Class of September 2016 Part 2
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Something I've noticed ....
I've had very few intense alcohol cravings *knock on wood*.
I don't want to drink. My dangerous moments are when I'm in a crisis state emotionally and I've more likely to say "screw it! My life is ruined so I might as well get hammered".
So as long as I remember to follow my Crisis Plan without being willful, and call my Sponsor or another AA member if I'm having thoughts of drinking, I should be ok. I just must be sure to use those coping skills during those crisis times.
I'm so thankful I'm past the point of constant alcohol cravings
I've had very few intense alcohol cravings *knock on wood*.
I don't want to drink. My dangerous moments are when I'm in a crisis state emotionally and I've more likely to say "screw it! My life is ruined so I might as well get hammered".
So as long as I remember to follow my Crisis Plan without being willful, and call my Sponsor or another AA member if I'm having thoughts of drinking, I should be ok. I just must be sure to use those coping skills during those crisis times.
I'm so thankful I'm past the point of constant alcohol cravings
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Originally Posted by VirginiaWoof 
Happy Birthday Cute x I think I'm ill. Something's just not right. I did some ironing today and actually found it therapeutic!! Shoot me now!
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Hi there folks. So I'm back on day 1 again. Just reaching out to tell you all how horrible it is. Cling on to your days you're notching up sober. Don't go back to the depths of despair that is drinking and then hating yourself for it and having to start all over again.
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Home sick today. I keep wondering why I keep getting sick and then my good friend reminded me that stress can suppress the immune system--boy are they right about that as I am a living example and someone who got a cold maybe once a year before this insanity.
Depressed. I may not be active in my drinking addiction but I have been active in my overeating addiction all week. I am full now and in bed crying- going to watch some tv and hopefully doze off. I am so depressed. It's hard to find the silver lining right now with my marriage falling apart and the stress from work and the fact that I am sick and can't stop eating to fill the emptiness. It's never ending. I keep sabotaging so I don't have to engage in the world. I just want to feel better than this.
I know it will get better. I do. Just need to hang on until it does. One day at a time.
Depressed. I may not be active in my drinking addiction but I have been active in my overeating addiction all week. I am full now and in bed crying- going to watch some tv and hopefully doze off. I am so depressed. It's hard to find the silver lining right now with my marriage falling apart and the stress from work and the fact that I am sick and can't stop eating to fill the emptiness. It's never ending. I keep sabotaging so I don't have to engage in the world. I just want to feel better than this.
I know it will get better. I do. Just need to hang on until it does. One day at a time.
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Originally Posted by sadsadgirl
Hi there folks. So I'm back on day 1 again. Just reaching out to tell you all how horrible it is. Cling on to your days you're notching up sober. Don't go back to the depths of despair that is drinking and then hating yourself for it and having to start all over again.
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Sunflowerlife-I completely relate to what you said about sabotaging so you don't have to engage in the world. That is me all over! Slowly though we'll get strength in our sobriety to not want to sabotage. We'll be able to deal with things in a responsible way-in a way that looks after ourselves rather than flipping the switch into self destruction. I think having a big cry is healing. Embracing the feelings rather than drugging them takes the power out of them. I'm sending you lots of positive thoughts over the web. Keep on checking here.
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Hi all,
I'm sorry for the rough stretch some of you are having. It seems to be a downer week for some of the September class.
I'may not trying to compete, but I also started feeling bad yesterday, and today seems worse. I don't get migraines, or at least I thought, but it feels like someone is stabbing me in the back of the eyeball, and my vision may or may not be getting blurry. WTF is that about. At least drinking I didn't notice this kind of ****.
Dark sense of humor seems to be functioning though. (Working at a library for some peace and quiet) I keep imagining my eyeball popping out, because im convinced its going to any second now) and rolling down the aisles, and trying to figure if I could bleed out from that before anyone noticed and tried to revive me. Not sure I want them too right now! ( the eyeball rolling through the books shelves while people are trying to read amuses me though... and if they're playing Pokémon I'm positive nobody would even notice!!)
Anyway, I have to give a presentation in like 2 hours, I'm struggling to stay focused at all... and I'm one of those weirdos who really love presenting. Sigh...
Sorry some of you are struggling right now... be strong!
EH
I'm sorry for the rough stretch some of you are having. It seems to be a downer week for some of the September class.
I'may not trying to compete, but I also started feeling bad yesterday, and today seems worse. I don't get migraines, or at least I thought, but it feels like someone is stabbing me in the back of the eyeball, and my vision may or may not be getting blurry. WTF is that about. At least drinking I didn't notice this kind of ****.
Dark sense of humor seems to be functioning though. (Working at a library for some peace and quiet) I keep imagining my eyeball popping out, because im convinced its going to any second now) and rolling down the aisles, and trying to figure if I could bleed out from that before anyone noticed and tried to revive me. Not sure I want them too right now! ( the eyeball rolling through the books shelves while people are trying to read amuses me though... and if they're playing Pokémon I'm positive nobody would even notice!!)
Anyway, I have to give a presentation in like 2 hours, I'm struggling to stay focused at all... and I'm one of those weirdos who really love presenting. Sigh...
Sorry some of you are struggling right now... be strong!
EH
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Alright. Here I am again. I'm so sorry for the on again off again relationship with SR and with being sober. I'm 8 days free and would love to have class of Sept 16 in my pocket as a resource.
Nothing major happened *this time* (other than binging everytime my stress is at critical levels and feeling that my life revolves around alcohol and that I'm sabatoging my own happiness... and the list goes on and on....)
May I join you?
Nothing major happened *this time* (other than binging everytime my stress is at critical levels and feeling that my life revolves around alcohol and that I'm sabatoging my own happiness... and the list goes on and on....)
May I join you?
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Thanks for all the Bday wishes!! Means a lot!
Day 15. Half way to 30 which I've done quite a few times this year. This will be my last 30. I hope we can all get there together.
Bblack good to see you! Welcome!
Day 15. Half way to 30 which I've done quite a few times this year. This will be my last 30. I hope we can all get there together.
Bblack good to see you! Welcome!
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Just wanted to share some good news!
Trying to figure out where to move my horses from my ex's farm has been a challenge.
So, my parents and I have decided to put the money I would have spent boarding into their own property and keep my horses here! I am so happy and can't wait to have my beloved babies in my backyard!!!
I'm so very excited about this I can't even begin to articulate it
(I'm glad you are back so quickly sadsadgirl. Try and learn from the experience. What could you do differently next time to avoid taking that first drink?)
Trying to figure out where to move my horses from my ex's farm has been a challenge.
So, my parents and I have decided to put the money I would have spent boarding into their own property and keep my horses here! I am so happy and can't wait to have my beloved babies in my backyard!!!
I'm so very excited about this I can't even begin to articulate it
(I'm glad you are back so quickly sadsadgirl. Try and learn from the experience. What could you do differently next time to avoid taking that first drink?)
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Originally Posted by EventHorizons
Hi all, I'm sorry for the rough stretch some of you are having. It seems to be a downer week for some of the September class. I'may not trying to compete, but I also started feeling bad yesterday, and today seems worse. I don't get migraines, or at least I thought, but it feels like someone is stabbing me in the back of the eyeball, and my vision may or may not be getting blurry. WTF is that about. At least drinking I didn't notice this kind of ****. Dark sense of humor seems to be functioning though. (Working at a library for some peace and quiet) I keep imagining my eyeball popping out, because im convinced its going to any second now) and rolling down the aisles, and trying to figure if I could bleed out from that before anyone noticed and tried to revive me. Not sure I want them too right now! ( the eyeball rolling through the books shelves while people are trying to read amuses me though... and if they're playing Pokémon I'm positive nobody would even notice!!) Anyway, I have to give a presentation in like 2 hours, I'm struggling to stay focused at all... and I'm one of those weirdos who really love presenting. Sigh... Sorry some of you are struggling right now... be strong! EH
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Originally Posted by bblackbirdflyy
Alright. Here I am again. I'm so sorry for the on again off again relationship with SR and with being sober. I'm 8 days free and would love to have class of Sept 16 in my pocket as a resource. Nothing major happened *this time* (other than binging everytime my stress is at critical levels and feeling that my life revolves around alcohol and that I'm sabatoging my own happiness... and the list goes on and on....) May I join you?
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Originally Posted by CuteNGayYay
Thanks for all the Bday wishes!! Means a lot! Day 15. Half way to 30 which I've done quite a few times this year. This will be my last 30. I hope we can all get there together. Bblack good to see you! Welcome!
Bblack good to see you! Welcome!
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