Soberpotamus

Thank you, V.

I cried and feel better now. Crying really is healing.

Dee74

I think the hills plenty steep enough at the moment SP.
My advice is to try not to future trip too much right now.

I know it's hard not to do, but I think it's easy to get overwhelmed that way.

Get yourself fit and healthy first and then you can look at the ToDo list?

D

Anna

SP, it could also be that your husband is afraid of losing you. You've had this surgery and feeling better, you're changing jobs and doing something where you will bring in more income. Maybe he is afraid.

It's a lot to take on yourself, but you are doing great. It's like sobriety - not every day is great, the general momentum is positive.

Tetra

Hi Soberpotamus,

I have just finished reading your first two threads...wow you have had quite a journey!
Sorry I haven't been around but I had 6 job interviews over the course of a week and I was taken up with those.

Oh I have just realised that your thread is in the Newcomers Daily Support section which is why I didn't see it.

I have a candle lighting for you today and I sincerely hope things get better for you soon.

Hugs xoxo

Soberpotamus

Nice to see you, Tetra.

Soberpotamus

I must've slept over 12 hours last night. I feel like there must be some healing taking place.

I'm waking up very depressed each day, and struggling with this, because it's just not what I'm used to. I'm used to jumping out of bed and making my coffee.

I don't feel like leaving the bed.

I miss the coffee but I've given it up for a while, so that I don't have to deal with teeth staining anymore until after the braces come off. It's hard enough to get in there now to brush my teeth.

Today I'm going to get through some more proofreading stuff online using the iPad.

saoutchik

Hi Jen, just checking in

Your healing seems to be going quite well although I appreciate the pain must be tough. Maybe try not to dwell on the situation with Brian until you are physically in a better place

Sending positive vibes your way

Soberpotamus

It's hard not to, Sao, as I have to see and hear him daily. If he would leave me alone, it would be more tolerable. He is very antagonistic, childish.

Soberpotamus

Egg drop soup today. Adding milk this time for calories. I'm below 130 lbs already, and it's only two weeks in.

Soberpotamus

I will try.

Soberpotamus

Will try not to dwell.

It's like I don't even know how not too, my brain is kind of obsessive naturally, plus I'm future oriented. It's that I see the changes I want or need to make, and I see a straight line to them, hell-bent on doing it.

But I know life and this world isn't comprised so much of straight lines...there are many more curves and winding, confusing paths out there.

trachemys

you need ice cream

or frozen bananas. Frozen bananas, a little soy milk and chocolate syrup and all mashed up will solve most problems.

Soberpotamus

Maybe I'll get some ice-cream. For once, it doesn't seem good to me. That's crazy. Must be depressed.

trachemys

Your taster's off. But at least they gave your your receipt for business deduction purposes at the coffee shop.

courage2

J, I'm sorry you're having such a rough recovery from the surgery.

Try to stay in the moment. Treat yourself kindly. See if you can find a manicurist who makes house calls! As long as you have soup & a roof over your head & internet, you can get along.

Staying in the moment -- with gratitude -- will help you heal. Plus, in my experience, recovery from physical trauma is a lot like early recovery from alcoholism -- I don't think it's a great time for making lasting decisions.

Peace.

Soberpotamus

Yeah, part of my tongue, the right side, can't taste. It's tied in with the numb lip and chin.

Ha! The receipt.

Soberpotamus

Courage, from what I understand, I'm recovering normally from the surgery. Depression is common after this surgery.

I don't feel I'm some sort of special case.

It's just that I blame my ******* of a husband for compounding the stress.

Now, it did seem to activate my old traumas. And I'm dealing with that. Had a breakthrough with my dad. I consider that a positive thing.

Soberpotamus

I'm about to try beefaroni from a can. One Youtuber suggested spaghetti-os and beefaroni. She said it was her favorite after jaw surgery.

I'm skeptical.

But desperate, so.

Will post how it goes here shortly.

brynn

Hugs potamus! It will all become clear as time goes on...what to do and when to do it. Just remember this won't last forever and hopefully that will make things with Brian more tolerable.

courage2

J, I think you're handling recuperation well, all the ups & downs. It's rough that you don't have support at home & that in fact the home situation seems to be worse than aloneness. I just wish you had someone there with you to play a little parcheesi or give you a foot massage.

xxoo