Originally Posted by EternalNow

The hope that something new is coming is the fuel of my recovery. The hope that a new spiritual understanding or a new revelation of the universe or a new opportunity to love is coming is the very marrow of the structure of peace, for me. When I was drinking I was trying to obtain this hope through alcohol. I remember saying to myself that life was boring and by drinking I could create a little party deep inside. But what I have learned is that after the alcohol wore off I had to return to that boring place of sameness. Alcohol was a deception, and more than that it damaged me in ways I have yet to discover.
But the truth in recovery, for me, is that my life is rolling out in front of me like a red carpet in Hollywood. My hope is that I can be present to the here and now and recognize the freshness of the future.
The realization that something new and wonderful is here, now, is the point where I turn away from my negative scripts and embrace the fact that I am a part of the Creating force of this awareness. I pray to God for another 24 hours of this spiritual understanding and for the grace to feel the future with anticipation and joy.

Originally Posted by Mark1014

Oh what a nice post. I've read it through more than once to really let it all sink in. So nice to finally be able to relate much of it to my sober life. I hope that any struggling with early sobriety and finding it all void of joy will find hope in these words and have faith to put the effort in 24 hours at a time. Then they too will find 'the grace to feel the future with anticipation and joy'.

Originally Posted by EternalNow

The hope that something new is coming is the fuel of my recovery. The hope that a new spiritual understanding or a new revelation of the universe or a new opportunity to love is coming is the very marrow of the structure of peace, for me. When I was drinking I was trying to obtain this hope through alcohol. I remember saying to myself that life was boring and by drinking I could create a little party deep inside. But what I have learned is that after the alcohol wore off I had to return to that boring place of sameness. Alcohol was a deception, and more than that it damaged me in ways I have yet to discover. But the truth in recovery, for me, is that my life is rolling out in front of me like a red carpet in Hollywood. My hope is that I can be present to the here and now and recognize the freshness of the future. The realization that something new and wonderful is here, now, is the point where I turn away from my negative scripts and embrace the fact that I am a part of the Creating force of this awareness. I pray to God for another 24 hours of this spiritual understanding and for the grace to feel the future with anticipation and joy.

Originally Posted by Tinkerbell73

Checking in for 24.
12.25pm Wed
Day 7
:-)

Originally Posted by melki

ChrisBen, wehav2day, one of you needs to change the avatar.

Originally Posted by ForgiveMeAll

Thank you for sharing this :-) it made me cry because I can relate to this so much.