Dee74

I would try and talk to someone in a professional capacity. I'm loathe to label it, but you might even have a little PTSD there obo.

As someone who's had a few lucky escapes myself I can only suggest throwing yourself into life - spend time with the missus and Anna...feel the joy, go out and get some sun, try and laugh a little.

You might have died...but you didn't.

That's a gift far precious to waste on beers... or fears

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obosob

Thanks you guys.

I dont have a referral for a quack. I walked out of the last appointment.

Label it as PTSD or whatever it has been a really up and down few days since hospital.

I dont want to carry on about it. I just want to settle into a new routine. Prevention etc... Just carry on type of thing.

I didn't need all of this drama..... Really there's not much to say after something like that. It is what it is.

Going slowly here watching cricket.

Hope all you dudes are faring better than I.

Dee74

I'm not sure it's always possible just to move on, although I hope you can Obo.

Anyway, the really important thing is to have more tools in your toolbox than a carton of beer, a box of goon, or whatever...

I hope you'll keep thinking about tools and maybe get another referral to someone else, find a support group, or think about something like AA SMART or Lifering.

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obosob

Box of goon made me smile....

I know. Thanks dee.

Upward2Enlightenment

Had to look up a box of goon.

MariahGayle

A box of goon

PhoenixJ

Goon sack

Dee74

yeah sorry for anyone who doesn't know it means box of wine.
Terrible stuff I can't even now raise a smile at. Ugh.

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freein14

I'm a bit late home this evening - I hit some heavy traffic on my commute home. I don't mind too much while I can listen to podcasts in the car. I'm listening to Dr Greger' s "nutritional facts" at the moment. I've learnt that turmeric is good for the brain, and berries have anti-aging properties. With another birthday coming up soon, this is all good information for me

Hope everyone's day has gone well.

Nearly the weekend so of course I'm in for the Bargain.

Dee74

me too

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MariahGayle

I'm in

Upward2Enlightenment

I'm in too.

obosob

Im in.

MariahGayle

Busy week for me, Supervisor left me running the show for a few days& im hopping. Was a good day!

Glad to see you Obo, you know I have been the queen of relapse & I know how your feeling so don't beat yourself....be good to yourself.

I hope everyone is doing OK...Izzy, TS....I miss seeing you post.

You too Up....hope your having a good night!

MariahGayle

Noolan?

freein14

Hi all, hope everyone's weekend has got off to a great start. I've been to a meditation group meeting today. It was lovely to meet up with other meditators. Even though we didn't know each other well, we seemed to be quite comfortable sitting together in silence for half an hour.

I'm motivated to get back to my daily meditation practice.

Also managed to do a bit more digging in the veg patch. We'll hopefully get the raised beds finished in the next couple of weeks. Then the "square foot garden" planting can begin.

Hope everyone's had a good day too.

MariahGayle

Sounds nice Freein I made the trip over the mountains to see Grandsons....great to see them & am staying at an ice place my Brothers work rents for him. I got out here & decided I would put a fresh coat of make up on & go to the tavern I bartender at here 25 years ago.....got stuck in snow backing out of driveway, got out of car to put floor mats under tire to see if I could get unstuck, car doors automatically locked on me with car running & phone inside, had to break a back window to get in & now waiting for Son to get me unstuck. Should have stayed put!

freein14

Oh no, I hope you've managed to warm up Mariah.( Forgive me for saying, but it did sound a bit like a comedy sketch - it'll be the kind of thing you'll be talking about over Christmas dinners in years to come). You are very resourceful that's for sure.

Off to see my parents today, trying to keep my mind positive and my energy high.

OH is cooking dinner tonight so that's a blessing.

MariahGayle

I actually handled it pretty well Free with a such is life attitude. I enjoyed my visit with Son, DIL & Grandsons.so good to see their sweet faces & lots of snuggles & love. Was a bit of a trip down memory lane for me as I lived up there for 6 years twenty some years ago.....was not in a good place with meth addiction when I left there & just grateful I was able to make my way out of that life. I broke the small window on rear passenger door & was told at glass place today that that is the most expensive one to replace, quoting me $500 for glass & $125 to install....I left there & went to salvage yard & they have a window they will install for me tomorrow for a total of $65. So am thankful for that.

hope you had a good visit with your parents yesterday Free. Does your Dad go with you to visit your Mom? How is he getting along on his own?

I'm thinking I might construct a little greenhouse & get some seeds going next month. Hope everyone is doing Ok....thinking of you all

freein14

That's a great result with the window Mariah.

My dad seems to be coping better than I thought he would. He seems to have found an inner resilience that had been hidden before. We do tend to see my Mum together, although sometimes I'd like to see her on my own, just to sit peacefully with no chatter.

It's my birthday today! 51 years young.

This will be my 3rd sober birthday, and I feel great about that. I have the day off work, and I'll be spending the day on my own (which I love to do). Probably giving myself a mini retreat - listening to Eckhart Tolle, reading, and doing some yoga. I'll be cooking up something nice for dinner tonight too.
Bliss!

Hope everyone's had a great start to their week so far.