Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper

In trouble. Need to tuck into bed early tonight. Was very, very anxious about all the upcoming changes in my life. I was happy about them at first, then very worried. Not sure why. I then made a mistake this afternoon, and had a couple of beers. They did not help me at all, so I poured the rest out. Because I don't have to, or want to let things spin out . I can leave it in the past. I have been drinking water since then, and am washed up and ready for bed. Things will be ok provided I don't continue. There is no alcohol in the house; I am safe.

I love my sober life. Halloween is tomorrow, and I am off work. I have another day off after that. They will both be healthy, sober days. I will be here a lot. I'm just not strong enough, yet, to cope with big challenges without my sober community. There's no shame in that.

I feel very afraid and sad at the moment, but know too that it will pass. I am going to stay here and read until I fall asleep. When I wake, I will make my breakfast and come straight here. I don't have to be anywhere tomorrow, so I will focus 100% on my sobriety. Might go get a little chocolate.

Thank you for listening. I am pledging 24 hours now. It means so much right now.

Love

Red
7:26 pm

Originally Posted by phoenixj

rbj- holidays are a trigger if you let it. Stay safe, use halts. Tell people you are not drinking. Tell them why if you think okay to. Share heaps. Go to an aa meeting- they really do help. I understand such times are stressy but they do not have to be if you take control. Be honest. You know what you want to achieve. Thoughts and prayers to you, pj.