Originally Posted by KiKi0615
(Post 6091276)
Dee is a guy and he lives in Australia. He is one of the SR Moderators. I don't think he is online because it is only 6:15 a.m. on Monday morning there. I think I am giving up. hahaha. Gotta go. :headbange |
Where is everyone today? I hope everyone is ok. :-) |
Originally Posted by Bobbieka
(Post 6091262)
Lol. Personally, I find it fun making people uncomfortable. I say, no thanks, I don't drink, I'm an alcoholic. People generally stop prying then. |
Kiki you're hilarious with the shotgun talk |
Originally Posted by immri
(Post 6091488)
Kiki you're hilarious with the shotgun talk |
You should all try and beat our 31 page record tonight. I'd help but still at work. |
Dee should be showing up soon. Not sure that could happen. |
Originally Posted by fred59
(Post 6091148)
Thirteenth you have to want put one of your plans to work |
Hi Immri and thirteenth. |
Originally Posted by CaseyW
(Post 6091507)
You should all try and beat our 31 page record tonight. I'd help but still at work. |
Hi Bobbie, immri, Kiki, Casey, I'd say to stick a fork in me that I'm done, but I keep failing to be done. Not abnormal but damn frustrating. |
Thirteenth, I can remember back in February, I was on my way home, standing at the gas station, wanting to by my vodka shots. I looked at them behind the counter, grabbed a diet dr. Pepper and paid for it. That was the first time I just decided, that's it, I'm done. It was such a relief. Like so much had been taken off my shoulders. I don't know specifically what it was, but I was at the end, I do know that. |
I'd kill (well, maybe not actually) to know that feeling. I read so many stories here and it's almost like they bounce off me. When I fail I don't feel guilt, I'm merely annoyed. I want to hate my addiction more than I do. I want to get to that space where I'd rather be sober but it feels elusive. Not giving up, just f'ing up. |
Originally Posted by KiKi0615
(Post 6091528)
What's the 31 page record? |
Really? |
A pipe dream? |
Part 12, surprisingly easy to find. The new computer and not some cobbled together crap might be a factor. :) |
Could you tell me more about that feeling, Bobbie? I've read it many times but another perspective from another person I respect is another tool in my arsenal to be clean. This request is to all of you too, please tell me what flipped the switch for you. |
I don't know for sure. The only thing that had changed was SR. I suddenly decided I really wanted that. I wanted to be the best me I could. Alcohol has no place. Realizing I'm not going to drink again, I'm glad. I am starting back to school Aug. 28. At 50. I am running again. My family (even my daughters) like me again. I still don't get to babysit Sophia, but every day I'm sober is a day closer. That feeling? I just feel strong, thirteenth. And very very grateful for all of you. |
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