Class of February 2016 Support Thread Part 7
Thoughts and prayers 360. But remember, you are only in charge of you and your feelings and reactions.
Heading into Friday evening here! Sparkling water and burgers....and guess what else finally came?! My Girl Scout cookies!!! Ice cream or cookies tonight..?! Why should I have to choose lol! Vanilla and thin mints perhaps? Samoas?
Heading into Friday evening here! Sparkling water and burgers....and guess what else finally came?! My Girl Scout cookies!!! Ice cream or cookies tonight..?! Why should I have to choose lol! Vanilla and thin mints perhaps? Samoas?
My brother has been battling his heroin addiction and ending up losing all his money and in jail a couple times... he lives a few hours away from me so there's not much that I can do, even if I was there I can't make him stop. I also pray he gets some help. I've suggested this site to him hopefully he will give it a try at some point.
Right now I need to battle my own addiction to alcohol. I'm on day 10 now and physically I'm feeling much better which has also been a trigger for me in the past. I'm not going to drink today though. I am home, safe in my room and I'm not going anywhere until I have to work tomorrow. I feel like I don't have many chances left to get this right, my next drink could be my last... sure felt that way after my last binge 10 days ago. I am going to ponder that tonight and be grateful for having some small bit of clarity about it today. I don't want to go back to that even if other things in my life are difficult and not exactly what I want them to be... I KNOW that I don't want to be like that again. I hope that you can get some rest and take it easy today.... it's so hard worrying about family members but don't forget to take care of yourself...
Right now I need to battle my own addiction to alcohol. I'm on day 10 now and physically I'm feeling much better which has also been a trigger for me in the past. I'm not going to drink today though. I am home, safe in my room and I'm not going anywhere until I have to work tomorrow. I feel like I don't have many chances left to get this right, my next drink could be my last... sure felt that way after my last binge 10 days ago. I am going to ponder that tonight and be grateful for having some small bit of clarity about it today. I don't want to go back to that even if other things in my life are difficult and not exactly what I want them to be... I KNOW that I don't want to be like that again. I hope that you can get some rest and take it easy today.... it's so hard worrying about family members but don't forget to take care of yourself...
I feel the same as you. I can't let something else jeopardize me. I don't want to go back down that road.
I'm sorry 360. You have the whole group behind you though
I have every confidence you will be ok this weekend Time2Rise
Welcome back beerbgone.
I just want to say I hope you might give some thought to posting in the March thread as well?
I know you're comfortable here - but sometimes comfort is not the best thing?
You might get a lot out of a new thread?
D
I have every confidence you will be ok this weekend Time2Rise
I just want to say I hope you might give some thought to posting in the March thread as well?
I know you're comfortable here - but sometimes comfort is not the best thing?
You might get a lot out of a new thread?
D
I grow a lot of Aussie and S. African plants. The hummingbirds love them, and they don't need much water. Banksias are my latest thing, and I've been growing Grevilleas for quite a while. There is a new manager at a local public garden, from Australia, and he is now propagating and selling Oz native plants like mad. For me, he's like a drug pusher! LOL
edit: I also feed the birds! I also get raccoons, skunks, foxes, opossums, coyotes, deer [dam deer!! But they don't like to eat most Aussie plants ] …
Those are my favorite! -former Girl Scout, who actually went door to door rather than set up shop in front of a shop.
I'm sorry 360. You have the whole group behind you though
Welcome back beerbgone.
I just want to say I hope you might give some thought to posting in the March thread as well?
I know you're comfortable here - but sometimes comfort is not the best thing?
You might get a lot out of a new thread?
D
Welcome back beerbgone.
I just want to say I hope you might give some thought to posting in the March thread as well?
I know you're comfortable here - but sometimes comfort is not the best thing?
You might get a lot out of a new thread?
D
--" I have weighed myself and I've really only lost about 1 pound lol. I'm trying not to be too disappointed but I thought I might have
Lost a little bit more. I have been eating like an absolute pig though, I guess to reward myself for not drinking. I think I look better in the face but no one around me has noticed. Anyone else ?"
I look WORSE. I wouldn't post about it if it weren't bothering me so much. I've gained 13 pounds in 5 1/2 weeks (since getting sober--now I'm only on Day 10 due to a relapse). My face is fatter!! No one has noticed because I don't see anyone except recovery people, who didn't know me 13 pounds ago.
I eat gummies (no fat), but I seriously eat healthy otherwise. I drank so much alcohol every night, enough to usually black out. Then I would eat crap food in the early morning hours. I did eat less at meals or no meals, but all those other calories!?! It has to be less than what I'm getting now.
This has caused me to drink in past sober attempts--but it was only 5 pounds then, and it came off around 6 weeks. Plus my face looked great and got thinner right away. I've gained so much more this time and don't know what the hell is going on. I'm on a new anti-depressant. Maybe that's it. But I can't go off it. And at the end of this month, I'll be seeing a whole lot of people I haven't seen in 10+ years. Rrrrrrrgggggghh. None of my jeans fit.
Sorry to complain. It is so frustrating; it makes me want to give up. But not for today. Maybe I'll go to bed early tonight.
Lost a little bit more. I have been eating like an absolute pig though, I guess to reward myself for not drinking. I think I look better in the face but no one around me has noticed. Anyone else ?"
I look WORSE. I wouldn't post about it if it weren't bothering me so much. I've gained 13 pounds in 5 1/2 weeks (since getting sober--now I'm only on Day 10 due to a relapse). My face is fatter!! No one has noticed because I don't see anyone except recovery people, who didn't know me 13 pounds ago.
I eat gummies (no fat), but I seriously eat healthy otherwise. I drank so much alcohol every night, enough to usually black out. Then I would eat crap food in the early morning hours. I did eat less at meals or no meals, but all those other calories!?! It has to be less than what I'm getting now.
This has caused me to drink in past sober attempts--but it was only 5 pounds then, and it came off around 6 weeks. Plus my face looked great and got thinner right away. I've gained so much more this time and don't know what the hell is going on. I'm on a new anti-depressant. Maybe that's it. But I can't go off it. And at the end of this month, I'll be seeing a whole lot of people I haven't seen in 10+ years. Rrrrrrrgggggghh. None of my jeans fit.
Sorry to complain. It is so frustrating; it makes me want to give up. But not for today. Maybe I'll go to bed early tonight.
--" I have weighed myself and I've really only lost about 1 pound lol. I'm trying not to be too disappointed but I thought I might have
Lost a little bit more. I have been eating like an absolute pig though, I guess to reward myself for not drinking. I think I look better in the face but no one around me has noticed. Anyone else ?"
I look WORSE. I wouldn't post about it if it weren't bothering me so much. I've gained 13 pounds in 5 1/2 weeks (since getting sober--now I'm only on Day 10 due to a relapse). My face is fatter!! No one has noticed because I don't see anyone except recovery people, who didn't know me 13 pounds ago.
I eat gummies (no fat), but I seriously eat healthy otherwise. I drank so much alcohol every night, enough to usually black out. Then I would eat crap food in the early morning hours. I did eat less at meals or no meals, but all those other calories!?! It has to be less than what I'm getting now.
This has caused me to drink in past sober attempts--but it was only 5 pounds then, and it came off around 6 weeks. Plus my face looked great and got thinner right away. I've gained so much more this time and don't know what the hell is going on. I'm on a new anti-depressant. Maybe that's it. But I can't go off it. And at the end of this month, I'll be seeing a whole lot of people I haven't seen in 10+ years. Rrrrrrrgggggghh. None of my jeans fit.
Sorry to complain. It is so frustrating; it makes me want to give up. But not for today. Maybe I'll go to bed early tonight.
Lost a little bit more. I have been eating like an absolute pig though, I guess to reward myself for not drinking. I think I look better in the face but no one around me has noticed. Anyone else ?"
I look WORSE. I wouldn't post about it if it weren't bothering me so much. I've gained 13 pounds in 5 1/2 weeks (since getting sober--now I'm only on Day 10 due to a relapse). My face is fatter!! No one has noticed because I don't see anyone except recovery people, who didn't know me 13 pounds ago.
I eat gummies (no fat), but I seriously eat healthy otherwise. I drank so much alcohol every night, enough to usually black out. Then I would eat crap food in the early morning hours. I did eat less at meals or no meals, but all those other calories!?! It has to be less than what I'm getting now.
This has caused me to drink in past sober attempts--but it was only 5 pounds then, and it came off around 6 weeks. Plus my face looked great and got thinner right away. I've gained so much more this time and don't know what the hell is going on. I'm on a new anti-depressant. Maybe that's it. But I can't go off it. And at the end of this month, I'll be seeing a whole lot of people I haven't seen in 10+ years. Rrrrrrrgggggghh. None of my jeans fit.
Sorry to complain. It is so frustrating; it makes me want to give up. But not for today. Maybe I'll go to bed early tonight.
Try not to be too hard on yourself. Sobriety itself is a pretty big muscle to work to keep in shape.
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I'm on a new anti-depressant. Maybe that's it. But I can't go off it. And at the end of this month, I'll be seeing a whole lot of people I haven't seen in 10+ years. Rrrrrrrgggggghh. None of my jeans fit.
Sorry to complain. It is so frustrating; it makes me want to give up. But not for today. Maybe I'll go to bed early tonight.
I'm on a new anti-depressant. Maybe that's it. But I can't go off it. And at the end of this month, I'll be seeing a whole lot of people I haven't seen in 10+ years. Rrrrrrrgggggghh. None of my jeans fit.
Sorry to complain. It is so frustrating; it makes me want to give up. But not for today. Maybe I'll go to bed early tonight.
I'm sure you'll lose it!
edit: yep, I ate like a pig over the holidays in Florida [no family there! LOL], and gained weight. It's the LEAST of my worries right now. I want to get over cravings!!
I hear you, SafeandSound. I often called dinner a 12 pack of beer. I'm eating healthy now but I am putting on weight. I think part of my problem is not a lot of exercise. I do yoga in the mornings and walk the dog but that's about it. I'm going to take Delizadee's advice and get back into weight training.
OOTT - Weekends are difficult for me too. I try to keep busy with non-work related stuff. It's hard to not work all weekend when there is so much to do, but I think keeping a balanced life is important. I been checking in here often over the weekends.
OOTT - Weekends are difficult for me too. I try to keep busy with non-work related stuff. It's hard to not work all weekend when there is so much to do, but I think keeping a balanced life is important. I been checking in here often over the weekends.
Alright I'm in. I want this to be for long run, not just the times when I feel like it. And for my life to get better and stay that way. I actually stopped drinking on Feb 21st, with one slip on Tuesday but I dusted myself off and didn't let it turn into a bender like I have in the past. Thanks Marcher for your inspiring post about joining a class....hello everybody
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