Leshar

Snoozy, I hope your mums health issue can be sorted out. Very glad to hear she is doing better.
My mood is low, poor motivation. Cabin fever doesn't help, and my house is so cold. I need a new furnace. It's a shift that's just come over me. I'm still eating well but craving chocolate and yes, thoughts of red wine and its warming effect. Annoyed with myself. I want to be healthy and strong. I'd love to get away from this weather! It seems like an effort to clear off the car to go to the gym.
Audition tonight and I've no enthusiasm for it at all.
Sorry to post such negative stuff.

PhoenixJ

Did not seem negative to me. Cabin fever sucks. If you start talking to balloon animals- call someone. Dark chocolate- with chilli is good. Red wine sucks.

venuscat

Leshar honey, sending love.
Not doing well here either to be honest.

Dee74

Leshar and Suze hope both you guys feel better soon

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LuLu13

Leshar, sorry you are feeling down. Hope your mood picks up soon. How did the audition go?

Suze, hope you feel better soon!

Hello to everyone else.

venuscat

I'm not sick....but thank you. ♥
I am going through something really difficult.
And yes, I need help...not sure I can talk though.

Croissant

I hope you can share with us soon, venus.xx

Just to add to the theme, I am a little down too. And I'm telling myself that's ok. Probably part of the problem being an alcy, wanting to always feel amazing and cover up any negative, painful thoughts.

LuLu13

Please talk, Suze, it will help.

Croiss, sorry you are down as well. Hope your spirits lift soon.

Dee74

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PhoenixJ

SnoozyQ

Oh my lovely girls

Leshar, Suze & Crois , I do so hope you all chin up and feel better soon.

There's nothing wrong with having down days. You come here, get it off your chest ! You know...the problem shared is a problem halved motto, it's true.

You guys here all of you have helped me out of some pretty rough times lately.

I have always felt better after spilling my guts.

Hope your audition goes well Leshar and you've mustered up some enthusiasm .

When r you and Nick getting together again Suze x

Crois , you're always such a support to us , hope we can lift your spirits xxx

PJ lol @ the balloon animals

Love you all

Croissant

Thanks guys, and Thanks Snooz.xx

Just catastrophising a bit about my relationship. "Why am I doing this", "is he the right one"..blah blah....he's lovely, it's me doing a bit of self- sabotage. Is this worth all the "effort"...I.e. Me trying to protect myself and doubt.

None of it is substantiated, just internal bs.

The truth is, I can't see myself with anyone else but him. My natural response is to feel trapped and want to run.

Dee74

No reason why you can't take it slowly is there Crois?

Good luck with the audition Leshar

Hi Snooz and everyone

Croissant

Thanks Dee. Interesting (and valid) suggestion.

Dee74

I'm sure you'll work out whats best for you Crois

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SnoozyQ

Hiya Dee

Crois it's normal to feel the way you do. I thought it may have something to do with your new relationship

Bah ! Us gals. , I know all too well about self sabotaging, I could write a book on it.

You're not drinking anymore& you are comfortable with that.

Just go with the flow, don't put any pressure on yourself , enjoy the ride.

Relax and think of how everything is falling into place with you. Xx.

How is your daughter going, is she still sober ?

Much love xx

Croissant

Thanks Snooz.xx

I think it's just getting through xmas / new year too, so work has been quiet and I feel like all my "focus" the past few weeks has been on the relationship. So it seems bigger / taking up my thoughts more than normal.

A few weeks and the regular rhythm of life will return, I'm sure. And realistically, no matter how "well-balanced" people are, new relationships naturally have an adjustment period, where you assess "what it all means".

it will pass, and I'll be fine. If we can deal with the AV, talking garbage to us, we can do anything!

Thanks for your kind words and support, when you yourself are going through stuff. Hope your mum stabilises soon. It's comforting that they sent her home same day, so that indicates they felt comfortable it wasn't life-threatening.

Ladybug2

Hi everyone,

Snooz, so glad your mum is ok and that you were able to be there for them.

Hugs to everyone else too.

My littlest bug is still sick ... had to take her back to Dr yesterday and now she has an ear infection. Started antibiotic last night, but she won't sleep in her bed. Hoping tonight is better. It's so much easier dealing with this stuff without being "out of it" or hungover. My girls deserve 100% of me.

Love you all!

Leshar

Just sending love to all. Very down, all day on couch eating choc chips I bought to make quinoa choc chip cookies. I hate cooking and eating alone and clean eating is boring as hell. I'm so disappointed. Just a week ago, I was so pleased with my health and determined. Audition was weird, told "not to act". Didn't enjoy the experience. I just can't find peace in life. There is no rhyme or reason to this mood disorder, I'm so tired of it. Sorry Croissant and Suze for what you are going through. Sounds like adjustment issues which, although natural, are disconcerting too. Hope you both get through the hurdles. Just don't rush things, as Dee says.

Dee74

I hope the rest of the week will be better for you Leshar
Hope little bug gets well soon LB

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