Class Of January 2016 Support Thread
obxpaul
Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Kill devil hills, NC
Posts: 14
Fell off the wagon, the AV and my weakness prevailed. Drank a bottle of merlot while cooking and socializing. The silver lining is I did not feel good the whole time - inflamed face, buzzed out - it basically sucked.
Back to square one, ore resolved than ever because being a calm, happy person beats being a drunk, even a happy drunk.
Back to square one, ore resolved than ever because being a calm, happy person beats being a drunk, even a happy drunk.
So, that is my plan. What kind of plan can you create for yourself? It really is helpful to have one.
Fell off the wagon, the AV and my weakness prevailed. Drank a bottle of merlot while cooking and socializing. The silver lining is I did not feel good the whole time - inflamed face, buzzed out - it basically sucked.
Back to square one, ore resolved than ever because being a calm, happy person beats being a drunk, even a happy drunk.
Back to square one, ore resolved than ever because being a calm, happy person beats being a drunk, even a happy drunk.
Patricia - hmmmm. I think a psychiatrist is in order. They can prescribe meds. Maybe a therapist later after some progress with a psychiatrist. I saw a post on another thread where you talked about your son and you maybe having mental illness. Anti-depressants make you ill. There has to be something you can take. How bout like Xanax for anxiety ? I hear Xanax is addictive but I never got addicted. I found myself using it when I would wake up in the middle of the night with my workload on my mind. I had to get some sleep! I use about one script a year.
I have a friend who's kinda out there... He got on Zoloft and Xanax and is a new person! He takes the Xanax as prescribed (3x day). It's only been about 5 months. I'll be curious if he gets addicted. He said he doesn't care if he does, as long as it helps and he'll just keep taking it.
How bout supplements? Can you take them? Maybe google these or visit a health supplement store and talk to them.
I strongly feel that with the right meds you'll be good. And I'm not big on meds. When I take calcium it makes me nauseous. I make sure I eat first and I just wait thru the nausea (whereas my sister won't even take it because of the nausea).
Another thread is talking about neuroplacisity (sp?). I'm looking into that tonight.
And finally, mind-body relaxation/mindfulness/meditation. That's what I'm gonna do right now!
Take care.
Olivia
I have a friend who's kinda out there... He got on Zoloft and Xanax and is a new person! He takes the Xanax as prescribed (3x day). It's only been about 5 months. I'll be curious if he gets addicted. He said he doesn't care if he does, as long as it helps and he'll just keep taking it.
How bout supplements? Can you take them? Maybe google these or visit a health supplement store and talk to them.
I strongly feel that with the right meds you'll be good. And I'm not big on meds. When I take calcium it makes me nauseous. I make sure I eat first and I just wait thru the nausea (whereas my sister won't even take it because of the nausea).
Another thread is talking about neuroplacisity (sp?). I'm looking into that tonight.
And finally, mind-body relaxation/mindfulness/meditation. That's what I'm gonna do right now!
Take care.
Olivia
Hi everyone,
Today is day 7. I am feeling okay. I started meditation and ordered two books that were recommended in this class. I haven't received the books yet I just followed some videos to get started.
Someone posted their daily plan on another thread and I did a similar one with some modifications and posted it on my refrigerator. I need to get a book or something so I can check off when each item are completed each day, meditation, exercise, budget (writing down when I spend each day and on what), etc.
My dad called earlier and my mom has been battling health issues since last July and she was admitted back into the hospital today. She will probably only be in for a day or two but it is just something I am having a hard time with right now. I don't really have any desire to drink though so I suppose that is good.
I hope everyone is doing well and will keep those struggling in my thoughts.
Have a great Monday everyone
Today is day 7. I am feeling okay. I started meditation and ordered two books that were recommended in this class. I haven't received the books yet I just followed some videos to get started.
Someone posted their daily plan on another thread and I did a similar one with some modifications and posted it on my refrigerator. I need to get a book or something so I can check off when each item are completed each day, meditation, exercise, budget (writing down when I spend each day and on what), etc.
My dad called earlier and my mom has been battling health issues since last July and she was admitted back into the hospital today. She will probably only be in for a day or two but it is just something I am having a hard time with right now. I don't really have any desire to drink though so I suppose that is good.
I hope everyone is doing well and will keep those struggling in my thoughts.
Have a great Monday everyone
I am confident that not drinking will help give you a consistent emotional level, in time - but I'm sorry it's so rough now.
Do discuss your medication issues with your Dr - if I remember right you have benzoes in the mix somewhere right? That really needs a Dr's input IMO.
D
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Join Date: Aug 2015
Posts: 87
Starting day six here.
How is everyone? It's Monday morning where I am, and crying has progressed to irritated beyond belief.
I've also woken up with three coldsores (I'm not sure what you call them,in the US... Fever blisters?) which hurt like hell.
Probably a symptom of dealing with my stress and emotions instead of drinking through them.
How is everyone? It's Monday morning where I am, and crying has progressed to irritated beyond belief.
I've also woken up with three coldsores (I'm not sure what you call them,in the US... Fever blisters?) which hurt like hell.
Probably a symptom of dealing with my stress and emotions instead of drinking through them.
Everyone sitting around father inlaws deathbed. He started what I think is the death rattle yesterday afternoon. . I'm at home with youngest son. Torture is just torture. I hate for people to suffer.
My plan for not drinking- prayer, learn to play the tape, like y'all are saying ( not sure exactly whT that is), and eat regularly. Gotta make this work.
Sober .
My plan for not drinking- prayer, learn to play the tape, like y'all are saying ( not sure exactly whT that is), and eat regularly. Gotta make this work.
Sober .
Thanks for the warm welcome, y'all.
I'm on my tenth day; my last drink was a glass of champagne to toast the New Year.
I found out something the last two days that was interesting. Yesterday was a crummy, stressful day, and I was an emotional basketcase for a good ninety minutes of it. Near the end of the night I caught myself thinking, You've had a rough day, grab a six-pack and relax at home tonight. Of course, I didn't.
Tonight's shift was much better; I've found a fine, if delicate, emotional balance and managed to stay there all day with minimal fuss. So what happens at the end of the day? Yep -- What a great day -- sitting down and having a couple would be the perfect cap for it. Of course, I didn't.
But it put into stark relief something I've known intellectually, but never really observed in action before: the rationalization of the alcoholic brain, pointing to whatever external condition, good or bad, as a rationale to drink. This clearly implies that external events are perhaps irrelevant to sobriety in the end, and that inner conditions matter most of all.
Last night was the first real temptation I had to say, "Aw, screw it" -- and I feel good knowing that I can tell myself "no" and mean it. I'll take every little success I can find, right now.
I'm on my tenth day; my last drink was a glass of champagne to toast the New Year.
I found out something the last two days that was interesting. Yesterday was a crummy, stressful day, and I was an emotional basketcase for a good ninety minutes of it. Near the end of the night I caught myself thinking, You've had a rough day, grab a six-pack and relax at home tonight. Of course, I didn't.
Tonight's shift was much better; I've found a fine, if delicate, emotional balance and managed to stay there all day with minimal fuss. So what happens at the end of the day? Yep -- What a great day -- sitting down and having a couple would be the perfect cap for it. Of course, I didn't.
But it put into stark relief something I've known intellectually, but never really observed in action before: the rationalization of the alcoholic brain, pointing to whatever external condition, good or bad, as a rationale to drink. This clearly implies that external events are perhaps irrelevant to sobriety in the end, and that inner conditions matter most of all.
Last night was the first real temptation I had to say, "Aw, screw it" -- and I feel good knowing that I can tell myself "no" and mean it. I'll take every little success I can find, right now.
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Everyone sitting around father inlaws deathbed. He started what I think is the death rattle yesterday afternoon. . I'm at home with youngest son. Torture is just torture. I hate for people to suffer.
My plan for not drinking- prayer, learn to play the tape, like y'all are saying ( not sure exactly whT that is), and eat regularly. Gotta make this work.
Sober .
My plan for not drinking- prayer, learn to play the tape, like y'all are saying ( not sure exactly whT that is), and eat regularly. Gotta make this work.
Sober .
Sending you positive vibes all the way. Please check in later...
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But it put into stark relief something I've known intellectually, but never really observed in action before: the rationalization of the alcoholic brain, pointing to whatever external condition, good or bad, as a rationale to drink.
-thumpa, that's exactly what I was having problems putting into words! Having a drink or six is an accompaniment to anything in my world.
-thumpa, that's exactly what I was having problems putting into words! Having a drink or six is an accompaniment to anything in my world.
Forgot to mention that I was able to get some decent sleep last night. Winded down my evening with a strong cup of chamomile and old Columbo episodes. I had to get up early today for a meeting so I know I'll be tired tonight. Going to go the tea route again!
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I'm not sure what the etiquette is on forums like this. I don't want to seem like I've ignored people but I haven't got to the point I can remember names to personally comment. I do read all the posts!
I didn't have the best of weekends. Me and OH are struggling to get along and had another massive row yesterday. He's out of work and I am tired of the stress of trying to support our family (there are 5 of us ) on my own (I'm self employed so don't have a regular income). Not only that but he doesn't do anything round the house which drives me mental and just gets me feeling worthless and annoyed so I avoid him and then he gets hurt because I dont want to be around him. During the row yesterday he said I'm just upset because I should be earning more. He's right and it hit a nerve. I've got a lot of qualifications in my field but am useless at finding new clients.
I'm not going to drink but ended up eating loads of unhealthy food yesterday (which is my number 2 go to after booze). Meant I broke my healthy eating run. What I find is I will turn to food until that no longer works and then I will switch back to alcohol. I woke up feeling really low this morning so I'm just trying to get through today, hopefully I'll have the energy for the gym later and then have an early night.
I've been turning to youtube a lot - I find comfort in the videos on there.
I didn't have the best of weekends. Me and OH are struggling to get along and had another massive row yesterday. He's out of work and I am tired of the stress of trying to support our family (there are 5 of us ) on my own (I'm self employed so don't have a regular income). Not only that but he doesn't do anything round the house which drives me mental and just gets me feeling worthless and annoyed so I avoid him and then he gets hurt because I dont want to be around him. During the row yesterday he said I'm just upset because I should be earning more. He's right and it hit a nerve. I've got a lot of qualifications in my field but am useless at finding new clients.
I'm not going to drink but ended up eating loads of unhealthy food yesterday (which is my number 2 go to after booze). Meant I broke my healthy eating run. What I find is I will turn to food until that no longer works and then I will switch back to alcohol. I woke up feeling really low this morning so I'm just trying to get through today, hopefully I'll have the energy for the gym later and then have an early night.
I've been turning to youtube a lot - I find comfort in the videos on there.
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