Class of October 2016 Support Thread
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Day 10
I used to live in Charleston too. There's a HUGE alcohol culture there. I loved it, but it's part of the reason I'm here.
Day 10 has been better. My anxiety is lessening. I haven't cried today, so that's a plus. Tomorrow I'm going to the doctor. I'm afraid to tell them I'm quitting drinking as I don't want alcoholism on my record. I'm going so I can get a referral for therapy. It's funny, because to everyone else I seem like the most put together person. But the truth is that I'm anything but that. No one knows that I'm an alcoholic except my husband and brother.
Day 10 has been better. My anxiety is lessening. I haven't cried today, so that's a plus. Tomorrow I'm going to the doctor. I'm afraid to tell them I'm quitting drinking as I don't want alcoholism on my record. I'm going so I can get a referral for therapy. It's funny, because to everyone else I seem like the most put together person. But the truth is that I'm anything but that. No one knows that I'm an alcoholic except my husband and brother.
Got back from my meeting. Trying to get some work done. That 4 o'clock headache is settling in that I always have on day 3. Can't wait for a couple more days for it to go away. Drinking a tons of water and so thankful my appetite is back. Came back at noon yesterday. Think I dropped 8-10 lbs between the last 3 day binge that ended on Saturday and vomiting all day on Sunday with out being able to eat a thing. Never going back there.
I too am tired as soon as I get home from work. I think most of it is the mental aspect. Worrying about my DUI court case, one year suspension of my license, how I'm going to get to work/keep my job that I love since I live 30 miles away, what friends and family think of me (this is not my first problem with drinking), whether I can remain sober...etc. At work I'm actually somewhat content...until this court date that is. And I'm only starting Day 5 of sobriety, lol.
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Welcome mesosober, countrygal and cape girl!!
Finished out day 4 with reading all my old posts from my accountability thread in July, I was so excited for that chickenlady! Then, what happened, I decided I felt great, I was at the beach and wanted a beer....then two months of weekend binges every week and typically one weekday binge due to stress. Other unhealthy eating habits rose from that and now I'm starting again. I'm definitely going to get July chickenlady's positivity back, I could tell it was helpful.
Finished out day 4 with reading all my old posts from my accountability thread in July, I was so excited for that chickenlady! Then, what happened, I decided I felt great, I was at the beach and wanted a beer....then two months of weekend binges every week and typically one weekday binge due to stress. Other unhealthy eating habits rose from that and now I'm starting again. I'm definitely going to get July chickenlady's positivity back, I could tell it was helpful.
I will join the October class! I am on day 9 today, and ready to change and submit to the requirements of a sober living, gladly. The ways and days of altering existence are outlived. I've spent too long in pre-contemplation and contemplation. It's time for action, healing, understanding, living. I won't pretend to control the path, just my journey and direction. I have let the path control my destiny; no longer. I will journey on the road less traveled, and follow the guiding light of my Higher Power, from here to eternity.
Unfortunately I'm back at day 1, and probably the reason for this is that my girlfriend put us on a "break" yesterday. A 3 month break. It's probably over. Don't know how to feel about it, but last night I didn't want to feel anything about it and drank. Pointless decision.
So I have a long and challenging road ahead of me. I'm sure the journey will be worth it, but I don't look forward to the struggle.
So I have a long and challenging road ahead of me. I'm sure the journey will be worth it, but I don't look forward to the struggle.
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