courage2

You too, tom!

courage2

By the bye, early returns show "Insanity Survivors" in the lead, but there's still time for voting. Polls don't close until Dee "The Enforcer" makes his next appearance.

Gilmer

Kick some ass, Dee!

courage2

mmm. thinking .... Carlos has a point about us -- we're much more than survivors, and maybe we should lead with power?

Ab-Fab Insanity Survivors?

Or something that can be acronymed (yes, I just verbed):

Fabulous Insanity Survivors Today (F.I.S.T.) ?

SoberLeigh

Like all the names above!

SoberLeigh

I will NOT drink today. Amen.

Delizadee

I start the day off sending a couple messages meant for my sponsor to someone I'm taking on childcare for starting this week.

I'm not going to drink about this
But I am going to tell the squirrels freaking out in my head to F off.

In bed with stomach flu.

courage2

Ugh Deliza -- I'm sorry both on account of the flu and the messages. That sounds like something I would do

Sometimes I spend much of a day reminding myself that I can't control things. Are you the kind of person who has to stay focused every second of a flight to keep the plane in the air?

Letting bad things go is the hardest. It's like I find it fun to chew on their bones.

I don't think it helps to mix in anger at yourself or even your head-squirrels. Me, I have head-bees & head-flies, but it's probably similar. I have to accept them, over and over again.



Back to names, if we add in something from everyone and pick Peachy Insanity Survivor Diaries, we're P.I.S.D.

Gilmer

I like the 'tude behind F.I.S.T.--except I'd trade "fabulous" for "fierce!"

Gilmer

(((Del)))

Delizadee

I am having SERIOUS struggles with the lying/omitting things. I am right now not comfortable saying to people especially people I'm going to be working for that I'm in AA. I alluded talking with whatever I said about the person with the same name as her that we were sharing stories about our ex-husbands. Which was true. If she is clued in to what a step 4 is... I am going to tell her about being a member of al-anon. Which is also true.
I don't like the lying or the thoughts about omitting the other part makes me some kind of liabitlity. Right now, I feel the need of the anonymity of my AA program.
It's the whole stigma of being a sober alcoholic... I'm still an alcoholic and people may have biased views on that.

One thing I really have to say that treatment has helped me SO much with is learning to let go of things, to turn it over and say the serenity prayer- as often as I need. And that connection is a great anti-dote to anxiety provoking situations for me. I think sometimes I come across as more neurotic than I actually am in real life because I come here to dump some of the insanity in the brain. It is like shooting the squirrels, lol. Reminds me I'm not crazy, I'm just human and I don't have to sit and count my failures and faults all day long.

What am I saying though? I am a ridiculous person in real life. I love to laugh.
I am working really hard on getting over other peoples views of me. Reading Codependent no more I realize how sick I was/am making myself. It's getting better, slowly!

Anyhow. I like F.I.S.T and P.I.S.D. I really LOL'ed at that one.

courage2

I think that's fine. Even leave out the Al-anon unless she specifically asks what you meant, which if she has any sense, she won't. If you haven't already, just send an apology and please ignore. And let the burden be on her to pry. If she does, tell her you don't feel comfortable saying more, but it has something to do with problems in your family. Which is true.

Early recovery doesn't require full disclosure to everyone.

What I hear from you, Deliza, is that you're working on bigger solutions than just saying no to a drink. That's excellent!

Sober today!

Delizadee

My cravings are so few and short lived now because I just blurt it out and shoot those damn squirrels. I have racked up too many sober days to know this is better than the drinking days.

And I have weathered some pretty tough times coming out of treatment sober. So I am a ROCKSTAR.

Lucky you guys, getting to hang out with all the squirrels.

Delizadee

Thank you courage just the words I needed to hear.
I am a little proud of myself for not freaking out the way I used to, backpeddling as fast as possible and digging myself a deeper hole.

Yep. It's definitely not just a drinking problem.

courage2

Superstar Insanity Survivor! (Today & Always)

= S.I.S.T.A

courage2

Hi Tom -- how are you 2day?

Gilmer

S.I.S.T.A. would be fine--except we don't want to scare the men away!

We need a unigender name that still showcases our coolness!

courage2

I agree Gilmer -- SISTA was just for Deliza & you & my other sisters in spirit.

This thread is open-minded about sex, creed, color, program, rank, class, diagnosis, and drug of choice. To name a few.

courage2

Waddya think on the title front, Dee?

Can we go with F.I.S.T.?

Let it mean anything it wants. That's the way SAT and KFC have done it

IWLSAST

Tired and still sore, but, ready to start my new week off with a day that is absent of any drugs or alcohol...exception, Advil.

Have a goot one, FIST's - or, whomever we become.