Class of July 2013 Part 29
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Originally Posted by resolute50 
Thanks for the well wishes guys.
We're all pretty used to this kind of weather. Some have been waiting to go skiing. I had to get out my chain saw and remove a tree that was blocking my roadway. Some Facebook friends are reporting trees and branches down every where.
But, you know who liked the snow?
Only going to be 20 deg. (F) tonight.
I have the stove stoked up and it's nice and warm.
We're all pretty used to this kind of weather. Some have been waiting to go skiing. I had to get out my chain saw and remove a tree that was blocking my roadway. Some Facebook friends are reporting trees and branches down every where.
But, you know who liked the snow?
Only going to be 20 deg. (F) tonight.
I have the stove stoked up and it's nice and warm.
I looooove her Bob. Leah is such a beautiful dog :-) xx
Oops ..it didn't post her photo
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Watching a film called solace with Anthony Hopkins & Colin Farrell & Mrs sw ordered me a new book its called angels don't play this harrp pretty interesting so far lots of official documentation patents etc
Be careful in the snow Bob
Be careful in the snow Bob
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Hello everyone,
Thank you for all the good wishes.
I don't know what to say. I'm very unhappy and don't enjoy living. I've rambled on for ever about moving, changing my life but I can't do it. I kept plugging away at sobriety, thinking it would get better but it hasn't. It's me, I'm melancholic and depressed and can't/don't want to manage without Larry. I'm difficult and have nothing to bring to anyone. I don't enjoy my acting classes. My scene partner Mark and I met to go over our scene and he just talked about his separation. He's hurting, I know but I don't want to be his sounding board.
You see, I'm miserable and I just think it's better if I say nothing. I'm not drinking. Our class went out to a bar a couple of weeks ago, and although no one commented, I felt "less than" not drinking.
I can't even get a volunteer position, too many retirees here. Tried the humane society but they have a lot of kids doing their volunteer hours.
I see no chance for improvement, so who wants to listen to this misery. It's I who am punishing you all.
Thank you for all the good wishes.
I don't know what to say. I'm very unhappy and don't enjoy living. I've rambled on for ever about moving, changing my life but I can't do it. I kept plugging away at sobriety, thinking it would get better but it hasn't. It's me, I'm melancholic and depressed and can't/don't want to manage without Larry. I'm difficult and have nothing to bring to anyone. I don't enjoy my acting classes. My scene partner Mark and I met to go over our scene and he just talked about his separation. He's hurting, I know but I don't want to be his sounding board.
You see, I'm miserable and I just think it's better if I say nothing. I'm not drinking. Our class went out to a bar a couple of weeks ago, and although no one commented, I felt "less than" not drinking.
I can't even get a volunteer position, too many retirees here. Tried the humane society but they have a lot of kids doing their volunteer hours.
I see no chance for improvement, so who wants to listen to this misery. It's I who am punishing you all.
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I do for one and I know all the others will agree Leshar I'm really sorry your feeling like this when my depression takes a grip it is really horrible so 
x a million for posting Leshar
Lean on us Leshar your among friends have you seen your Dr recently x
x a million for posting Leshar Lean on us Leshar your among friends have you seen your Dr recently x
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Originally Posted by Leshar
Hello everyone,
Thank you for all the good wishes.
I don't know what to say. I'm very unhappy and don't enjoy living. I've rambled on for ever about moving, changing my life but I can't do it. I kept plugging away at sobriety, thinking it would get better but it hasn't. It's me, I'm melancholic and depressed and can't/don't want to manage without Larry. I'm difficult and have nothing to bring to anyone. I don't enjoy my acting classes. My scene partner Mark and I met to go over our scene and he just talked about his separation. He's hurting, I know but I don't want to be his sounding board.
You see, I'm miserable and I just think it's better if I say nothing. I'm not drinking. Our class went out to a bar a couple of weeks ago, and although no one commented, I felt "less than" not drinking.
I can't even get a volunteer position, too many retirees here. Tried the humane society but they have a lot of kids doing their volunteer hours.
I see no chance for improvement, so who wants to listen to this misery. It's I who am punishing you all.
Thank you for all the good wishes.
I don't know what to say. I'm very unhappy and don't enjoy living. I've rambled on for ever about moving, changing my life but I can't do it. I kept plugging away at sobriety, thinking it would get better but it hasn't. It's me, I'm melancholic and depressed and can't/don't want to manage without Larry. I'm difficult and have nothing to bring to anyone. I don't enjoy my acting classes. My scene partner Mark and I met to go over our scene and he just talked about his separation. He's hurting, I know but I don't want to be his sounding board.
You see, I'm miserable and I just think it's better if I say nothing. I'm not drinking. Our class went out to a bar a couple of weeks ago, and although no one commented, I felt "less than" not drinking.
I can't even get a volunteer position, too many retirees here. Tried the humane society but they have a lot of kids doing their volunteer hours.
I see no chance for improvement, so who wants to listen to this misery. It's I who am punishing you all.
Quite the opposite. Your presence here is a gift.
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Let me know what you thought of that movie wolfie. I had mixed feelings.
Thank you for the beautiful photo Bob!
So good to see you Leshar!
Like wolfie, I know how this feels.
And I'm so sorry that you are going through this.
We are all here for you love.
Thank you for the beautiful photo Bob!
So good to see you Leshar!
Like wolfie, I know how this feels.
And I'm so sorry that you are going through this.
We are all here for you love.
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Leshar, just because you have a certain state of mind, doesn't mean you have any less right to be heard. You've helped me to understand what it is to be melancholic a bit more, and that has helped me deal with my daughters relentless depression.
I have had depression before, but I undertand yours is more relentless and I think you mentioned it's coupled with bipolar. These are not small things to deal with, and dealing with them alone and feeling like a "freakshow" is only going to take your spirits lower. That part is guaranteed.
On the flip side, don't feel forced to post if you don't want to. But your voice here is real and welcomed. Always.
I have had depression before, but I undertand yours is more relentless and I think you mentioned it's coupled with bipolar. These are not small things to deal with, and dealing with them alone and feeling like a "freakshow" is only going to take your spirits lower. That part is guaranteed.
On the flip side, don't feel forced to post if you don't want to. But your voice here is real and welcomed. Always.
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Me too Venus it had its moments but overall I didn't think much I watched a great Aussie flick called last cab to darwin which was awesome have you seen that ?
going to watch last knights starring Clive Owen & Morgan Freeman
Have a great day Croiss V Snooz & D
Thinking of you Leshar x
going to watch last knights starring Clive Owen & Morgan Freeman
Have a great day Croiss V Snooz & D
Thinking of you Leshar x
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Originally Posted by soberwolf
Me too Venus it had its moments but overall I didn't think much I watched a great Aussie flick called last cab to darwin which was awesome have you seen that ?
going to watch last knights starring Clive Owen & Morgan Freeman
Have a great day Croiss V Snooz & D
Thinking of you Leshar x
going to watch last knights starring Clive Owen & Morgan Freeman
Have a great day Croiss V Snooz & D
Thinking of you Leshar x
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I'm sorry you feel that way Leshar - but I genuinely want to hear about you and whats going on.
That's what friends are for
I wish I had some miraculous answer but I don't - I just know you deserve happiness and peace and a place to belong just like we all do.
Do you think there would be any usefulness in some grief counselling?
D
That's what friends are for
I wish I had some miraculous answer but I don't - I just know you deserve happiness and peace and a place to belong just like we all do.
Do you think there would be any usefulness in some grief counselling?
D
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Thankyou Wehave2day, Snoozy and Croissant and everyone for your words of wisdom. I hope you aren't all too disappointed in me.
Yesterday afternoon I went for a swim at the beach with a friend, and then to a BBQ in the evening. Today im going to see the new Leonardo Decaprio film. Basically I'm trying to be kind to myself.
Leshar I hope you feel better soon. Be proud of yourself for getting through the hard time you are facing without using alcohol. Can you try to be kinder to yourself too?
Yesterday afternoon I went for a swim at the beach with a friend, and then to a BBQ in the evening. Today im going to see the new Leonardo Decaprio film. Basically I'm trying to be kind to myself.
Leshar I hope you feel better soon. Be proud of yourself for getting through the hard time you are facing without using alcohol. Can you try to be kinder to yourself too?
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