Class of May 2016 Support Thread Part 8
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Ok and now with that out of the way.....I drank on Tuesday. I don't call it a slip up because I knew it was coming. Don't get me wrong, I didn't plan it, but I've felt the pressure cooker of my life building over the last month and I haven't attended to it. No excuses here. With all of that being said, I am on the morning of Day 2....one day at a time with a few adjustments to my recovery plan.
#1-I will post openly.
#2-Respect the AV. So I've always seen my AV as an insidious little being that lives in my head and rattles around every now and again....and sometimes that is all that it is....but at other times it's an indicator. An indicator that I'm becoming overwhelmed, taking on too much, or not dealing with something emotionally. I've never distinguished between the two until recently. Had I not been trying so hard to ignore it, I may have caught on sooner.
#3-Me first. I love my family. I love my friends. But I need to protect me.
I've come along way since May and I'm not going back. I am committed to growing in my sobriety and I will learn from this. I'm sorry if I let anyone down.
#1-I will post openly.
#2-Respect the AV. So I've always seen my AV as an insidious little being that lives in my head and rattles around every now and again....and sometimes that is all that it is....but at other times it's an indicator. An indicator that I'm becoming overwhelmed, taking on too much, or not dealing with something emotionally. I've never distinguished between the two until recently. Had I not been trying so hard to ignore it, I may have caught on sooner.
#3-Me first. I love my family. I love my friends. But I need to protect me.
I've come along way since May and I'm not going back. I am committed to growing in my sobriety and I will learn from this. I'm sorry if I let anyone down.
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Join Date: May 2016
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Hey Sim-
Don't beat yourself up about it. And, no, you didn't let anyone down. Things happen, and you're a better person for recognizing that and moving on. You've got a great plan, and we'll be here every step of the way.
You're a strong woman, and I know you can do this.
Don't beat yourself up about it. And, no, you didn't let anyone down. Things happen, and you're a better person for recognizing that and moving on. You've got a great plan, and we'll be here every step of the way.
You're a strong woman, and I know you can do this.
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Join Date: May 2016
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Good morning all! And HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
Today I am thankful for each and every one of you. As I reflect back on the last few months, and the year in general, I know I wouldn't be sober today if it wasn't for this great group of people and SR. You all mean the world to me, and I cherish the friends we've become.
I hope you all have a wonderful day whatever your plan may be.
Lots of love-
Camery
Today I am thankful for each and every one of you. As I reflect back on the last few months, and the year in general, I know I wouldn't be sober today if it wasn't for this great group of people and SR. You all mean the world to me, and I cherish the friends we've become.
I hope you all have a wonderful day whatever your plan may be.
Lots of love-
Camery
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Happy Friday Everyone! Thank you for the kind words & support friends 
I've picked myself up and dusted myself off and I'm keeping on keeping on, moving forward. Backwards is not an option anymore and wallowing in self-loathing and self pity is a luxury, that quite frankly, I don't have time for. So onward and upward!
Overstuffed myself on turkey yesterday and all the yummy fixings (mmm-good)! I've got 4 hours of work this a.m. & then I'm off to pick up grandchild #1 for a sleepover at Oma's.
The hubs has off of work for a week so I'll have extra help on the home front (super sweet).
Hope everyone has a good day and best of luck to all of you Black Friday shoppers
I've picked myself up and dusted myself off and I'm keeping on keeping on, moving forward. Backwards is not an option anymore and wallowing in self-loathing and self pity is a luxury, that quite frankly, I don't have time for. So onward and upward!Overstuffed myself on turkey yesterday and all the yummy fixings (mmm-good)! I've got 4 hours of work this a.m. & then I'm off to pick up grandchild #1 for a sleepover at Oma's.
The hubs has off of work for a week so I'll have extra help on the home front (super sweet).
Hope everyone has a good day and best of luck to all of you Black Friday shoppers
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Happy Friday everyone!
I too over indulged yesterday in food. But, it was a good day! Felt antsy all day, and not sure why. We didn't venture out to do any shopping, and I guess I was stir crazy. But the lazy day on the couch was nice too.
Errands today-- off to get new tires on the car this morning, seeing as winter is coming. Yea, good tires a necessity here.
Then, perhaps I will set up my Christmas tree and decorations......
Hope you all enjoyed your day yesterday and Happy Friday!
--- Camery
I too over indulged yesterday in food. But, it was a good day! Felt antsy all day, and not sure why. We didn't venture out to do any shopping, and I guess I was stir crazy. But the lazy day on the couch was nice too.
Errands today-- off to get new tires on the car this morning, seeing as winter is coming. Yea, good tires a necessity here.
Then, perhaps I will set up my Christmas tree and decorations......
Hope you all enjoyed your day yesterday and Happy Friday!
--- Camery
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Hi all and happy thanksgiving to you lovely American folks. I don't fully understand what it is but I think it's about being thankful and eating a lot......a great family time!
Sim I'm the expert here in slips/relapses. You've got so much sober time that I'm confident you can put this behind you quickly. Yes put yourself first. It's essential I believe and great timing that hubby is off work.
I'm still feeling absolutely terrible. Got some antibiotics, steroids and an inhaler from the docs yesterday. Yes I'm that bad. Clearly I need to give up the smoking too but I'm not ready yet. Pathetic I know given that I'm coughing like an 80 year old but one thing at a time. Plus was up at 1am clearing up daughters vomit from her carpet. Sickness everywhere here!!!!
But at least I'm sober. At least I'm staying positive. Plus I've done a little online Christmas shopping so making a start there.....
Have a lovely weekend all from croaky-jo xxx
Sim I'm the expert here in slips/relapses. You've got so much sober time that I'm confident you can put this behind you quickly. Yes put yourself first. It's essential I believe and great timing that hubby is off work.
I'm still feeling absolutely terrible. Got some antibiotics, steroids and an inhaler from the docs yesterday. Yes I'm that bad. Clearly I need to give up the smoking too but I'm not ready yet. Pathetic I know given that I'm coughing like an 80 year old but one thing at a time. Plus was up at 1am clearing up daughters vomit from her carpet. Sickness everywhere here!!!!
But at least I'm sober. At least I'm staying positive. Plus I've done a little online Christmas shopping so making a start there.....
Have a lovely weekend all from croaky-jo xxx
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I will not drink. I will not drink. Today my favorite uncle passed. Unexpectedly. My second father and my aunt my favorite person in the world. My family is still in shock, as am I. Feeling helpless as they are in Florida and I am here.
Thoughts and prayers needed folks!
Sorry for the quick short post, but wanted to put it out there. The AV of course is telling me to get the bottle.........
Thoughts and prayers needed folks!
Sorry for the quick short post, but wanted to put it out there. The AV of course is telling me to get the bottle.........
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Oh (((Camery))) I'm so sorry for your loss. I've lost 2 close people this year so I can imagine how you're feeling now. Can you get a little time off to go home or even to Florida? Is your friend with you to comfort you? Please post as often as you need to ok?
Please whatever you do DON'T HIT THE BOTTLE. You can handle this without drinking. You've come so far, handled your job hunting, house move and much more, you can cope without it.
I'll pray for you and your family Camery.
Lot's of love X
Please whatever you do DON'T HIT THE BOTTLE. You can handle this without drinking. You've come so far, handled your job hunting, house move and much more, you can cope without it.
I'll pray for you and your family Camery.
Lot's of love X
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I'm really sorry for your loss Camery.
The AV is a low life parasite - the kind of scum that would use a tragedy like this to get what it wants.
It promises relief but it doesn't deliver. As long as it gets it's fix, it doesn't care about anything else.
Keep that AV under your heel where it belongs.
It's ok to be sad. Sadness is normal in grief and loss. We get through it, we process the loss, and then we dry our eyes and keep moving forward.
Lean on us too - you're not alone
D
The AV is a low life parasite - the kind of scum that would use a tragedy like this to get what it wants.
It promises relief but it doesn't deliver. As long as it gets it's fix, it doesn't care about anything else.
Keep that AV under your heel where it belongs.
It's ok to be sad. Sadness is normal in grief and loss. We get through it, we process the loss, and then we dry our eyes and keep moving forward.
Lean on us too - you're not alone
D
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Thanks all!
I didn't drink. I took a nice hot bath, relaxed, and napped. Things have settled in now, so the next part is just dealing with everything that needs to be handled. My Aunt lives in Florida and cant get around by herself, so we have made arrangements for help, and we will be heading down to help her.
Thanks for all of the kind words, and posts. I appreciate it more then you know.
Love you all--
Camery
I didn't drink. I took a nice hot bath, relaxed, and napped. Things have settled in now, so the next part is just dealing with everything that needs to be handled. My Aunt lives in Florida and cant get around by herself, so we have made arrangements for help, and we will be heading down to help her.
Thanks for all of the kind words, and posts. I appreciate it more then you know.
Love you all--
Camery
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Hi all,
Quick check in after being AWOL for a while. My FiL has been diagnosed with bowel cancer. He's going through more tests to see whether it's confined or spread. Things are very much up in the air here. Mr Floss will probably head back at some point in December, we just don't know how urgently he needs to get back to Blighty. If it's worst case news, we'll all go back. We'd both known such a call would come at some point, it it still sucks to get it. Glad to be sober through it at least.
Camery, sorry to hear your news. Be kind to yourself.
Sim, onwards and upwards. Hope you're doing a bit better this week.
Jo, being ill sucks. Get better soon!
CG, glad that the court thing wasn't too bad.
Elke, hello.
Quick check in after being AWOL for a while. My FiL has been diagnosed with bowel cancer. He's going through more tests to see whether it's confined or spread. Things are very much up in the air here. Mr Floss will probably head back at some point in December, we just don't know how urgently he needs to get back to Blighty. If it's worst case news, we'll all go back. We'd both known such a call would come at some point, it it still sucks to get it. Glad to be sober through it at least.
Camery, sorry to hear your news. Be kind to yourself.
Sim, onwards and upwards. Hope you're doing a bit better this week.
Jo, being ill sucks. Get better soon!
CG, glad that the court thing wasn't too bad.
Elke, hello.
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Flossy-Praying for the best
Well Sunday is winding down. Lots going on here as has been the trend lately. Just finished updating my resume....looking for greener pastures with a less crazy boss Taking control of what I have control over......or at least that's the plan. Attended grandchild #2's first b-day party earlier today. She was hamming it up and loved being the center of attention! Her parents are expecting again so she will have competition soon enough.
My father has been discharged from the hospital just as the hubs grandmother has been admitted with a hip fracture (surgery tomorrow sometime). Its never ending. Such is life, I suppose.
Well Sunday is winding down. Lots going on here as has been the trend lately. Just finished updating my resume....looking for greener pastures with a less crazy boss
Taking control of what I have control over......or at least that's the plan. Attended grandchild #2's first b-day party earlier today. She was hamming it up and loved being the center of attention! Her parents are expecting again so she will have competition soon enough.My father has been discharged from the hospital just as the hubs grandmother has been admitted with a hip fracture (surgery tomorrow sometime). Its never ending. Such is life, I suppose.
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