Class of April 2014 Part 28
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Tops- Thinking of you, I hope you're safe and well!
"Success without fulfillment is the ultimate failure."
Greetings Fools, the quote above was something I heard from a motivational video I was just listening to as I worked out. It really hit home. My whole adult life was that. I had some success, but I never had fulfillment. I had no fulfillment, because I had no identify. This bred fear and the fear compounded to every fiber of my being.
It took 2.5 years, relapse after relapse, failure after failure before things started to click. I certainly learned a lot between those failures, but the journey often felt hopeless.
Now I realize the only failure was when I chose to fail. When my old life seemed easier than forging a new one. Now 8 months and change, I realize failure is part of the process. It's how I react to failure that is the difference. It's how I react to the fear. My solution is to keep pushing.
"Success without fulfillment is the ultimate failure."
Greetings Fools, the quote above was something I heard from a motivational video I was just listening to as I worked out. It really hit home. My whole adult life was that. I had some success, but I never had fulfillment. I had no fulfillment, because I had no identify. This bred fear and the fear compounded to every fiber of my being.
It took 2.5 years, relapse after relapse, failure after failure before things started to click. I certainly learned a lot between those failures, but the journey often felt hopeless.
Now I realize the only failure was when I chose to fail. When my old life seemed easier than forging a new one. Now 8 months and change, I realize failure is part of the process. It's how I react to failure that is the difference. It's how I react to the fear. My solution is to keep pushing.
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Noolan- those are great thoughts- I always enjoy reading your posts
Top- I'm worried about you! Just read about Matthew- looks like you shouldn't get the worst of it anyway ... ? what's up with these storms?!
Thinking of you Mariah ❤️
Top- I'm worried about you! Just read about Matthew- looks like you shouldn't get the worst of it anyway ... ? what's up with these storms?!
Thinking of you Mariah ❤️
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Still progressing obo. They started a new exercise Monday along with making some others harder. I go back this afternoon and I am going to tell them to cut the new one out. I was in pain all night Monday and I think the new one is the culprit.
Otherwise it's SSDD here.
Otherwise it's SSDD here.
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Hey fools, just checking in. Trying to avoid these multi-day breaks from ya'll. I took more early leave at work today. I'm just determined to be broke I guess. 
I've been laying around, but managed to load the dish washer and after this post will be completing my reading for this week's class. It's strange, it feels good to be back in school, but leading up to this, I had thoughts of "if I relapse again, this is all for nothing" to "well I could drink again and since it's a 2.5 year program and I'd still have time to get be **** together". I think it's just old habits flaring up. The obsession to use is gone, but in moments of uncertainty, old ways of thinking creep in. I don't think I'm afraid of success, but it feels that way sometimes.
Oh well, life is good. I made some fantastic greek style meat balls last night and making curry tonight. I make curry at least once a week. It's tasty and I found a simple recipe. Anyways, in for the bargain as we say.
I've been laying around, but managed to load the dish washer and after this post will be completing my reading for this week's class. It's strange, it feels good to be back in school, but leading up to this, I had thoughts of "if I relapse again, this is all for nothing" to "well I could drink again and since it's a 2.5 year program and I'd still have time to get be **** together". I think it's just old habits flaring up. The obsession to use is gone, but in moments of uncertainty, old ways of thinking creep in. I don't think I'm afraid of success, but it feels that way sometimes.
Oh well, life is good. I made some fantastic greek style meat balls last night and making curry tonight. I make curry at least once a week. It's tasty and I found a simple recipe. Anyways, in for the bargain as we say.
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Noolan, sounds like you have some fabulous culinary skills! I'm on the look out for a simple vegan curry, I've tried my hand at quite a few with mediocre results at best
Obo, you'll be aching tomorrow , a heavy gardening day is akin to workout at the gym.
I've been finishing the day with a yin yoga DVD over the past few evenings, and its been a lovely way to wind down. I still need to stick to my meditation habit though.
In for the Bargain too.
Obo, you'll be aching tomorrow , a heavy gardening day is akin to workout at the gym.
I've been finishing the day with a yin yoga DVD over the past few evenings, and its been a lovely way to wind down. I still need to stick to my meditation habit though.
In for the Bargain too.
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Thanks for the well wishes everyone !!
I'm about a city block from the Atlantic Ocean Freein,.....but have been cooking a ton of food today to take down to the resort where I work and will stay there as Mathew comes through. The resort is structurally a beast !
Five floors of concrete and steel,...and the head of maintenance is riding out the hurricane there also,.....
Most everyone has already evacuated yesterday and today, so this place is like a ghost town .
Thanks for the well wishes everyone !!
Originally Posted by freein14 
Tops, are you inland?
Five floors of concrete and steel,...and the head of maintenance is riding out the hurricane there also,.....
Most everyone has already evacuated yesterday and today, so this place is like a ghost town .
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Originally Posted by Noolan
"Success without fulfillment is the ultimate failure."
Greetings Fools, the quote above was something I heard from a motivational video I was just listening to as I worked out. It really hit home. My whole adult life was that. I had some success, but I never had fulfillment. I had no fulfillment, because I had no identify. This bred fear and the fear compounded to every fiber of my being.
It took 2.5 years, relapse after relapse, failure after failure before things started to click. I certainly learned a lot between those failures, but the journey often felt hopeless.
Now I realize the only failure was when I chose to fail. When my old life seemed easier than forging a new one. Now 8 months and change, I realize failure is part of the process. It's how I react to failure that is the difference. It's how I react to the fear. My solution is to keep pushing.
Thanks for this ^^ Noolan ....
It's really helped clarify a few things for me the last couple days .
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Originally Posted by freein14
Noolan, sounds like you have some fabulous culinary skills! I'm on the look out for a simple vegan curry, I've tried my hand at quite a few with mediocre results at best
Obo, you'll be aching tomorrow , a heavy gardening day is akin to workout at the gym.
I've been finishing the day with a yin yoga DVD over the past few evenings, and its been a lovely way to wind down. I still need to stick to my meditation habit though.
In for the Bargain too.
Obo, you'll be aching tomorrow , a heavy gardening day is akin to workout at the gym.
I've been finishing the day with a yin yoga DVD over the past few evenings, and its been a lovely way to wind down. I still need to stick to my meditation habit though.
In for the Bargain too.
African Peanut Soup Recipe
Spicy Vegan Jambalaya | Life As A Strawberry
Spicy Vegan Sloppy Joes Recipe : Food Network Kitchen : Food Network (lose the walnuts and sub in quinoa or just go without)
Cauliflower Rice Stuffed Peppers | Minimalist Baker Recipes
Easy Coconut Curry | Minimalist Baker Recipes
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Tops, glad you've found a bunker!
Well, easy day at work. We were dead, so rather than go home, I did most my homework. I still have to do another posting, and force myself to do some yoga. It's amazing how easy I'm ready to say, F it, good enough for me. No, I need to continue to be disciplined.
Besides that, life is good. I get random moments of loneliness. I think it's probably the fact I've been dateless for 8 months. I know I don't want to rush into a relationship just to be in one and I'm doing everything I need to be ready for a healthy one once it materializes, but some days the feeling creeps up. OH WELL, haha. Keep grinding and good things will happen. Plus I posted two days in a row, so there's that.
Well, easy day at work. We were dead, so rather than go home, I did most my homework. I still have to do another posting, and force myself to do some yoga. It's amazing how easy I'm ready to say, F it, good enough for me. No, I need to continue to be disciplined.
Besides that, life is good. I get random moments of loneliness. I think it's probably the fact I've been dateless for 8 months. I know I don't want to rush into a relationship just to be in one and I'm doing everything I need to be ready for a healthy one once it materializes, but some days the feeling creeps up. OH WELL, haha. Keep grinding and good things will happen. Plus I posted two days in a row, so there's that.
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Tops ~ I saw a mention of a Hurricane Mathew support thread in the Alcoholic section. Don't know if you want to check it out, just thought I would mention it.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ck-thread.html
We will be here for you ... stay safe.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ck-thread.html
We will be here for you ... stay safe.
Those recipes sound sound lovely.
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