Class of November 2016 Support Thread Part 5
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Bad luck about Alabama badge, and sorry tnek for confusing you with badge in telling co-workers about your drinking. I was trying to catch up and got muddled.
Further confusion in that my neighbour friend (only irl I've got) has told me she thinks she is dying. She had lung cancer removed about 4 years ago and is now looking skeletal. Skin is hanging from her.
She looks so very sick but doesn't act on doctor follow ups, and she could well be dying based on her appearance and behaviour.
She was very scared yesterday, and don't know whether I should phone her husband to tell him of my concern. She looks like she should be in hospital for assessment. She reckons she's told her husband about thinking she is dying, but I don't know......she protects him (a lot) from the nasty realities of life.....bought him rose coloured glasses for a Christmas present a couple of Christmas's back.
She embraced me last night and told me I was her best friend ever and began to cry, and that if anything happens to her, she was"sorry." It's awful, and all I can do is support her.
I'm insecure too badge and drank to fit in. We fit fine just the way we are.
Further confusion in that my neighbour friend (only irl I've got) has told me she thinks she is dying. She had lung cancer removed about 4 years ago and is now looking skeletal. Skin is hanging from her.
She looks so very sick but doesn't act on doctor follow ups, and she could well be dying based on her appearance and behaviour.
She was very scared yesterday, and don't know whether I should phone her husband to tell him of my concern. She looks like she should be in hospital for assessment. She reckons she's told her husband about thinking she is dying, but I don't know......she protects him (a lot) from the nasty realities of life.....bought him rose coloured glasses for a Christmas present a couple of Christmas's back.
She embraced me last night and told me I was her best friend ever and began to cry, and that if anything happens to her, she was"sorry." It's awful, and all I can do is support her.
I'm insecure too badge and drank to fit in. We fit fine just the way we are.
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Thanks Dee she's hiding upstairs now. Last night she was really brain fogged and looks from a concentration camp.
Don't feel like doing much, and trying to give myself permission to just sit. It's good to be in a position (now) to know that drinking would only make things worse. Much worse. Finis
Feeling and thinking again in some really messy fashion but have sobriety on my side so the mess don't count. I'll clean it up
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Don't feel like doing much, and trying to give myself permission to just sit. It's good to be in a position (now) to know that drinking would only make things worse. Much worse. Finis
Feeling and thinking again in some really messy fashion but have sobriety on my side so the mess don't count. I'll clean it up
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Thanks rainy and good morning everyone.
So, this is the crap stuff life throws up that I've got to deal with sober, eh? Oh no, I want it to be a bed of roses with no problems, because I'm sober and I deserve it. Reverse deserve a drink theory.
Kidding, I know it doesn't work that way, and glad to be sober.
Was thinking about you this morning badge, and hope you are doing well. Hope everyone is doing well. Feeling a bit depressed, just checking in...
Day 73
So, this is the crap stuff life throws up that I've got to deal with sober, eh? Oh no, I want it to be a bed of roses with no problems, because I'm sober and I deserve it. Reverse deserve a drink theory.
Kidding, I know it doesn't work that way, and glad to be sober.
Was thinking about you this morning badge, and hope you are doing well. Hope everyone is doing well. Feeling a bit depressed, just checking in...
Day 73
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I'm still counting the days badge. And *challenge* anyone who really does want to stop, to do otherwise, in the early days. I reckon it's only natural.
Not obsessively, but as I saw Dee describe somewhere, as a marker. Helps with building does the counting, I reckon.
Not obsessively, but as I saw Dee describe somewhere, as a marker. Helps with building does the counting, I reckon.
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Sitting here in preparation for going to see my psychiatrist. Usually I procrastinate and leave everything to the last minute and am definitely angst by the time I get to see him. I have always designated him the power.
He reckons I'm the only patient who has noticed that his chair is just that little bit higher.
It's a bit different today and am feeling the need for the power relation to shift and I am feeling very scared. I know it's a must do, if I ever hope to regain myself. And I reallyI want it.
And if he's a *real* psychiatrist - and he is, he will know that's exactly the way things should proceed. But I'm scared.
Onwards......bloody trick cyclists!
He reckons I'm the only patient who has noticed that his chair is just that little bit higher.
It's a bit different today and am feeling the need for the power relation to shift and I am feeling very scared. I know it's a must do, if I ever hope to regain myself. And I reallyI want it.
And if he's a *real* psychiatrist
- and he is, he will know that's exactly the way things should proceed. But I'm scared. Onwards......bloody trick cyclists!
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My friend has a mass on her lungs and is going into hospital on Tuesday. She had lung cancer removed about 4 years ago, and it does not look good. Everywhere looked like a pub or bottlo to me, but decided to build muscle. I want to be HERE for her. It is all so surreal.
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Yes Steely your presence is greatly needed and you will definitely process much more appropriately the challenge you are facing. Thinking of you.
I consulted with a therapist/addiction counselor today.... I really can't afford it and my schedule is very complicated but I think I need it
I consulted with a therapist/addiction counselor today.... I really can't afford it and my schedule is very complicated but I think I need it
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