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Old 02-28-2017, 04:15 AM
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Overall a good day here, it tried to snow but not much.

Wishing you all a good and sober Tuesday X
I keep waiting to light our fire, but the weather's been too warm lately...
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Old 02-28-2017, 12:36 PM
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We had a very mixed weather day, strong frost this morning, then rain, sunshine, hale, sunshine and high winds. I'm praying for a nice spring this year.

Hope y'all well... good night from Wales X
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Old 03-01-2017, 01:17 AM
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Happy Ash Wednesday Folks!
As I enter Lent I find myself reflecting over the past year and all the changes that it has brought. A year ago today, I found myself in church getting ashes smeared on my forehead and making a very private commitment to abstain from alcohol for the next 40 days. That commitment was both sincere and unrealistic as I had not yet admitted to myself that I was an alcoholic. 2 days later I was drinking and had my first real awakening that I may have a problem with alcohol. This sent me seeking and by April I had found SR and registered as a member-strictly lurker status. April 29th was my first post and Day 1. I had no idea at the time what I was getting myself into. I thought it was about not drinking. Abstaining. That's sobriety right? I had no concept of recovery; what it was, what it required, or how much work would need to go into living a life recovered.
Looking back, I have no doubt that I was an alcoholic. Sobriety and recovery have brought much clarity into my life along with presence, joy, and pain. It's been somewhat of a rollercoaster of up's, down's, twists and turns.....and has required much more than sheer abstinence. Life was supposed to get better without the booze right?
Well yes and no. Off the top of my head I can list several things that immediately improved upon abstinence: decrease in fighting with the hubs, saving money, no hangovers, no guilt, better work performance & personal hygiene. On the flip side, I experienced: fatigue, irritability, anxiety, mood swings, & I became acutely aware of the existence of my AV-which was going ape @#$%. It took months for me to level out physically & emotionally but I steadily began to feel better, stronger. I had arrived right? Sobriety-this is it!
Not so fast Sim, now it was time for recovery....except I didn't know what that at the time. All I knew was that the baggage from my past was resurfacing and I was in pain. All of a sudden my AV had a resurgence. Little bastard. But I managed to limp along white knuckling my way through until I couldn't anymore. My house of cards was falling and I relapsed. 206 days of sobriety went straight down the toilet....or so I thought.
Turns out it wasn't like starting completely over. I had done a lot of work after all and I had built up some sober muscles. So back on the wagon I went. Day 1 again-FML. This was my 2nd awakening. This time I awakened to recovery and this is what I have found.....
In life, pain is not optional but suffering is. Suffering is pain without a purpose. Suffering is being caught up in the throws of an addiction that you can't even recognize because you are able to maintain full-time employment and "take care of business", despite your dysfunction. Suffering is trying to outrun your pain day, after day, after day. Suffering is never being able to live to your full potential because you can't stay sober long enough to gain any type of clarity in your life. This is suffering.
Recovery can be painful at moments but it is pain with a purpose. It's a coming home to oneself. Like revisiting your childhood home, where it's still the same but somehow different. It's a place where you choose to release the past because you're not that person anymore and you embrace today because it is the foundation of tomorrow.
That's where I am today, 1 year later. I've come home. As it turns out, it's a bit of a fixer upper. I've got a leaky roof, peeling paint, and there's some weird smell I can't find the source of just yet, but God, it's good to be home.
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Old 03-01-2017, 01:23 AM
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Originally Posted by Elke516 View Post
We had a very mixed weather day, strong frost this morning, then rain, sunshine, hale, sunshine and high winds. I'm praying for a nice spring this year.

Hope y'all well... good night from Wales X
Sounds as if the weather we had on Saturday has hit Wales! Hope you didn't sustain any hail damage! I second the prayers for a nice spring!
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Old 03-01-2017, 04:14 AM
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Old 03-01-2017, 02:08 PM
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my car failed the MOT...

Welcome home Sim

Hi everyone...
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Old 03-01-2017, 02:09 PM
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ELKE- cars are part of life. Don't let be a trigger..
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Old 03-01-2017, 06:29 PM
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WOW Sim. Just WOW..... Well done my friend. Congrats! You had me at "I've come home". Powerful message. As I type this, tears flow, for you, for me, and for all of us.
I just love it!!!! Thanks for sharing!
XOXO-
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Old 03-01-2017, 07:11 PM
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Thats a fine post Sim - thank you

will it cost a lot to get it up to code Elke?

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Old 03-02-2017, 05:35 AM
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@Sim - beautiful post, by the way. It really resonated with me...thank you.

@Elke - I hope your car isn't too much of a hassle...
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Old 03-02-2017, 12:48 PM
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The car needs some welding and luckily my other half and a friend can fix it (I hope). With a bit of luck and lots of cups of tea it will be fixed this weekend.

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Old 03-03-2017, 03:09 AM
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Hi friends So glad it's Friday! Escalating tensions at work has me back on the job hunt! Can't hurt to look around and see what's out there. I plan on taking my time to find something that I feel would be a good fit, no rash decisions=no regrets, so fingers crossed that my "forever home" is out there somewhere!
Picking up the grandson after work today for a sleepover! Kids and granddaughter will be coming over for pizza and a visit as well Patiently waiting the arrival of grandchild #3 in May! The more the merrier! The house seems to come alive with excitement again when it's filled with family....and so do I!
I had another round with the rt. sided eye blindness the other morning. Blood pressure was 105/55 (yes I've been sleeping with a BP cuff by my bed-lol) so that could be a contributing factor. It didn't last nearly as long this go round....so that's good! I still haven't followed up with the ophthalmic neurologist....probably time to do so. This go round I will try not to panic

Elke-glad to hear the car is an "easy" fix and you'll be up and running again soon!

Wishing y'all a good day/evening !
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Simp- lots going on. Great about family. Look after you- important to remember.
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Originally Posted by Elke516 View Post
The car needs some welding and luckily my other half and a friend can fix it (I hope).
When they're through send them over to NC - my project car needs some serious welding!

@Sim - I'm with you on the job search. It's always a good idea to periodically see what's out there, no matter the reason...
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Old 03-03-2017, 02:05 PM
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Sim, have a great family evening hun X. Pizza

Tootiesdad, I've suggested a trip to NC with the welder as hand luggage

Have good and sober weekends X
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Happy Friday all!
Reading and lurking again.... ugh. Seems like I have good intentions to post daily and then well, ya know.
Crazy couple of days........... my article was published yesterday, so well, that got some attention. And this week our CFO resigned, so we did some re structure and today my promotion to Chief Compliance and Operations Director was approved and sent out to staff. What a week! I am extremely happy and thrilled that the first thing I thought of was NOT celebrating with booze. Lots to do, and hard work ahead, but I couldn't be more happier. The last chapter in my book could potentially be closing.
My celebration consists of my favorite-- taco pizza and a good nights rest!
Happy Friday! Happy weekend!
All my love-
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Old 03-03-2017, 05:22 PM
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Congrats on the promotion Camery! That is awesome news!!! And another congrats on your article officially hitting print!
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Old 03-04-2017, 12:13 PM
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Camery, what great news! Huge congrats and best of luck in your new position!
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