Class of April 2016 Support Thread Part 3
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welcome 1stepup. I am glad you didn't wait for the May class.
Thanks stargazer for the reminder!
congrats Josec on 21 days!
I ran to the grocery store and got some izzy water and some groceries. I am going to go to the gym soon and do a class.
Thanks stargazer for the reminder!
congrats Josec on 21 days!
I ran to the grocery store and got some izzy water and some groceries. I am going to go to the gym soon and do a class.
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Midwest is right on , 1 step. Start with ASAP !
I can also feel the comment about cycling, and vicious destructive cycles.
I would drink, fuel depression, get offtrack mentally emotionally, then after maybe a week, drink again.
I fooled, lied, cheated, whatever I could to keep fueling my " take a break" or " it's just on the weekends"......plus Monday, ........ Plus Thursday 'now and then'.
Stopping for a period of time has been a feeling of suffering, mental anguish, FEAR, overloading.
Every bit.... Every bit of that has been BS. That was AV( addictive voice), self trickery, addictive frame of mind. ( my personal, is ' lying-a// drunk !) lol
We are all good personal critics, so beating up ourselves is a practiced thing , or it was for me to keep drinking.
It was literally a higher power or force will, beyond my own that pushed me to 5 days, 10, days, ..... Up to 120, once, then yrs later 60 days. I can't tell you why in particular I drank last weekend, but the fact is- your addiction will lie on day 1, and lie on day 100.
You are free on day 1.
Day 1.
Dee said it best, and it was a hard pill for me. Bitter.
" if you don't want to relapse... You won't"
That's it for me- period.
Live sober or die drunk.
Let's live !!
I can also feel the comment about cycling, and vicious destructive cycles.
I would drink, fuel depression, get offtrack mentally emotionally, then after maybe a week, drink again.
I fooled, lied, cheated, whatever I could to keep fueling my " take a break" or " it's just on the weekends"......plus Monday, ........ Plus Thursday 'now and then'.
Stopping for a period of time has been a feeling of suffering, mental anguish, FEAR, overloading.
Every bit.... Every bit of that has been BS. That was AV( addictive voice), self trickery, addictive frame of mind. ( my personal, is ' lying-a// drunk !) lol
We are all good personal critics, so beating up ourselves is a practiced thing , or it was for me to keep drinking.
It was literally a higher power or force will, beyond my own that pushed me to 5 days, 10, days, ..... Up to 120, once, then yrs later 60 days. I can't tell you why in particular I drank last weekend, but the fact is- your addiction will lie on day 1, and lie on day 100.
You are free on day 1.
Day 1.
Dee said it best, and it was a hard pill for me. Bitter.
" if you don't want to relapse... You won't"
That's it for me- period.
Live sober or die drunk.
Let's live !!
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