Chinaski

Welcome, VirginiaWoof. Good on you for going to the counselor yesterday.

And welcome, juancarlos66. I'm new here myself but have already spotted folks from England, Canada, USA, and Australia. Recovery knows no boundaries.

Jeni26

Yes!!!
I'm from England. Good to have another Brit on board.

Supertired

hey Chinaski, you a bukowski fan?? (henry chinaski)

Supertired

my brain is fried from studying. doing 6 courses this term, and i would in no way be able to cope with the work load if i was drinking/hungover. just coming up for air for a few mins, godspeed februarians

Supertired

welcome juancarlos66!

kittycat3

I want to join too. Day 1 today. Feeling defeated but hanging in there....

Chinaski

I was registering on here yesterday and trying to come up with a username that would protect my anonymity but still be easy for me to remember. I was struggling a bit as my first couple of choices were already taken. I was getting frustrated and spotted some Bukowski books on the bookshelf next to my computer and decided that Chinaski would be a fitting name. It got me through the registration process, so hurrah for that.

I do enjoy Bukowski but probably won't be reading anything of his anytime soon. Tales of late night drinking and general debauchery probably wouldn't go well with this whole early recovery thing.

Supertired

welcome aboard kc3
day one sucks but it can be the very last one : )

Supertired

I do enjoy Bukowski but probably won't be reading anything of his anytime soon. Tales of late night drinking and general debauchery probably wouldn't go well with this whole recovery thing.[/QUOTE]

haha i came to the same conclusion

Chinaski

Welcome kittycat3. I'm on day two myself and can certainly understand that tired feeling. I just finished my second short nap of the day. Trying to work up the energy to start getting ready for work in a few minutes.

kittycat3

Thanks guys. I knowingly planned my slip, had a rough day at work and afterwards went straight to the bar.....
Today I'm at home working (thank goodness a snow storm provided a good cover) and I feel like a loser.....because I make poor choices again and again. I know I'm an alcoholic, and I keep drinking. I am scared for my life, really. If I keep drinking, it will kill me.

I need to be accountable and need your support! So thanks for having me

Supertired

i hear ya. my last slip happened about 20 minutes before in actually happened. we have to have a plan in place for those moments.
don't beat yourself up

Chinaski

I had over half a year sober in 2015 when I did the exact same thing.

Things were going good, even great, most of the time but I had a couple of bad days and decided that drinking was the answer. I planned that first drink for 24 hours before I took it, ignoring all the things I'd been doing to help myself over the previous six months. Within two or three days of that drink, I was back to drinking just as much or more than I ever was, and like I discussed in my long post here this morning, soon after that I'd been starting my drinking every day at this time in the afternoon, having two to five glasses of wine before going to work. It was scaring me and I'm ready for something better.

kittycat3

I'm resisting the urge to shout it from the rooftops, I am done w drinking!!!!!! But I don't because, why would anyone believe me? I don't know that I believe myself. I have to keep my sights focused on just one day at a time....

beerbgone

Peeps from England are especially welcome.

Mia83

I'm from England too

wehav2day

One day at a time everyone. you can do this today. I don't drink today.

((((Jeni26))))

((((((kittycat3))))))

Just wanted to pop in and give two old friends a cyber hug.

You guys can all do this. Just for today. I'll talk to ya tomorrow.

kittycat3

Thanks wehav. So true! I will be sober today for sure.

Jeni26

Thanks for the warm welcome everyone. Just pleased to be here..it feels safe xx

Supertired

[QUOTE=Just pleased to be here..it feels safe xx[/QUOTE]

this ^^^