Class of March 2016 part 34
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Originally Posted by beerbgone 
Sam don't be to hard on yourself. Stuff happens. Just buckle up your tool belt and move forward.
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Originally Posted by ManInTheArena
Unfortunately, we seem to be on the same wavelength Samantha. But get back up with me - today!! We can do this!
I've only slipped a few times over the past months, but when I do I feel incredibly physically sick the next day - it is not fun. I'm not sure of the physiology, but I don't have to be - it just sucks.
So, today is a wasted day. Tomorrow will be the real day 1 - which is the day when I become functional again
I've only slipped a few times over the past months, but when I do I feel incredibly physically sick the next day - it is not fun. I'm not sure of the physiology, but I don't have to be - it just sucks.
So, today is a wasted day. Tomorrow will be the real day 1 - which is the day when I become functional again
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Originally Posted by LillianGish
I did not get to an AA meeting in Fresno. Too busy calling all my clients about the hothead employee who was fired. Anyone see that scene in the movie Jerry Maguire when Tom Cruise was calling all his clients to save them? Felt like that. Pretty sure I'll win but it's stressful to think about.
The firing went down when I wasn't there and I heard everyone involved was visibly shaken because he was very threatening and angry. They posted an armed guard at my workplace because it was that bad. I've been there 20 years and never saw a guard posted. I was warned not to return to work anytime soon in order to protect my safety.
So....now I sit in my home, with doors and windows locked...my cul de sac on watch for psycho former employee. And yet, all my clients said such wonderful things about him....and I couldn't say anything because I don't want to lose in a lawsuit. He was nice to them....it's everyone else who he verbally abused and intimidated.
This kind of pisses me off and I don't get pissed off very often. Yes, he was such a great guy, I am afraid in my own home. He would love that a bunch of people are fearful....which tells me I need to knock it off with the fear factor. Screw him.
OK, better times ahead I hope. RANT OFF!!!
The firing went down when I wasn't there and I heard everyone involved was visibly shaken because he was very threatening and angry. They posted an armed guard at my workplace because it was that bad. I've been there 20 years and never saw a guard posted. I was warned not to return to work anytime soon in order to protect my safety.
So....now I sit in my home, with doors and windows locked...my cul de sac on watch for psycho former employee. And yet, all my clients said such wonderful things about him....and I couldn't say anything because I don't want to lose in a lawsuit. He was nice to them....it's everyone else who he verbally abused and intimidated.
This kind of pisses me off and I don't get pissed off very often. Yes, he was such a great guy, I am afraid in my own home. He would love that a bunch of people are fearful....which tells me I need to knock it off with the fear factor. Screw him.
OK, better times ahead I hope. RANT OFF!!!
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Originally Posted by clearlyheaded
D, love your dancing D avatar. Super cool!
PJ - thanks for that. I tend to handle the big stuff pretty well. It's the little stuff that trips me up the most. Good insight, and reminder.
Sam - you've been on my mind. I hope you're doing better today. I sort of feel like you're my sister up north. Although you run, and do yoga and stuff. And wake up really early. I don't run. And mornings have never been my strong suit, even on my most soberest of days! Anyway, thinking of you.
Casey - Congrats on 7 months! So many things for you to be proud of!! We're proud of you, too!
Bobbie - When do you come back from TX? The midwest is due for a warm up starting Sunday (80s!!).
MITA - Glad that you are posting regularly again. You're a strong voice in this class.
Kiki - you inspire me Love you!
AK - I made a chili for a friendly neighborhood chili cookoff that was out of this world! Sweet potatoes, cinnamon, honey, and even a little cocoa powder. I may have to bust out my crock pot and try to recreate it.
LB - Keep posting. I know that's easier said than done sometimes (myself included). We miss you when you don't post
To everyone else, have a peaceful weekend.
PJ - thanks for that. I tend to handle the big stuff pretty well. It's the little stuff that trips me up the most. Good insight, and reminder.
Sam - you've been on my mind. I hope you're doing better today. I sort of feel like you're my sister up north. Although you run, and do yoga and stuff. And wake up really early. I don't run. And mornings have never been my strong suit, even on my most soberest of days! Anyway, thinking of you.
Casey - Congrats on 7 months! So many things for you to be proud of!! We're proud of you, too!
Bobbie - When do you come back from TX? The midwest is due for a warm up starting Sunday (80s!!).
MITA - Glad that you are posting regularly again. You're a strong voice in this class.
Kiki - you inspire me
Love you!AK - I made a chili for a friendly neighborhood chili cookoff that was out of this world! Sweet potatoes, cinnamon, honey, and even a little cocoa powder. I may have to bust out my crock pot and try to recreate it.
LB - Keep posting. I know that's easier said than done sometimes (myself included). We miss you when you don't post
To everyone else, have a peaceful weekend.
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BBG - I hate brain fog too!!!
Happy Saturday fellow Misfits! I've been mulling a couple of tattoo ideas around for a long time, and I think I'm getting closer to knowing what, and where (at least for one). One is simple: the Finnish word sisu. There isn't an equivalent word in English, but the closest is gritty determination. It is the essence of being finn. A never give up-ness. I'm 1/2 finn, BTW -- my dad's side. The "i" will be a semicolon. It will go on my left wrist. The other idea has been a tree with two birds, me and DD. I've decided that the tree will be a birch tree -- the symbolism of the birch tree as new beginnings, as well as the meaning it holds for me as my favorite tree growing up in Michigan, spending lots of time with my outdoors loving dad, hunting, fishing, camping -- makes it really special. Not exactly sure where that one would go. I like to keep tattoos easy to cover, but don't want any more on my back. Maybe over my heart? Anyway, these are the thoughts in my head today. Kinda fun to think about
Happy Saturday fellow Misfits! I've been mulling a couple of tattoo ideas around for a long time, and I think I'm getting closer to knowing what, and where (at least for one). One is simple: the Finnish word sisu. There isn't an equivalent word in English, but the closest is gritty determination. It is the essence of being finn. A never give up-ness. I'm 1/2 finn, BTW -- my dad's side. The "i" will be a semicolon. It will go on my left wrist. The other idea has been a tree with two birds, me and DD. I've decided that the tree will be a birch tree -- the symbolism of the birch tree as new beginnings, as well as the meaning it holds for me as my favorite tree growing up in Michigan, spending lots of time with my outdoors loving dad, hunting, fishing, camping -- makes it really special. Not exactly sure where that one would go. I like to keep tattoos easy to cover, but don't want any more on my back. Maybe over my heart? Anyway, these are the thoughts in my head today. Kinda fun to think about
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Evening, or afternoon, or morning, whatever, Misfits.
Sam and MITA, sorry you had a slip. You know that’s not you. It’s me, but it’s not you. You’re strong and pick right up with your sobriety. I admire that.
Good going on keeping going bbg.
I still got nothing PJ. Just trying to learn from you.
Sounds like you’re doing well PR. Good to hear.
I agree with Dee, Lillian. I’d keep my antennae up but also not let it get to me. Maybe getting a little pissed off isn’t such a bad thing? Get those bad feelings out and then be done with them? He’s likely in the rearview forever so you can start to forget and be done with it.
Awesome 55 Applekat!
Likewise on 11 LB!
I’m not a tattoo guy CH but I do like the essence of so many of them. Gritty determination sounds just right. I’m contemplating sisu as a sort of mantra for myself – you’ll pardon my cribbing of your idea I hope?
I’ve mentally done my homework Kiki. I struggle with many of those. Five grateful, done. Five good at, a little harder, but done. Five things I enjoy, working on that, no full answer. Five goals, easy, but full of fear, working on it. Five things I like about myself, a mixed bag. Some things that I like are also things I hate. It’s complicated, but thank you for reminding me to consider my own self-image.
I think image of self is a huge issue for many addicted. Of course it is. Finding some bright spots and working through it is crucial. It would behoove me, and all, to really remember that we’re worth it, whatever it takes. And yes, I’m somewhat yelling this at myself, but I think it’s an important reminder.
My apologies to the shipload of people I've missed.
Sam and MITA, sorry you had a slip. You know that’s not you. It’s me, but it’s not you. You’re strong and pick right up with your sobriety. I admire that.
Good going on keeping going bbg.
I still got nothing PJ. Just trying to learn from you.
Sounds like you’re doing well PR. Good to hear.
I agree with Dee, Lillian. I’d keep my antennae up but also not let it get to me. Maybe getting a little pissed off isn’t such a bad thing? Get those bad feelings out and then be done with them? He’s likely in the rearview forever so you can start to forget and be done with it.
Awesome 55 Applekat!
Likewise on 11 LB!
I’m not a tattoo guy CH but I do like the essence of so many of them. Gritty determination sounds just right. I’m contemplating sisu as a sort of mantra for myself – you’ll pardon my cribbing of your idea I hope?
I’ve mentally done my homework Kiki. I struggle with many of those. Five grateful, done. Five good at, a little harder, but done. Five things I enjoy, working on that, no full answer. Five goals, easy, but full of fear, working on it. Five things I like about myself, a mixed bag. Some things that I like are also things I hate. It’s complicated, but thank you for reminding me to consider my own self-image.
I think image of self is a huge issue for many addicted. Of course it is. Finding some bright spots and working through it is crucial. It would behoove me, and all, to really remember that we’re worth it, whatever it takes. And yes, I’m somewhat yelling this at myself, but I think it’s an important reminder.
My apologies to the shipload of people I've missed.
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Hey guys....I slipped a couple of times too......as I may have already mentioned earlier this week.
Lots of reflecting going on here.....between past relationships and a previous job, speaking of bullies, I've felt this fear I guess, like I need to play dead or something. It's definitely an issue I need to snap out of.....guess I was masking it by drinking all these years.....
Ok Kiki, I've attempted the homework assignment!
List 5 things you're grateful for:
1. My health (knock wood)
2. My jobs
3. My family (and you guys!)
4. Inspirational artists
5. Animals!
List 5 things you are good at:
WOW, I guess I do need to build some confidence, huh??? I can't think of anything! Lol
List 5 things you enjoy doing:
1. Music - listening to, watching videos or attending live shows
2. Practicing art: drawing or drums
3. Being surrounded by animals
4. Feeling energized after working out
5. Learning new things (instead of drinking my brain into mush!)
List 5 goals you have for your life:
1. Get back into shape
2. Continue to protect myself away from the wrong people
3. Have a place with a big backyard so I can adopt rescue dogs
4. Speak up for myself (without depending on liquid courage)
5.Be able to create art and manage the business side of it (or at least know enough about it so I don't get screwed!)
List 5 things you like about yourself:
1. My sense of humor
2. I like discovering who I am when I give myself a chance to sober up
3. My independence
4. Having a mind of my own despite what others think
5. Determination to do things my way (yes, I am a stubborn Taurus!)
Lots of reflecting going on here.....between past relationships and a previous job, speaking of bullies, I've felt this fear I guess, like I need to play dead or something. It's definitely an issue I need to snap out of.....guess I was masking it by drinking all these years.....
Ok Kiki, I've attempted the homework assignment!
List 5 things you're grateful for:
1. My health (knock wood)
2. My jobs
3. My family (and you guys!)
4. Inspirational artists
5. Animals!
List 5 things you are good at:
WOW, I guess I do need to build some confidence, huh??? I can't think of anything! Lol
List 5 things you enjoy doing:
1. Music - listening to, watching videos or attending live shows
2. Practicing art: drawing or drums
3. Being surrounded by animals
4. Feeling energized after working out
5. Learning new things (instead of drinking my brain into mush!)
List 5 goals you have for your life:
1. Get back into shape
2. Continue to protect myself away from the wrong people
3. Have a place with a big backyard so I can adopt rescue dogs
4. Speak up for myself (without depending on liquid courage)
5.Be able to create art and manage the business side of it (or at least know enough about it so I don't get screwed!)
List 5 things you like about yourself:
1. My sense of humor
2. I like discovering who I am when I give myself a chance to sober up
3. My independence
4. Having a mind of my own despite what others think
5. Determination to do things my way (yes, I am a stubborn Taurus!)
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Originally Posted by Purplrks3647
Lots of reflecting going on here.....between past relationships and a previous job, speaking of bullies, I've felt this fear I guess, like I need to play dead or something. It's definitely an issue I need to snap out of.....guess I was masking it by drinking all these years.....
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Originally Posted by Thirteenth
I'm going to cherry pick here Purpl because I don't think one snaps out of anything. Sure, it can happen, but it's usually the result of a lot of work. I don't think you give yourself enough credit for the hard work you've put in so far. It's not usually like flipping a switch. Time, patience, etc.
Thirteenth - borrow away! It's pronounced 'see-su'
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Originally Posted by clearlyheaded
BBG - I hate brain fog too!!!
Happy Saturday fellow Misfits! I've been mulling a couple of tattoo ideas around for a long time, and I think I'm getting closer to knowing what, and where (at least for one). One is simple: the Finnish word sisu. There isn't an equivalent word in English, but the closest is gritty determination. It is the essence of being finn. A never give up-ness. I'm 1/2 finn, BTW -- my dad's side. The "i" will be a semicolon. It will go on my left wrist. The other idea has been a tree with two birds, me and DD. I've decided that the tree will be a birch tree -- the symbolism of the birch tree as new beginnings, as well as the meaning it holds for me as my favorite tree growing up in Michigan, spending lots of time with my outdoors loving dad, hunting, fishing, camping -- makes it really special. Not exactly sure where that one would go. I like to keep tattoos easy to cover, but don't want any more on my back. Maybe over my heart? Anyway, these are the thoughts in my head today. Kinda fun to think about
Happy Saturday fellow Misfits! I've been mulling a couple of tattoo ideas around for a long time, and I think I'm getting closer to knowing what, and where (at least for one). One is simple: the Finnish word sisu. There isn't an equivalent word in English, but the closest is gritty determination. It is the essence of being finn. A never give up-ness. I'm 1/2 finn, BTW -- my dad's side. The "i" will be a semicolon. It will go on my left wrist. The other idea has been a tree with two birds, me and DD. I've decided that the tree will be a birch tree -- the symbolism of the birch tree as new beginnings, as well as the meaning it holds for me as my favorite tree growing up in Michigan, spending lots of time with my outdoors loving dad, hunting, fishing, camping -- makes it really special. Not exactly sure where that one would go. I like to keep tattoos easy to cover, but don't want any more on my back. Maybe over my heart? Anyway, these are the thoughts in my head today. Kinda fun to think about
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Yes CH I like the ink ideas too! Let us know what you decide to come up with.
I'm really kicking myself because I missed my first painting class which was supposed to be Wednesday night.....one guess why I didn't make it! Dumb, dumb, dumb.....
I'm really kicking myself because I missed my first painting class which was supposed to be Wednesday night.....one guess why I didn't make it! Dumb, dumb, dumb.....
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Originally Posted by Thirteenth
Evening, or afternoon, or morning, whatever, Misfits.
Sam and MITA, sorry you had a slip. You know that’s not you. It’s me, but it’s not you. You’re strong and pick right up with your sobriety. I admire that.
Good going on keeping going bbg.
I still got nothing PJ. Just trying to learn from you.
Sounds like you’re doing well PR. Good to hear.
I agree with Dee, Lillian. I’d keep my antennae up but also not let it get to me. Maybe getting a little pissed off isn’t such a bad thing? Get those bad feelings out and then be done with them? He’s likely in the rearview forever so you can start to forget and be done with it.
Awesome 55 Applekat!
Likewise on 11 LB!
I’m not a tattoo guy CH but I do like the essence of so many of them. Gritty determination sounds just right. I’m contemplating sisu as a sort of mantra for myself – you’ll pardon my cribbing of your idea I hope?
I’ve mentally done my homework Kiki. I struggle with many of those. Five grateful, done. Five good at, a little harder, but done. Five things I enjoy, working on that, no full answer. Five goals, easy, but full of fear, working on it. Five things I like about myself, a mixed bag. Some things that I like are also things I hate. It’s complicated, but thank you for reminding me to consider my own self-image.
I think image of self is a huge issue for many addicted. Of course it is. Finding some bright spots and working through it is crucial. It would behoove me, and all, to really remember that we’re worth it, whatever it takes. And yes, I’m somewhat yelling this at myself, but I think it’s an important reminder.
My apologies to the shipload of people I've missed.
Sam and MITA, sorry you had a slip. You know that’s not you. It’s me, but it’s not you. You’re strong and pick right up with your sobriety. I admire that.
Good going on keeping going bbg.
I still got nothing PJ. Just trying to learn from you.
Sounds like you’re doing well PR. Good to hear.
I agree with Dee, Lillian. I’d keep my antennae up but also not let it get to me. Maybe getting a little pissed off isn’t such a bad thing? Get those bad feelings out and then be done with them? He’s likely in the rearview forever so you can start to forget and be done with it.
Awesome 55 Applekat!
Likewise on 11 LB!
I’m not a tattoo guy CH but I do like the essence of so many of them. Gritty determination sounds just right. I’m contemplating sisu as a sort of mantra for myself – you’ll pardon my cribbing of your idea I hope?
I’ve mentally done my homework Kiki. I struggle with many of those. Five grateful, done. Five good at, a little harder, but done. Five things I enjoy, working on that, no full answer. Five goals, easy, but full of fear, working on it. Five things I like about myself, a mixed bag. Some things that I like are also things I hate. It’s complicated, but thank you for reminding me to consider my own self-image.
I think image of self is a huge issue for many addicted. Of course it is. Finding some bright spots and working through it is crucial. It would behoove me, and all, to really remember that we’re worth it, whatever it takes. And yes, I’m somewhat yelling this at myself, but I think it’s an important reminder.
My apologies to the shipload of people I've missed.
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Originally Posted by Purplrks3647
Yes CH I like the ink ideas too! Let us know what you decide to come up with.
I'm really kicking myself because I missed my first painting class which was supposed to be Wednesday night.....one guess why I didn't make it! Dumb, dumb, dumb.....
I'm really kicking myself because I missed my first painting class which was supposed to be Wednesday night.....one guess why I didn't make it! Dumb, dumb, dumb.....
Hey Purplrks - no beating yourself up. You will get there this Wednesday. New day...new chance to get it right.
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End of the day for me - relaxing with my pup (well, my 10yr old pup). I feel like I'm getting a bit of a sore throat - maybe just a little scratch from the change in the weather. We'll see what the morning brings.
Hopefully, all of us having a bit of tough time lately are on the mend - if we don't drink, tomorrow will be better than today
Hopefully, all of us having a bit of tough time lately are on the mend - if we don't drink, tomorrow will be better than today
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