Originally Posted by KarenOskie

Waking up on day three feeling better. I like the vitamin idea, I'm going to get some today.
Sansa, I've worried before about what to tell people about why I don't drink, and found out that most people don't think twice about it. I just ordered tea and didn't say anything and they didn't seem to notice or care. Lots of people don't drink or only drink on occasion.
As for the going to work thing, I would love to not have to go but I do have to. My job is super stressful and takes my whole life, leaves me little or no time for anything else. That may get better as I stay sober and am able to get things done better since I'm not sick. But for now I'm stuck with it and have to make the best of it. I pray and ask for strength, and I'm trying to get it all sorted out so that I can get the job done with less stress and time. But I'm open to changing fields completely if things don't get better. I don't want to give my whole life to this job!
I hope everyone has a wonderful sober day! I'm so glad you are all here. I love reading your posts, it helps so much! Here's to all of us going to bed sober tonight!

Originally Posted by JL2014

Old fart? Really?
I'm 44, and not Iiking the aches and pains starting up at all. Got 3 boys 17, 7 ,and 2. I think I wont have many elderly hobby or age distraught yrs, from being a late bloomer, but you never know. Fighting to keep my 2 jobs and family together is too much sometimes, I feel like.
Had to call in to work today. Pretty certain I've the flu.
I'm really gonna lysol the house today as I'm afraid of my kids getting sick and being out of work like that will cost me my job. They really care nothing about family where I work. All jobs have ups and downs though.
I'm sure I wouldn't get sick as much if I can stay sober.
Doesn't alcohol hurt your immune system?

Originally Posted by OldTomato

Sansa - It depends how comfortable you are with this friend and how much you want them to know. Don't feel pressured to turn up with a detailed list of reasons you decided to quit if you don't want to go there. Just don't order an alcoholic drink, if they question it then just explain that drinking is no good for you so you've decided to quit. Or you can open up to them if you that's what you want. It's completely up to you!

Coco - I'm having to watch my money, but I had to move back in with my parents and drop out of college because of my drinking so I don't have financial worries right now. I'd be getting a job so I can put aside some money for a flatshare and another attempt at education. I'm torn because I'm bored, and boredom is a big trigger for me, but then my daily drinking habits started because I was in a job I hated. I don't want to be rushing into things.

tiredofme - Thanks for sharing that, I had no idea what PAWS so I googled it, something to keep in mind. Hope you feel better soon, keep us updated.

Originally Posted by SansaS

Thanks for the list coco. Helps to keep us accountable. I think I may be in a similar place in the world to you? Going by your Timezone.
I am meeting up with a drinking friend tomorrow for dinner. I haven't seen her for ages and really can't put it off. Just not sure what to tell her. There's actually about 10 reasons why I'm not drinking. Not just one. Not sure which one to say, cos they are actually all true. Does that make sense?
Saw my doctor again today just for a check up on my progress. Felt great to be able to tell him I'm nearly up to 2.5 weeks sober. I'm staying on the meds and checking in with him again in about a month

Originally Posted by knb02

p.s All the stuff I bought off EBay were the wrong size

Originally Posted by soberjim

Omg .. Last night was busy. Trying to read through all the posts. Day 25 for myself. I almost gave in on the way home. Thought it through. Thinking how disappointed I would have been in myself if I gave in. I do not want to go back to day 1. I just want my AV to leave me alone.! Knb02...WOW... 30 days ... CONGRATULATIONS !!! Now to move forward one day at a time until you get to 60 days !!!

Originally Posted by tiredofme

LOL sorry but this did make me giggle a little been there also keeping things in amazon basket was never a good idea then after wine ordering something and wondering why a lot of other stuff turned up too.

I am from UK.

Congratulations on 30 days.

Originally Posted by Cococo

So on old fart like me just has to make every single day count, and be a sober, good, happy and healthy day.

Originally Posted by Ladybug2

Hey who are you calling an old fart Coco?? I am 44 so we are probably around the same age and we are NOT old farts haha. Just middle aged

Originally Posted by Dee74

congrats again knb

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Originally Posted by knb02

30 days today!!!! 30 days today!! 30 days today!!

So guys I have reached a milestone of 30 days with the support of SR, AA, private addiction counselling and my desire to stop drinking. I shall be celebrating with lots of sugar ( AGAIN!!) tonight lol.

I want to remind myself how far I have come and I would like to describe what my last drunken weekend looked like. My mum decided to have my son for that particular weekend and said she would pick him up from school on friday and I was to collect him Sunday early evening. Freedom right? I had the opportunity to do whatever I wanted. I could have gone to the cinema or go shopping and have a nice lunch somewhere..or catch up with friends.
But this is what I did instead.

FRIDAY –
4pm. Finished work. Went to the supermarket and bought four bottles of wine. Decide to cook something fabulous later
5pm.Started drinking as soon as I got home. Checked that all doors were locked and I have set my alarm for tomorrow
6pm. Still drinking. Feeling tipsy. Planning what I was going to do for the weekend..maybe go to the shopping mall on Sunday and buy some new clothes. Grab a bite to eat at a sushi bar. The world is my oyster
7pm. On the phone crying to friends. Sad cause I am lonely, single, not married
8pm. Opened bottle number two. Find anything to eat in the fridge cause I cant be bothered to cook
9pm .Texting exes of mine. Angry that they left me. Getting angry and sad
10pm. Woke up cause I had passed out on the sofa. Drink some more and pass out again.

SATURDAY
8.30am-Hungover and annoyed. Cant look at myself in the mirror.Got to go to work
4pm. Finished work. It was a killer as the day dragged and I had no patience. My hands were shaking, bad breath , paranoid that customers could smell it.
4.15pm. Get home and drink cause I need it. My body is screaming for alcohol.
6pm .Food I bought is forgotten and I order a takeaway instead. Cant be bothered to cook.I buy stuff off ebay. Chat with friends on the phone. Feeling miserable and lonely. Trying to analyse why my life has gone so wrong
9pm.Feel ill and I pass out on the sofa. I somehow broke my wine glass and spilt wine on the carpet

SUNDAY
2am.woke up feeling ****. Drank what was left in the glass. Then decided to drink another two glasses cause I couldn’t sleep. May as well finish the rest of the wine. Makes sense to me
10am- woke up hungover. I drink another glass of wine. I know that I am not going anywhere today. Except to the supermarket to buy more wine. I go to another shop so they don’t talk as I have already bpought four bottles. I get home and I drink another few glasses and then go back to sleep
2pm- woke up feeling so ill. I call my mum and tell her that my car is not starting ( I lied). So could she please drop my son back to me. She says she will and but I need to get my car sorted cause this is the third time my car has broken down in six months ( omg. I lied that many times )
I drink all afternoon. Feeling goddamn awful. Body and head hurts
5pm-my mum arrives with my son. I hide my wine in a coffee cup. She doesn’t notice that I am drunk as my tolerance is very high. I tell her that I am under the weather and cant chat . She leaves early
9pm. My son goes to bed. We have hardly talked because I just wanted to drink and felt too ill to chat. Just did what was necessary.
When he is in bed I start to cry and cant stop. I am drinking and crying. I don’t want to drink but cant stop. Hating my drinking but still cant stop. Immense fear inside me.I cannot live like this. I will die early if I don’t stop. I will never see my son grow up nor see his children. I am so sad. So depressed…hate myself.

MONDAY
I accept that I have an addiction. Enough is enough
Start of my sobriety

I have come a long way! If I can do this then so can each and everyone of you in this class

Originally Posted by knb02

Its only people like us who have this obsession with alcohol Karen. I use to be surprised at the amount of people who don't drink when they go out. I automacticaslly assumed everyone got drunk like me. I must have looked in a right state. Oh the shame of it