Class of February 2016 Part 16
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My AV came at me so hard yesterday. Towards the end of a long work week I was feeling good because I survived another crazy week at work, money in my pocket etc. That was always the time that I would drink the most. Part "reward", part coming down from the adrenaline of working hard. My head was full of drinking thoughts. Now that I'm feeling good physically and have helped my financial situation the AV gets loud. I just came home and got into bed... sleep is my new escape when THE AV flares up. So then (kind of funny) I had a very vivid drinking dream and I woke up in a stupor! Did I drink??? What the hell?! After a few minutes I figured it out... and counted my blessings... what a relief. At the same time I see how it went down last night. My AV chased me into my dreams, like some Freddy Krueger stuff... scary indeed. I'm staying highly vigilant today. Focused on this 24 hour block. It will be 2 months tuesday, I just can't go back in the hole!!!
Well done for coming back Del and CNGY, it's not easy. Keep trying new recovery methods.
I hope you feel better Lee and Violet, sounds like you've both got good outlooks on your situations. You guys are doing great.
I hope you feel better Lee and Violet, sounds like you've both got good outlooks on your situations. You guys are doing great.
Optimist there's a couple evil viruses going around. Take some echinasia? I have a friend who always recommends it to ward off a cold. Sansa are you sure you want to quit coffee too? Maybe cut yourself a break and 1. Have some coffee 2. Stop worring about your weight and focus on getting some more exercise for health instead? I need to start getting going myself once my heel heals - lol Want to start a commitment to walk a certain distance each day and then we will up it? I may be good to go in a few more days.
Sounds like a good plan PHRD. To be honest, giving up the coffee has been one of the best things I've ever done. I was getting crazy anxious about 2-3pm every afternoon. When I skip the coffee in the morning, I don't get it...and getting anxious at 3pm is what leads to wanting wine at 4pm, I've found. Sorry I'm whinging so much about my weight. I guess I just always thought that the reason I've been carrying extra weight (I'm 30 pounds overweight) is because of all the wine.
My AV came at me so hard yesterday. Towards the end of a long work week I was feeling good because I survived another crazy week at work, money in my pocket etc. That was always the time that I would drink the most. Part "reward", part coming down from the adrenaline of working hard. My head was full of drinking thoughts. Now that I'm feeling good physically and have helped my financial situation the AV gets loud. I just came home and got into bed... sleep is my new escape when THE AV flares up. So then (kind of funny) I had a very vivid drinking dream and I woke up in a stupor! Did I drink??? What the hell?! After a few minutes I figured it out... and counted my blessings... what a relief. At the same time I see how it went down last night. My AV chased me into my dreams, like some Freddy Krueger stuff... scary indeed. I'm staying highly vigilant today. Focused on this 24 hour block. It will be 2 months tuesday, I just can't go back in the hole!!!
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I find rewarding myself for not drinking is essential in my recovery. Helps reinforce positive behavior and create a new habit that I would miss if I was drinking. Any ideas of what you will get??
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My AV came at me so hard yesterday. Towards the end of a long work week I was feeling good because I survived another crazy week at work, money in my pocket etc. That was always the time that I would drink the most. Part "reward", part coming down from the adrenaline of working hard. My head was full of drinking thoughts. Now that I'm feeling good physically and have helped my financial situation the AV gets loud. I just came home and got into bed... sleep is my new escape when THE AV flares up. So then (kind of funny) I had a very vivid drinking dream and I woke up in a stupor! Did I drink??? What the hell?! After a few minutes I figured it out... and counted my blessings... what a relief. At the same time I see how it went down last night. My AV chased me into my dreams, like some Freddy Krueger stuff... scary indeed. I'm staying highly vigilant today. Focused on this 24 hour block. It will be 2 months tuesday, I just can't go back in the hole!!!
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Optimist there's a couple evil viruses going around. Take some echinasia? I have a friend who always recommends it to ward off a cold. Sansa are you sure you want to quit coffee too? Maybe cut yourself a break and 1. Have some coffee 2. Stop worring about your weight and focus on getting some more exercise for health instead? I need to start getting going myself once my heel heals - lol Want to start a commitment to walk a certain distance each day and then we will up it? I may be good to go in a few more days.
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Sounds like a good plan PHRD. To be honest, giving up the coffee has been one of the best things I've ever done. I was getting crazy anxious about 2-3pm every afternoon. When I skip the coffee in the morning, I don't get it...and getting anxious at 3pm is what leads to wanting wine at 4pm, I've found. Sorry I'm whinging so much about my weight. I guess I just always thought that the reason I've been carrying extra weight (I'm 30 pounds overweight) is because of all the wine.
You got that right! It has been going through my workplace like the literal plague it is! I was sick for a month! Bad stuff!
I find rewarding myself for not drinking is essential in my recovery. Helps reinforce positive behavior and create a new habit that I would miss if I was drinking. Any ideas of what you will get??
I find rewarding myself for not drinking is essential in my recovery. Helps reinforce positive behavior and create a new habit that I would miss if I was drinking. Any ideas of what you will get??
I'm going to be restocking my nail varnish along with some new colours and buying some nice bath stuff. Trust me, it's very exciting for me.
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Yup still living in this crappy city with my bro and his gf. We pretty much just go our separate ways though and it's not too bad. Interesting that my AV isn't strong at home where there is lots of easily accessible booze. It has come more when I'm out of the house!
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Pamper pamper!! I like it! I buy collectibles on ebay, nothing huge just small things that I can associate with my sobriety! I can look at them and know I wouldn't have them if I was drinking!
Hi everyone, I caught up on all the posts this morning but am on my phone so i can't respond as I would have liked.
Glad to see everyone here and posting. How are you today Del?
Cute, it's so great you are right back in the fight!
Glad you are feeling better already PHRD...sounds like you still need to take it easy.
SansaS, I'm frustrated about weight too...how u gained a couple pounds desire 315 minutes of cardio last week (Tae Bo, Couch 2 5K and Treadclimber) I have no clue?
The additional 150-300 calories in sweets on a few days shouldn't be anything compared to the drinking calories!
Oh well, I am going to just try to keep at it and meet my minimum goal of 180 minutes...
Went to a "grown up" movie last night (which is very uncommon...) and saw Deadpool...funny...I loved the Liam Neeson jokes!
Glad to see everyone here and posting. How are you today Del?
Cute, it's so great you are right back in the fight!
Glad you are feeling better already PHRD...sounds like you still need to take it easy.
SansaS, I'm frustrated about weight too...how u gained a couple pounds desire 315 minutes of cardio last week (Tae Bo, Couch 2 5K and Treadclimber) I have no clue?
The additional 150-300 calories in sweets on a few days shouldn't be anything compared to the drinking calories!
Oh well, I am going to just try to keep at it and meet my minimum goal of 180 minutes...
Went to a "grown up" movie last night (which is very uncommon...) and saw Deadpool...funny...I loved the Liam Neeson jokes!
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SansaS, a psychic vampire is prolly a negative person..someone who always wants something, always has drama, always using other people.... that's how I see it.
CnGY, I'm glad you're here and posting. As long as you're here, that's the critical thing.
Coffee, I'm drinking more of it than I ever have before, and I'm somewhat addicted, but I'll deal with it as I get my sobriety well under control.
I think people are experiencing what I am...that sense of complacency, which I definitely have, too.
CnGY, I'm glad you're here and posting. As long as you're here, that's the critical thing.
Coffee, I'm drinking more of it than I ever have before, and I'm somewhat addicted, but I'll deal with it as I get my sobriety well under control.
I think people are experiencing what I am...that sense of complacency, which I definitely have, too.
Hope all is well Badger!
True story OOTT, sobriety comes first - especially in these early days.
Thank you jobei, hang in there.
I saw Deadpool with my sister Amazingjoy, it was brilliant! I hear they're going to be making a 2nd one.
True story OOTT, sobriety comes first - especially in these early days.
Thank you jobei, hang in there.
I saw Deadpool with my sister Amazingjoy, it was brilliant! I hear they're going to be making a 2nd one.
Sansa the thing with weight too is that it actually adds on over time and then takes a long time to drop as well. One or two pounds a week is healthy and you should have that easily with the booze calories. Amazing you are adding muscle weight. Better to measure yourself than weigh yourself if you are working out. K Im taking a nap. Actually got out of the house today and picked up a few new birdfeeders and food. Cleaned a tiny bit. That was enough for one day for me with the evil virus hanging on!
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