Class of February 2016 Support Thread Part 5
I just made the shocking discovery that I've not been doing good work. I thought I had a couple of hours of work to do, including auditing the last several months. It turns out that I've made a lot of mistakes. Costly mistakes. Fortunately, my employer only looks at the results and the results look impressive. (I just got a substantial raise this month) But I discovered so much sloppy work and missed opportunities that I just want to cry. I want to remember this day forever. I can have the financial life of my dreams if I remain sober.
I did a bit of step 1 work earlier because I felt like I needed a bit of reflection on what my drinking life was like. It took me back to how truly hopeless I felt towards the end, something I had blocked out. I honestly felt like life wasn't worth living, I was making myself ill and I couldn't stop! It makes me realise that I need to stop worrying so much about all these life decisions and whether I'm capable of doing things. I've already achieved the impossible, I'm still here today, so now the world is my oyster!!
I also looked at the adverse effects of my drinking. I'd drink to stop the withdrawal symptoms... caused by my drinking. I'd drink to cope with problems... caused by my drinking and made worse by my drinking. I'd drink to become more confident at work or an event, etc. and then pass out and end up not turning up at all because of my drinking. As soon as we break the cycle life starts looking up. Just thought I'd share, I found it quite interesting.
CuteNGay - Congrats on Day 8, and well done for realising you're not ready for that and not doing it. Your sobriety comes first. Also, I love J-Law as well.
Auggie - Is that a result of your drinking? I was doing terrible work but I thought I was doing fine because alcohol made me over confident. Sober me cringes.
I also looked at the adverse effects of my drinking. I'd drink to stop the withdrawal symptoms... caused by my drinking. I'd drink to cope with problems... caused by my drinking and made worse by my drinking. I'd drink to become more confident at work or an event, etc. and then pass out and end up not turning up at all because of my drinking. As soon as we break the cycle life starts looking up. Just thought I'd share, I found it quite interesting.
CuteNGay - Congrats on Day 8, and well done for realising you're not ready for that and not doing it. Your sobriety comes first. Also, I love J-Law as well.
Auggie - Is that a result of your drinking? I was doing terrible work but I thought I was doing fine because alcohol made me over confident. Sober me cringes.
Jobei is right augur. I've lost a few jobs because of alcohol. This time I'm focusing on myself a little before delving into the job world again... But it sounds like the only way u can go is up! Keep sober and achieve that life you deserve.
3.5 years sober that's a lot to bank. I had a year from 2012-2013, probably the happiest year of my adult life. I descended though and I'm quite aware of why. Since then I've had a few 2 month stretches but lost accountability each time. My last binge could have been a lot messier too, in a way I was very lucky... I'm going to take that as a sign that it needs to end, here and now. I need to move on and find love for myself and not abuse. Keep your head up my friend.
LAST DAY OF FEBRUARY!!!
As at 10.15am Monday 29/2/16 my time……
Day 40
DramaStudent (16/2/16 – day 27)
Day 35
Knb02 (27/2/16 – day 33)
Day 34
Tiredofme (5/2/16 – day 10)
Day 29
Soberjim (26/2/16 – day 26)
Mia83 (27/2/16 – day 27)
Day 28
RustyBanjo (16/2/16 – day 15)
ChrisBen (25/2/16 – day 24)
Jeni26 (26/2/16 – day 25)
Mns1 (26/2/16 – day 25)
Day 26
Outonthetiles (28/2/16 – day 25)
Jeni26 (28/2/16 – day 25)
Day 25
Badger07
Day 24
5upersonic (27/2/16 – day 22)
Njdellis (28/2/16 – day 23)
Day 23
Siesta (16/2/16 – day 10)
CloudStrife (20/2/16 – day 14)
OldSkoolFool (27/2/16 – day 21)
Day 22
SansaS (25/2/16 – day 18)
Emandm
Day 21
Time2Rise (27/2/16 – day 19)
360startstoday (27/2/16 – day 19)
Day 18
Kittycat3
Donuth (23/2/16 – day 12)
Day 17
Camryn474 (21/2/16 – day 9)
JimmyJam – (26/2/16 – day 14)
Day 16
StartingOverNW (18/2/16 – day 5)
Day 15
Sadsadgirl (17/2/16 – day 3)
Ladybug2 (26/2/16 – day 12)
Day 14
Amazingjoy (21/2/16 – day 6)
Freedom1982 (28/2/16 – day 13)
Oroszlan (24/2/16 – day 9)
Chinaski (19/2/16 – day 4)
Delizadee
Spadge (27/2/16 – day 12)
Day 13
OldTomato
Ento (17/2/16 – day 1)
Amyrose
Day 12
Auggie (28/2/16 – day 11)
Day 10
Cococo
ZenLifter (26/2/16 – day 7)
Day 9
83mamaOf2 (21/2/16 – day 1)
Optimist4ever57 (24/2/16 – day 4)
Sadie1
Day 8
CuteNGayYay
Forabetterlife (25/2/16 – day 4)
Day 7
Bluedog07 (27/2/16 – day 5)
JL2014
Applekat (27/2/16 – day 5)
KarenOskie
Noneever (27/2/16 – 5)
Day 6
Jobei
GoingNowhere (28/2/16 – day 5)
Day 5
Safeandsound (28/2/16 – day 4)
Maximus97 (25/2/16 – day 1)
Clownbaby (25/2/16 – day 1)
Day 4
GardenGal
SweatyHands
Day 3
FlacoJ (28/2/16 – day 2)
Day 1
FacingFuture
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Mish ?
Mel12 ?
Carlygirl ?
Highdraw18 ?
As at 10.15am Monday 29/2/16 my time……
Day 40
DramaStudent (16/2/16 – day 27)
Day 35
Knb02 (27/2/16 – day 33)
Day 34
Tiredofme (5/2/16 – day 10)
Day 29
Soberjim (26/2/16 – day 26)
Mia83 (27/2/16 – day 27)
Day 28
RustyBanjo (16/2/16 – day 15)
ChrisBen (25/2/16 – day 24)
Jeni26 (26/2/16 – day 25)
Mns1 (26/2/16 – day 25)
Day 26
Outonthetiles (28/2/16 – day 25)
Jeni26 (28/2/16 – day 25)
Day 25
Badger07
Day 24
5upersonic (27/2/16 – day 22)
Njdellis (28/2/16 – day 23)
Day 23
Siesta (16/2/16 – day 10)
CloudStrife (20/2/16 – day 14)
OldSkoolFool (27/2/16 – day 21)
Day 22
SansaS (25/2/16 – day 18)
Emandm
Day 21
Time2Rise (27/2/16 – day 19)
360startstoday (27/2/16 – day 19)
Day 18
Kittycat3
Donuth (23/2/16 – day 12)
Day 17
Camryn474 (21/2/16 – day 9)
JimmyJam – (26/2/16 – day 14)
Day 16
StartingOverNW (18/2/16 – day 5)
Day 15
Sadsadgirl (17/2/16 – day 3)
Ladybug2 (26/2/16 – day 12)
Day 14
Amazingjoy (21/2/16 – day 6)
Freedom1982 (28/2/16 – day 13)
Oroszlan (24/2/16 – day 9)
Chinaski (19/2/16 – day 4)
Delizadee
Spadge (27/2/16 – day 12)
Day 13
OldTomato
Ento (17/2/16 – day 1)
Amyrose
Day 12
Auggie (28/2/16 – day 11)
Day 10
Cococo
ZenLifter (26/2/16 – day 7)
Day 9
83mamaOf2 (21/2/16 – day 1)
Optimist4ever57 (24/2/16 – day 4)
Sadie1
Day 8
CuteNGayYay
Forabetterlife (25/2/16 – day 4)
Day 7
Bluedog07 (27/2/16 – day 5)
JL2014
Applekat (27/2/16 – day 5)
KarenOskie
Noneever (27/2/16 – 5)
Day 6
Jobei
GoingNowhere (28/2/16 – day 5)
Day 5
Safeandsound (28/2/16 – day 4)
Maximus97 (25/2/16 – day 1)
Clownbaby (25/2/16 – day 1)
Day 4
GardenGal
SweatyHands
Day 3
FlacoJ (28/2/16 – day 2)
Day 1
FacingFuture
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Mish ?
Mel12 ?
Carlygirl ?
Highdraw18 ?
Hi Cococo,
Love your posts! Counting days freaked me out. (Almost everything stresses me out, actually.) So I keep it real simple.
I keep in mind four things: (1) I did not drink yesterday. (2) I do not want to drink today so I won't. (3) I have a plan for not drinking tomorrow that worked yesterday. (4) If all goes well, tomorrow I will have the same four things to say.
I believe these four things keep life good. And life is good these days! Thanks for being here Cococo.
Mel
Love your posts! Counting days freaked me out. (Almost everything stresses me out, actually.) So I keep it real simple.
I keep in mind four things: (1) I did not drink yesterday. (2) I do not want to drink today so I won't. (3) I have a plan for not drinking tomorrow that worked yesterday. (4) If all goes well, tomorrow I will have the same four things to say.
I believe these four things keep life good. And life is good these days! Thanks for being here Cococo.
Mel
Member
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: New England
Posts: 1,067
I'm grateful beyond words for that time sober, I KNOW that I can do it... I've proven that to myself. I need to be as vigilant as I was that time and use the same tools or else it will just be another "window" of not drinking... not sobriety... a big part was being on here and I haven't been back here since. I hope youre feeling ok today my friend!
CONGRATULATIONS TO:-
Soberjim – 4 WEEKS SOBER (on day 29 today)
Mia83 – 4 WEEKS SOBER (on day 29 today)
SansaS – 3 WEEKS SOBER (on day 22 today)
Emandm – 3 WEEKS SOBER (on day 22 today)
Sadsadgirl – 2 WEEKS SOBER (last posted on 17/2/16 – day 3)
Ladybug2 – 2 WEEKS SOBER (last posted on 26/2/16 – day 12)
CuteNGayYay – 1 WEEK SOBER (on day 8 today)
Forabetterlife – 1 WEEK SOBER (last posted on 25/2/16 – day 4)
Soberjim – 4 WEEKS SOBER (on day 29 today)
Mia83 – 4 WEEKS SOBER (on day 29 today)
SansaS – 3 WEEKS SOBER (on day 22 today)
Emandm – 3 WEEKS SOBER (on day 22 today)
Sadsadgirl – 2 WEEKS SOBER (last posted on 17/2/16 – day 3)
Ladybug2 – 2 WEEKS SOBER (last posted on 26/2/16 – day 12)
CuteNGayYay – 1 WEEK SOBER (on day 8 today)
Forabetterlife – 1 WEEK SOBER (last posted on 25/2/16 – day 4)
[QUOTE=JimmyJam;5822068]Just checking in with the group. Hope everyone is having a wonderful Sunday, sober, and doing well. Day 16 for me. No AV talk yet but i know it is coming. Go ahead punk. Make my day......[/QUOTE}
Hi JJ
Be prepared for your AV.
What time is it where you are?
Hi JJ
Be prepared for your AV.
What time is it where you are?
I edited my post because I read yours incorrectly. I thought you said "We DONT have one more day of February", that's why I said "Huh"
I need to learn to read lol
I get it, youre on the 28th and Im on the 29th
How far away from midnight are you?
Have a lovely Sunday SH
I need to learn to read lol
I get it, youre on the 28th and Im on the 29th
How far away from midnight are you?
Have a lovely Sunday SH
9 hours.
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