Class of November 2015 Part 8
Also hit up a sports bar for the first time today with my BIL...no challenge or cravings but he made some comments like 'how long are you off the beer this time?'...that lack of understanding irritated me a bit but I can't expect others to fully get what we go through I guess...that's why we're here and they're not!
Hi, All! Happy and grateful to be sober. I read my journal from last year and I was so triggered on NYE. I ended up drinking. I was mad because my ex had posted pics of him drinking beer, so I decided that I would get even by drinking beer too (stupid AV). No cravings tonight but feeling a bit lonely. May call my parents in a bit.
So happy to start a new year sober with you all.
So happy to start a new year sober with you all.
Happy NewYears to the class of November! You guys are great!
I am reading a book called "I Want To Change My Life" by Steven Melemis. Very good book about mindfulness, mind-body relaxation and CBT. Just finished a part on catastrophic thinking Kiki! Bought it on amazon.
Also bought a self-hypnosis MP3 thing about alcohol from selfhypnosis.com. It's not great but it's not bad. The more I listen, the better. Any reinforcement is very helpful to me.
Anyway, you guys rock as people say!
Olivia
I am reading a book called "I Want To Change My Life" by Steven Melemis. Very good book about mindfulness, mind-body relaxation and CBT. Just finished a part on catastrophic thinking Kiki! Bought it on amazon.
Also bought a self-hypnosis MP3 thing about alcohol from selfhypnosis.com. It's not great but it's not bad. The more I listen, the better. Any reinforcement is very helpful to me.
Anyway, you guys rock as people say!
Olivia
Happy NewYears to the class of November! You guys are great! I am reading a book called "I Want To Change My Life" by Steven Melemis. Very good book about mindfulness, mind-body relaxation and CBT. Just finished a part on catastrophic thinking Kiki! Bought it on amazon. Also bought a self-hypnosis MP3 thing about alcohol from selfhypnosis.com. It's not great but it's not bad. The more I listen, the better. Any reinforcement is very helpful to me. Anyway, you guys rock as people say! Olivia
We had a quiet evening watching movies and eating tons of chocolate. At midnight we watched a video of the fireworks in Sidney, it was beautiful. My son had chocolate milk, I had carrot juice, and my husband was drinking something with alcohol but it didn't bother me. I think my AV fell asleep 4 hours ago
Happy New Year everybody!
Happy New Year everybody!
We had a quiet evening watching movies and eating tons of chocolate. At midnight we watched a video of the fireworks in Sidney, it was beautiful. My son had chocolate milk, I had carrot juice, and my husband was drinking something with alcohol but it didn't bother me. I think my AV fell asleep 4 hours ago Happy New Year everybody!
Pretty sure I was blacked out by this time last year. Possibly vomiting in my own bed. :/ What a way to celebrate a new year... Crazy, who wants to ring in a fresh start with a giant hangover? Not this gal.
If I hadn't drank last week I'd be at 48 days today. Even though it is a big deal, and it was insanely stupid of me to drink, I am trying to move on as though it never happened. It's working so far. I can't wallow in the fact that I'm really only 6 days sober. Breeding ground for AV. "You messed up bbf, might as well mess up some more." Screw that. I'm doing great and I'm still proud of myself and I'm going to win this fight.
Sorry self needed a pep talk. Ha ha.
If I hadn't drank last week I'd be at 48 days today. Even though it is a big deal, and it was insanely stupid of me to drink, I am trying to move on as though it never happened. It's working so far. I can't wallow in the fact that I'm really only 6 days sober. Breeding ground for AV. "You messed up bbf, might as well mess up some more." Screw that. I'm doing great and I'm still proud of myself and I'm going to win this fight.
Sorry self needed a pep talk. Ha ha.
Happy New Year all! I had a quiet night at home with my boyfriend planned, but a friend invited us over to her place and we went. She knows about my struggle with alcohol and knows that I quit drinking, so she enticed me to come over by saying that we wouldn't be drinking and that we would just have a chill movie night. When we got there, they were already drinking and offered us wine, beer, champagne...ugh. I declined, but the cravings were definitely there and my AV was desperately trying to make its voice heard! Her boyfriend was also smoking weed, which I would have gladly smoked if it would have been offered to me. Luckily it wasn't. I haven't smoked since New Year's Eve last year. Somehow, I don't think replacing one addiction with another would be such a good idea, but my AV keeps tring to convince me that I can't handle reality on my own and that I need something to help me deal with it. Bottom line, I didn't give in, but I'm a bit angry at my friend for putting me in that position. Had I known there would be alcohol involved, I probably wouldn't have gone. Anyway, I hope that you all had a lovely night and I wish the best for all of you in this coming year!
Morning all, how lovely is it to wake without a hangover? :-)
Blackbird - pep talk then. Being an alcoholic and drinking to punish another person is like drinking a poison and expecting the other person to die. It's awesome that a slip was out starlight behind you. I experimented for a long time with that. It shows your commitment that you recommitted straight away instead of thinking, oh well, I pushed the sod it button. I'm proud of you.
Learn to fly - that was so unfair of your friend. I think I'd have walked straight out, if I'm honest. I've heard the weed thing in a few meetings. Cross addiction is so helpful. Not.
Patricia - your Chinese sounds delicious. We had a massive cold cut buffet. I may be eating it for the new two days.
Kiki - *salutes the resident cheerleader. Happy new year, love!
I hope all are well. Thinking of those who are not here, hoping they're OK. Enfin has gone quiet, hope you're doing ok. To anyone else I missed individually, which will be a few, lots of love.
Blackbird - pep talk then. Being an alcoholic and drinking to punish another person is like drinking a poison and expecting the other person to die. It's awesome that a slip was out starlight behind you. I experimented for a long time with that. It shows your commitment that you recommitted straight away instead of thinking, oh well, I pushed the sod it button. I'm proud of you.
Learn to fly - that was so unfair of your friend. I think I'd have walked straight out, if I'm honest. I've heard the weed thing in a few meetings. Cross addiction is so helpful. Not.
Patricia - your Chinese sounds delicious. We had a massive cold cut buffet. I may be eating it for the new two days.
Kiki - *salutes the resident cheerleader. Happy new year, love!
I hope all are well. Thinking of those who are not here, hoping they're OK. Enfin has gone quiet, hope you're doing ok. To anyone else I missed individually, which will be a few, lots of love.
Pretty sure I was blacked out by this time last year. Possibly vomiting in my own bed. :/ What a way to celebrate a new year... Crazy, who wants to ring in a fresh start with a giant hangover? Not this gal.
If I hadn't drank last week I'd be at 48 days today. Even though it is a big deal, and it was insanely stupid of me to drink, I am trying to move on as though it never happened. It's working so far. I can't wallow in the fact that I'm really only 6 days sober. Breeding ground for AV. "You messed up bbf, might as well mess up some more." Screw that. I'm doing great and I'm still proud of myself and I'm going to win this fight.
Sorry self needed a pep talk. Ha ha.
If I hadn't drank last week I'd be at 48 days today. Even though it is a big deal, and it was insanely stupid of me to drink, I am trying to move on as though it never happened. It's working so far. I can't wallow in the fact that I'm really only 6 days sober. Breeding ground for AV. "You messed up bbf, might as well mess up some more." Screw that. I'm doing great and I'm still proud of myself and I'm going to win this fight.
Sorry self needed a pep talk. Ha ha.
BB- I messed up my first attemp after 11 days and then got sober again after a 2 day binge, and now it's been 56 days....don't listen to your AV!
Have a great day free from hangovers everybody and if anybody picked up last night please start fresh today with complete commitment and a good plan in place!
Canguy-so glad to hear you rode it out and are ready to put the past behind you!!!!
Ultra-how about you?
We are here for all of you.
Happy New Year all! I had a quiet night at home with my boyfriend planned, but a friend invited us over to her place and we went. She knows about my struggle with alcohol and knows that I quit drinking, so she enticed me to come over by saying that we wouldn't be drinking and that we would just have a chill movie night. When we got there, they were already drinking and offered us wine, beer, champagne...ugh. I declined, but the cravings were definitely there and my AV was desperately trying to make its voice heard! Her boyfriend was also smoking weed, which I would have gladly smoked if it would have been offered to me. Luckily it wasn't. I haven't smoked since New Year's Eve last year. Somehow, I don't think replacing one addiction with another would be such a good idea, but my AV keeps tring to convince me that I can't handle reality on my own and that I need something to help me deal with it. Bottom line, I didn't give in, but I'm a bit angry at my friend for putting me in that position. Had I known there would be alcohol involved, I probably wouldn't have gone. Anyway, I hope that you all had a lovely night and I wish the best for all of you in this coming year!
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