Class of March 2016 part 30
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Originally Posted by LillianGish 
Not a good night here. Breathing deep, calming down. I have no one to be accountable to, except me of course. My spouse couldn't care less about my sobriety. Shocking how fast the alcohol appeared in the fridge just as soon as he saw I had fallen off the wagon last week. It wasn't "honey are you ok?" It was "Here you go, drink up." Then disappointment when I went back to being sober.
We just had a fight and gosh a drink would really take the edge off but I'm coming here instead. Drinking "at" someone even dumber than drinking.
Every day I have to drive the road with the big huge burn spot, where the poor man in the mini cooper died from the drunk driver hitting him last weekend. I drive right over the burnt road on my way to work. They didn't do a very good job cleaning it up. It's awful to see and think about.
That's what I'll be accountable to.
OK, rant off. I'll have a smile tomorrow.
We just had a fight and gosh a drink would really take the edge off but I'm coming here instead. Drinking "at" someone even dumber than drinking.
Every day I have to drive the road with the big huge burn spot, where the poor man in the mini cooper died from the drunk driver hitting him last weekend. I drive right over the burnt road on my way to work. They didn't do a very good job cleaning it up. It's awful to see and think about.
That's what I'll be accountable to.
OK, rant off. I'll have a smile tomorrow.
Morning kayak!!
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I'm struggling....a lot. I got in a fight with DH last night - I was drinking - and he asked if I was a survivor or a victim....I'm not sure. Feeling pretty down on myself this morning. I suck at this.
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Originally Posted by samantha14
I'm struggling....a lot. I got in a fight with DH last night - I was drinking - and he asked if I was a survivor or a victim....I'm not sure. Feeling pretty down on myself this morning. I suck at this.
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Originally Posted by Kayak63sc
know you don't suck you made it 38 days you just had a little slip. If you're still drinking stop pour it out and hang out with us. Hugs
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Originally Posted by samantha14
I don't know what to do anymore Dee. I can't go to therapy because it triggers me, I can't go to AA....my doctor tells me I'm not an alcoholic. I just have no idea.
Hugs friend
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Originally Posted by Kayak63sc
Committing to everyone on the 24 hour thread seems to really help me a lot.
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Morning everyone! Day 51. Rushing out the door for a soccer game. I'll catch up on the posts later. :-)
I hope everyone has a beautiful day. Life isn't perfect since I got sober but it's 1000 X better!
Don't drink. It's poison.
Love you all! Xo
I hope everyone has a beautiful day. Life isn't perfect since I got sober but it's 1000 X better!
Don't drink. It's poison.
Love you all! Xo
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Originally Posted by samantha14
I don't know what to do anymore Dee. I can't go to therapy because it triggers me, I can't go to AA....my doctor tells me I'm not an alcoholic. I just have no idea.
What I do know is I have a drinking problem. I certainly have the right to decide for myself that I am better off without alcohol and leaving it behind. So do you, Sam.
It can be hard to find the way out - it seems different things work for different people. You seem to connect pretty well here, though. I love seeing your posts!
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Originally Posted by samantha14
I don't know what to do anymore Dee. I can't go to therapy because it triggers me, I can't go to AA....my doctor tells me I'm not an alcoholic. I just have no idea.
I think a recovery plan can work for anyone Sam - it's all about you, your needs and what you're prepared to do.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
As for your Dr and the A word - don't get hung up on it...
you have a problem...you know it...
either you drink when you don't want to, or you want to drink when there's an abundance of evidence that that would be a bad choice for you...
maybe its a mixture of both, I dunno?
Alcoholic or not, it's a definite problem you need to fix - and the type of problem that will grow worse if you don't do anything about it.
D
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Originally Posted by Thirteenth
Had a new week to work with and...same old. Kept sober throughout the days at work and crumbled in the evenings. Even if it wasn't a lot, I was drinking so I kept away. Only happened to login while the thread was new so went for the 'gun.
I should have posted and asked for help first but I'm stubborn. It's a serious character flaw of mine and one that will catch up to me if I can't achieve sobriety. I've had a lot going on but that's no reason for me to flake on something far more important.
I should have posted and asked for help first but I'm stubborn. It's a serious character flaw of mine and one that will catch up to me if I can't achieve sobriety. I've had a lot going on but that's no reason for me to flake on something far more important.
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