courage2

I think you're in safe hands with your doctor -- it seems like you've had good care so far.

Soberpotamus

Lol, Dee. I hear you.

Yeah, I trust this guy. After all, I settled on him after seeing seven docs over a ten year period.

He is so laid back sometimes. It worries me. I want to know and discuss all the details, and he knows this about me, but he tries to stay light and assures me I will be ok. I appreciate that about him.

trachemys

I never worry until they look at me and blanch.

Soberpotamus

I was worried about rolling over on my face in my sleep...

He said, oh don't worry. But call me if you get hit in the face with a basketball.

trachemys

Even emoji smiling is good right now. Relax. Breathe. Wait till hubby goes to sleep and take the BIG dictionary to his head. (Happened to a friend of mine.)

venuscat

He sounds lovely. Really...a great doctor and a sense of humor!

Soberpotamus

I just quit my job. She gave me a hard time about leaving to take medicine. They've bullied me since I started. I never understood why. It was ongoing. I just said to hell with it if they don't care i might need medical attention, and having a hard time at work.

There's an 800 number to corporate I will call to fill them in on the details.

I don't think she was justified.

Soberpotamus

My husband is furious with me.

No one gives a f*** that I am unwell.

Soberpotamus

I am entitled to paid breaks, and I left to get my meds on my break. She is making a big deal out of this. What's going on here is that she wants me gone. I was the only person who ever did the job well, and once they found this out, two female managers have had it in for me. It sounds crazy, but it's true.

The workers before me clocked in and left work. They did very little.

I stay and do my job, and do it well. The store managers love me. They've asked me to work for them directly.

I will talk to the store managers about this later this week.

venuscat

Aww, I am so sorry. That's not right at all.

Soberpotamus

I've emailed corporate. There's a number to call to file complaints. I've held off doing this but now it's time. I'm going to tell them everything that's happened.

I'll probably be hired on directly with the store. I'm not worried.

Soberpotamus

I received a quick reply. She set an 8:30 phone appointment for tomorrow for me to tell my story.

courage2

J, it seems like you're encountering problems on top of problems now. I'm worried about your level of stress. It's not good for healing. Do you have anyone like a counselor you can talk to, to unload some of your worries and maybe help you sort out all the feelings?

Soberpotamus

No, I fired her two years ago.

Soberpotamus

My life is in shambles, it's true.

But I'm sane.

I will never go to a therapist again. Not one of them ever helped.

Biggest sham ever.

And that's coming from a *** laude psych grad.

Soberpotamus

Courage, it's good advice. Thank you. I'm just hurting. I don't mean to be short.

I'm just at a really hard place in life, and no one can save me.

I'm alone, and I'll have to find my way out alone.

Dee74

You're not alone tho - there's a great well of support here if nothing else
I'm sorry you're in pain and feel cornered right now - the wee hours don;t help in that respect - but better times are surely ahead J

D

Soberpotamus

Thank you, Dee.

And thank you, Courage, for caring. I hope you will overlook my harshness.

My husband asked if I need him to drive me to the doctor. I told him I'd drive myself. I really hate him for the crumbs he tosses out.

venuscat

I know you're hurting love, and I'm so sorry. But no, you are not alone.
We care a great deal.

Please consider letting your husband drive you to the doctor's appt.

courage2

I don't think you were short w/me, J. I was just asking, and you answered.

Maybe you could call a cab tomorrow?

I hope you get good sleep tonight.