safeandsound

Auggie, the EXACT SAME THING happened to me! He even snuck into my parents' basement to read older journals once he was done with the recent ones! Very sick relationship. I didn't write in a journal for 18 years after that.

Like you I now have someone I trust. Just wanted to share that I write every day in a journal now, and that has helped my recovery probably more than anything else. Go ahead! It's such a relief.

Outonthetiles

GG, tell your DH the rule is: blame the sound guy for everything. He's the guy in front of the control panel in the middle of the floor so drunken audience members can shout their opinions at him or her!

Outonthetiles

Jealousy is a relationship killer. I've suffered from it, but never did anything wildly crazy. At least in my opinion. Even in my relationship now, early on there was the worst type of jealousy you can ever imagine. So bad that I went to counselling. I was drinking at the same time, so it was not all the productive. Ironically, my shrink--who had plenty of his own problems---was a huge drinker in college and I noticed loads of alcohol type books in his office, but at the time I didn't recognize my problem and I could never have revealed to him the stuff that I've revealed now. I was in denial and I was lying to myself. I could write a book.

Dee74

I think apathy is really often a lack of self care - we really have to push against that.

If push comes to shove, act like you matter even if you might not quite believe that today?

should be your local time (i.e. the time you posted that post). For you I assume thats Greenwich Mean Time?

If not there's instructions on how to set the right time for your timezone here



if you take say 5 minutes to write a post you won't see the other new posts for the last 5 minutes unless you refresh the page

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Emandm

Day 29 - what!

Outonthetiles

Closing in on 30. Nice.

GardenGal

Thanks, y'all. I'm going to take a break for a bit. I swore I'd never become addicted to online sites, and yet here I am. I need to be a better source of inspiration for my son.

Outonthetiles

Look what I came up with for Cococo: Co³

Co³ will be sorry she missed out on the Feb's Sunday discussion!

Dee74

There is booze everywhere but for me, I pretty much managed to avoid going to places where I knew alcohol would be for a few months.

I needed to do that. I needed to put clear distance between the old me I had been and the new me I wanted to become.

I had no sense of confidence I'd be ok around booze in the beginning. Over time I gained those sober muscles and it was fine but I still think that initial period was a great investment in my future.

I didn't just sit at home, I did other things - coffee dates, movies, walks in the park, hobbies, interests. It was a nice time

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Dee74

Thanks to everyone for the kind words.

I'm going to be away for a day or so now. If anyone wants to ask me anything just PM me.

I wish all of you a happy and sober couple of days.

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Auggie

I get a little chuckle every time GG writes y'all.

Leezer

Thanks to everyone for the warm welcome. And thanks to the familiar names.

I really do think this time is it for me. When I am honest, over the years on SR, I never REALLY believed that I would not be able to drink in moderation one day. Now, 4 years after I started the real fight (I almost had one year at a point), I have learned that this has got to be my life.

I've been beating myself up a little today about regrets regrets and why I hit myself against a wall so many times. I could write a book on how to quit drinking, but I never wanted to apply it to myself. This time I know. It finally sank in.

What I CAN'T do anything about is the alcohol I drank from Leap Year day backward. What I CAN do something about is the rest of my life.
Thanks everyone. Great to be back. Look forward to meeting some of you and reconnecting with some old comrades.
Best,
Lee

jobei

Glad you're here Lee, we all need all the help we can get. I'm on 13 days now, nearly cracked today/last night but the tsunami passed for now and I'm still here. I'm pretty terrified at the thought of drinking again, of where it would lead...

Clownbaby

Hey. Just me...sorry it's been so long. I messed up after my "Quit-date" & felt ashamed of my relapse...BUT: the ever-so-illusive 29th of February became my 1st day sober...so I'm practically 1 week in. The hard part (for me) is over. I was even strong enough to pass up cocktails my friend brought to my house last night. I feel good... But I'm eating a lot:/ i feel bad that I can't keep up with everyone 's stories since I'm so busy ! I'm reading some but can't always reciprocate a thought or response. Just thought I would check in since I kinda fell of the face of the earth....I'm hear to listen and cheer you on!

Outonthetiles

I hit refresh and Clownbaby's avatar scared the **** out of me.

jobei

Thanks for joining Clownbaby I like your handle!

Outonthetiles

Hi Clownbaby, glad you're here.

CuteNGayYay

Lmao OOTT. I literally LOL

CuteNGayYay

Mm Auggie Chile Rellenos r a fave of mine
Welcome back Clownbaby
Knb I've missed posts because as I am writing up mine so are other people.. And theirs are done before mine... And then I usuaLly proceed reading posts under mine not realizing some new ones are on top of mine did I ramble much? Haha hope that made sense.

JL2014

I never got a DUI, but god knows I should have yrs back. Stopped driving UI when my first child came along.
I ran like hell a few times and escaped. What an idiot I was.