the last month. She says she is doing fine just too busy with work. 
I may be in need of a new sponsor very soon. Prayers for her and maybe you'd join me.
I may be in need of a new sponsor very soon. Prayers for her and maybe you'd join me.
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Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Adelaide, Australia
Posts: 28,668
Mine sponsor is doing weird things. Cancelling meetings with me- 4 lately. I have not changed except perhaps a little bit nicer). But being a big boy (I have a pen ;license now!) I offer support and patience. If the problem is me- to him, then he has to tell me. Patience sometimes helps.
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