Class of April 2016 Part 7
Ginger beer gets my vote as well! Definitely try it Midwest especially ice cold. It's a bit of an acquired taste and I also like it for that reason - cans don't mysteriously vanish like other soft drinks.
My kids won't drink it!
Goodnight everyone!
My kids won't drink it!
Goodnight everyone!
thanks Kopfan and Kittycat. I'll have to try it.
I got the yard mowed. It is kinda choppy because it was so high....it should look really good after I get a chance to go over it again. I sprayed the weeds with round up too. I cleaned house and did laundry. I stayed busy all day. lol.
I don't think I realized how cloudy my brain was and how icky I really felt drinking. I feel awesome now. I am glad I gave it up. I am probably on day 57 or something like that.
I got the yard mowed. It is kinda choppy because it was so high....it should look really good after I get a chance to go over it again. I sprayed the weeds with round up too. I cleaned house and did laundry. I stayed busy all day. lol.
I don't think I realized how cloudy my brain was and how icky I really felt drinking. I feel awesome now. I am glad I gave it up. I am probably on day 57 or something like that.
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Hi everyone. I'm so glad to see most of you are doing well. Tati - you need to concentrate on getting yourself well. If that means a doctor then go. How amazing are you, feeling the way you are now and not drinking!!!
I've not been on for a while and I was going to apologise but it's not because I couldn't be bothered, it's just been because I haven't really thought about it I've just been getting on with life and it's been good. My life now is incredibly busy. I don't have a day where I don't have things to do. Yesterday I took my boys out on a day out with some of their friends from school - mums I've met and made good friends of because I've bee able to spend time with them. When I was drinking it would have been impossible - I would have been constantly thinking when can I get home and drink. It was a brilliant day. We stayed in the place until they chucked us out lol.
I had a drunk dream last night and it was awful. I've woken up and it still feels like it was true. It's ridiculously early but I didn't want to stay in bed thinking about it.
I go on holiday next week for 2 weeks and am looking forward to that. It's the 6 week summer holidays here and I'm struggling with childcare for my boys. I've had to take more time off work than I wanted to. The guilt of that probably contributed to my drunk dream because part of it was that I'd been told to do some stuff but then couldn't remember what it was because I'd been drinking.
I have to say I am jealous of those of you losing weight. I'm struggling big time on that front.
Have a lovely weekend people
I've not been on for a while and I was going to apologise but it's not because I couldn't be bothered, it's just been because I haven't really thought about it I've just been getting on with life and it's been good. My life now is incredibly busy. I don't have a day where I don't have things to do. Yesterday I took my boys out on a day out with some of their friends from school - mums I've met and made good friends of because I've bee able to spend time with them. When I was drinking it would have been impossible - I would have been constantly thinking when can I get home and drink. It was a brilliant day. We stayed in the place until they chucked us out lol.
I had a drunk dream last night and it was awful. I've woken up and it still feels like it was true. It's ridiculously early but I didn't want to stay in bed thinking about it.
I go on holiday next week for 2 weeks and am looking forward to that. It's the 6 week summer holidays here and I'm struggling with childcare for my boys. I've had to take more time off work than I wanted to. The guilt of that probably contributed to my drunk dream because part of it was that I'd been told to do some stuff but then couldn't remember what it was because I'd been drinking.
I have to say I am jealous of those of you losing weight. I'm struggling big time on that front.
Have a lovely weekend people
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Hey everyone! Congrats winslow and midwest!!!
I happy to report that i'm feeling A LOT better. Omg the last two weeks were UNREAL. I was a MESS emotionally to put it mildly. I really can't put it into words what I was experiencing. I was CONSUMED with thoughts of death and worst case scenarios. I was afraid to turn off the lights in my room at night. I was staying up for days on end. I was panic stricken walking around my apartment because we found one water bug in the kitchen WEEKS ago. The exterminator came, and we sprayed bug spray at all the entry points, so there was no REAL reason for me to paranoid. Anyway I got my xanax refilled (I know, I know) AND aunt flo came for her monthly visit two days. HOLY. ****. It was like the stress just floated down my entire body and exited out of my feet. For the first time in WEEKS I wasn't scared to go to sleep or walk around my apartment. I wasn't dwelling on death. The tension in my shoulders just vanished. It was SOOOO nice. I gave my mom my bottle of xanax. I told her to hide it for me, and give me ONLY what I was prescribed. Because I'm not going through this **** again. I know benzos are controversial and addictive, but at this moment in time I need them. When I get on a good med regimen I will taper off them. I've done it before. The pms on top of the withdrawals is what messed me up to. I have really HORRIBLE PMS. I think myPMS was affecting me more then not taking xanax tbh. I hate that I have to go through this **** every month just so I can give birth to a snot nose brat (thats mean I know. I have nothing against kids lol. I just hate my uterus). I would get a hysterectomy tomorrow if I could. Not everyone wants to have kids. I have VERY valid reasons for not wanting kids. I wish dr's would let woman make their own choices.
I'm a loner to. I need to stop isolating though. I had a therapist call me snob once lmao. This was when I was like 21 to. I've always been like this looool. I told him I am NOT a snob. I just don't have any patience, and most people are REALLY annoying AND mean. So because i'm picky about the company I choose to hang around with that makes me a snob? People are EXHAUSTING. Socializing is not fun to me, because people are mostly fake anyway. I'm a true introvert what can I say. I'm not rude though. If someone strikes up a conversation with me I'll talk. I'm not a uppity or mean person. I'm just......I don't know. It's just hard for me to connect with people I guess. All my friendships and relationships have always been one sided. So I'm kind of cynical in that regard. I'd love to have a group of close knit friends though, and a boyfriend who legitimately cares about me. I doubt it'll happen though. Such is life.
I baked low carb almond, cinnamon cookies tonight midwest I messed up the first batch by adding too much butter, and baking SODA instead of baking POWDER. There IS a difference . Anyway I remade them with less butter and baking powder and the came out perfect. I hate wasting food though. Almond powder is NOT cheap.
Thanks midwest!!
I happy to report that i'm feeling A LOT better. Omg the last two weeks were UNREAL. I was a MESS emotionally to put it mildly. I really can't put it into words what I was experiencing. I was CONSUMED with thoughts of death and worst case scenarios. I was afraid to turn off the lights in my room at night. I was staying up for days on end. I was panic stricken walking around my apartment because we found one water bug in the kitchen WEEKS ago. The exterminator came, and we sprayed bug spray at all the entry points, so there was no REAL reason for me to paranoid. Anyway I got my xanax refilled (I know, I know) AND aunt flo came for her monthly visit two days. HOLY. ****. It was like the stress just floated down my entire body and exited out of my feet. For the first time in WEEKS I wasn't scared to go to sleep or walk around my apartment. I wasn't dwelling on death. The tension in my shoulders just vanished. It was SOOOO nice. I gave my mom my bottle of xanax. I told her to hide it for me, and give me ONLY what I was prescribed. Because I'm not going through this **** again. I know benzos are controversial and addictive, but at this moment in time I need them. When I get on a good med regimen I will taper off them. I've done it before. The pms on top of the withdrawals is what messed me up to. I have really HORRIBLE PMS. I think myPMS was affecting me more then not taking xanax tbh. I hate that I have to go through this **** every month just so I can give birth to a snot nose brat (thats mean I know. I have nothing against kids lol. I just hate my uterus). I would get a hysterectomy tomorrow if I could. Not everyone wants to have kids. I have VERY valid reasons for not wanting kids. I wish dr's would let woman make their own choices.
I'm a loner to. I need to stop isolating though. I had a therapist call me snob once lmao. This was when I was like 21 to. I've always been like this looool. I told him I am NOT a snob. I just don't have any patience, and most people are REALLY annoying AND mean. So because i'm picky about the company I choose to hang around with that makes me a snob? People are EXHAUSTING. Socializing is not fun to me, because people are mostly fake anyway. I'm a true introvert what can I say. I'm not rude though. If someone strikes up a conversation with me I'll talk. I'm not a uppity or mean person. I'm just......I don't know. It's just hard for me to connect with people I guess. All my friendships and relationships have always been one sided. So I'm kind of cynical in that regard. I'd love to have a group of close knit friends though, and a boyfriend who legitimately cares about me. I doubt it'll happen though. Such is life.
I baked low carb almond, cinnamon cookies tonight midwest I messed up the first batch by adding too much butter, and baking SODA instead of baking POWDER. There IS a difference . Anyway I remade them with less butter and baking powder and the came out perfect. I hate wasting food though. Almond powder is NOT cheap.
Thanks midwest!!
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Hi guys, I am just checking in. I'm going to a party tonight where I've been invited as a guest - nervous about it, it's at a private residence and I don't know the host ....eek! I am not tempted to drink but I do long for the numbness alcohol would bring. Arg!!
And my mom just said a really insensitive thing to me that hurt my feelings- given that and my nerves I just erupted into tears!
Deep breaths.....getting through all this sober but damn not easy
And my mom just said a really insensitive thing to me that hurt my feelings- given that and my nerves I just erupted into tears!
Deep breaths.....getting through all this sober but damn not easy
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Does anyone have like one specific song that triggers a craving? There's this one song by The Weeknd (Yes thats how he spells it lol. He's an R&B singer) called "Often" that WITHOUT fail triggers an intense craving. I dunno what it is about that damn song. I used to listen to music while getting plastered and most of the songs I listened to drunk don't bother me at all when I listen to them sober, but THAT one song just puts me in the mood to drink. Strange how that happens. Here's the song if anyone is curious lol. Warning the song is EXTREMELY sexually explicit . I was listening to his other songs while cleaning, and I didn't realize Often was next on the playlist. Thats why I brought it up. When It came on I was just like FUUUUDGE this was my jam when I was getting bombed! lmao. I want a vodka apple. (I don't really thats just the initial thought that came in my head when the song started)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPIhUaONiLU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPIhUaONiLU
Afternoon Everyone!
100 Days. I never thought I'd ever get this far but here I am!
Tati- After about 80 days I noticed my music taste suddenly changed overnight and gone were the dour singer songwriter ballads I always used to get drunk to.
Now I steer clear of any miserable music because that is something I associate with drinking. Now I like chillout house!
Congrats Midwest on 57! I think once you get to around 80 days the worst is over and things start to return to normal. Though I've never experienced normal and I don't know what it is!
Have a great day everyone!
100 Days. I never thought I'd ever get this far but here I am!
Tati- After about 80 days I noticed my music taste suddenly changed overnight and gone were the dour singer songwriter ballads I always used to get drunk to.
Now I steer clear of any miserable music because that is something I associate with drinking. Now I like chillout house!
Congrats Midwest on 57! I think once you get to around 80 days the worst is over and things start to return to normal. Though I've never experienced normal and I don't know what it is!
Have a great day everyone!
Kopfan- congratulations on 100 days! Our class is moving right along!
Tati- the almond cinnamon cookies sound wonderful!! Sorry to hear about the first batch. That happens. One day I was doubling a recipe and almost forgot to double the eggs. I caught it just in time. Last week I made strawberry oatmeal bars. They were really good. I also took a ride out into amish country and went to a amish grocery store. They sold baked goods and baking supplies really cheap! You may want to google amish grocery stores in your area. They sale the almond flour, coconut flour, lots of spices and ton more!! I am going to go back soon.
Tati- the almond cinnamon cookies sound wonderful!! Sorry to hear about the first batch. That happens. One day I was doubling a recipe and almost forgot to double the eggs. I caught it just in time. Last week I made strawberry oatmeal bars. They were really good. I also took a ride out into amish country and went to a amish grocery store. They sold baked goods and baking supplies really cheap! You may want to google amish grocery stores in your area. They sale the almond flour, coconut flour, lots of spices and ton more!! I am going to go back soon.
Hey all,congratulations Kopfan!!100 big days woo-hoo,Tati,"I can't feel my face" is triggery for me cuz I listened to it all last summer when I was starting/stopping/starting, still a great song though, I wish I could tolerate antihistamine pills, I'm dying here again! My nose feels sewn shut,my eyes are watery,grrrr,doc always gives the same protocol, claritin((feel poisoned) antibiotics((hurt my tummy) flonase(anxiety) mucinex(feel jittery) so I suffer, for some reason it's just particularly bad these past 2 days,ph well it'll pass,hope we all have an easy day
Hi all, Just wanted to drop a hello and congratz to everyone. I am tried today had a bad night. We had a storm and it killed my air conditioner at 2 am. It was hot and messed up my sleep. I was able to reset the breakers and the compressor kick back on and started cooling the place by almost 3 am. Was able to fall asleep again only to wake up at 5 to go to work.
I feel like a walking zombie. lol
I feel like a walking zombie. lol
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