Class of November 2015 Part 7
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Welcome back enfin 
Think about what changes you can make this time - more support maybe so that when one support is not available others will be?
Maybe think som,e ,ore on lifestyle chances you can ,make to reflect your desire to be sober?
You can do this
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Think about what changes you can make this time - more support maybe so that when one support is not available others will be?
Maybe think som,e ,ore on lifestyle chances you can ,make to reflect your desire to be sober?
You can do this
D
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I'm here! Doing well. Was out at dinner with friends and reminiscing about sushi and drinking beer in college. Got a small craving for that but wasn't much to act on bc I knew it was just the memory of drinking the way I used to ten years ago. Those days are long gone! A beer with dinner would have only made me feel guilt and remorse so it was not worth it.
I hope everyone is well!
I hope everyone is well!
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Originally Posted by KiKi0615 
Good morning!!!
So I just need to tell you all what my AV just whispered in my ear! It said:
"Kiki! You made it through Christmas & all the stress without drinking! You are gonna drive home today & your husband & kids are staying here at your in-laws! You could buy alcohol & cigarettes & drink & smoke a little while your driving home & then go to a pub & get DRUNK & no one would know!!!"
Yep! After 42 days without a drop of alcohol or a cigarette that's what my AV just said to me the day after Christmas! Ugh!
Feel free to scream at my AV for me!!!
So I just need to tell you all what my AV just whispered in my ear! It said:
"Kiki! You made it through Christmas & all the stress without drinking! You are gonna drive home today & your husband & kids are staying here at your in-laws! You could buy alcohol & cigarettes & drink & smoke a little while your driving home & then go to a pub & get DRUNK & no one would know!!!"
Yep! After 42 days without a drop of alcohol or a cigarette that's what my AV just said to me the day after Christmas! Ugh!
Feel free to scream at my AV for me!!!
My AV told me on Christmas Eve
"Go ahead and drink. You're gonna have so much fun. Maybe you don't have a problem, you're young and maybe just drink the next couple days and then quit again, you've gone so long without drinking you're no longer an alcoholic. Live a little, be a man, not drinking is lame."
Thankfully, I smartened up and didn't let my AV **** up all my work.
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Morning class,
Sorry to see that some people are struggling. Enfin, it happens. I honestly think that we get a few weeks and we feel so good that we forget just how bloody awful we felt. It's one of the reasons I go to AA. I need to remind myself just how bad it was, as my head wants to forget. It's human nature to forget the bad things, almost like self preservation.
I was super stroppy yesterday. Not because I wanted to drink, but because Christmas has upset the routine I was in. I took myself off swimming, as I really find the exercise and stretching clears my head. There's something about being immersed in water that makes me feel free, weightless and able to twist and turn in any direction.
Day 53. Just for today I am free.
Much love to all.
Sorry to see that some people are struggling. Enfin, it happens. I honestly think that we get a few weeks and we feel so good that we forget just how bloody awful we felt. It's one of the reasons I go to AA. I need to remind myself just how bad it was, as my head wants to forget. It's human nature to forget the bad things, almost like self preservation.
I was super stroppy yesterday. Not because I wanted to drink, but because Christmas has upset the routine I was in. I took myself off swimming, as I really find the exercise and stretching clears my head. There's something about being immersed in water that makes me feel free, weightless and able to twist and turn in any direction.
Day 53. Just for today I am free.
Much love to all.
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Thanks guys for caring... I think it was a combination of, yeah I can do this. .. and woa, my friend is going to die, and everyone else is doing it so screw it! Just ran out of effort. ..I couldn't access SR either so prepped the perfect excuse. ..
I have my next counselling app on the 6th Jan, maybe a month appart is too infrequent. Maybe I need to find some actual people to face to face talk it through with... my husband is going to do the dryathlon for January, so we can do a month together... then maybe we will carry on!
Plenty of maybes! Maybe if it had been a disasterous bender I would have been remotivated! Who knows...
Trying to stick at it anyway, peace and love to all xxxx
I have my next counselling app on the 6th Jan, maybe a month appart is too infrequent. Maybe I need to find some actual people to face to face talk it through with... my husband is going to do the dryathlon for January, so we can do a month together... then maybe we will carry on!
Plenty of maybes! Maybe if it had been a disasterous bender I would have been remotivated! Who knows...
Trying to stick at it anyway, peace and love to all xxxx
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Hi all. Just feeling a little bummed out. I had to work on Christmas for a few hours and again yesterday for a few and possibly today. So I haven't really had a nice Christmas off of work. I feel sad because of course my OH and I weren't really getting along on Christmas Eve and we had a half-a$$ed Christmas for the kids. Partly due to lack of time getting stuff ready with OH being out of town the previous weekend for his father's funeral. And partly due to my work schedule.
It's our baby's first Christmas and was hoping for a special time for us all but never really felt the magic. Anyway, still here and sober. Just having a small pity party. And torn by telling myself I should be thankful for all we have, which I am, and being disappointed in myself for being a baby. Thanks for listening.
It's our baby's first Christmas and was hoping for a special time for us all but never really felt the magic. Anyway, still here and sober. Just having a small pity party. And torn by telling myself I should be thankful for all we have, which I am, and being disappointed in myself for being a baby. Thanks for listening.
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Hi Enfin and Jemma,
It's difficult when nothing much seems to change. Then you start thinking that you're missing out.
Enfin, I don't know if AA or the steps are for you? I've barely started on them if I'm honest. However, being in a room of people who totally get this helps. I could see my thoughts reflected in everything anyone said. It took me a long while to understand the programme as it were, but the companionship is instant. Currently, the meetings I go to are super busy.
Each session is like individual therapy. I've shared things and seen people nodding back. Things I didn't think anyone else would understand, let alone feel.
I've had counselling before, and I think a month is too long. Each session raises new questions and you need to think and process then, then discuss them next week.
It's difficult when nothing much seems to change. Then you start thinking that you're missing out.
Enfin, I don't know if AA or the steps are for you? I've barely started on them if I'm honest. However, being in a room of people who totally get this helps. I could see my thoughts reflected in everything anyone said. It took me a long while to understand the programme as it were, but the companionship is instant. Currently, the meetings I go to are super busy.
Each session is like individual therapy. I've shared things and seen people nodding back. Things I didn't think anyone else would understand, let alone feel.
I've had counselling before, and I think a month is too long. Each session raises new questions and you need to think and process then, then discuss them next week.
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Originally Posted by snowvelvet
Hi Enfin and Jemma, It's difficult when nothing much seems to change. Then you start thinking that you're missing out. Enfin, I don't know if AA or the steps are for you? I've barely started on them if I'm honest. However, being in a room of people who totally get this helps. I could see my thoughts reflected in everything anyone said. It took me a long while to understand the programme as it were, but the companionship is instant. Currently, the meetings I go to are super busy. Each session is like individual therapy. I've shared things and seen people nodding back. Things I didn't think anyone else would understand, let alone feel. I've had counselling before, and I think a month is too long. Each session raises new questions and you need to think and process then, then discuss them next week.
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35th day sober for me. Company arrived last night, including a BIL I'm known to get totally blasted with. I'm thinking of registering for a race next weekend so I have a tangible excuse for not drinking the next few days. Let's see!
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Originally Posted by snowvelvet
Hi Enfin and Jemma,
It's difficult when nothing much seems to change. Then you start thinking that you're missing out.
Enfin, I don't know if AA or the steps are for you? I've barely started on them if I'm honest. However, being in a room of people who totally get this helps. I could see my thoughts reflected in everything anyone said. It took me a long while to understand the programme as it were, but the companionship is instant. Currently, the meetings I go to are super busy.
Each session is like individual therapy. I've shared things and seen people nodding back. Things I didn't think anyone else would understand, let alone feel.
I've had counselling before, and I think a month is too long. Each session raises new questions and you need to think and process then, then discuss them next week.
It's difficult when nothing much seems to change. Then you start thinking that you're missing out.
Enfin, I don't know if AA or the steps are for you? I've barely started on them if I'm honest. However, being in a room of people who totally get this helps. I could see my thoughts reflected in everything anyone said. It took me a long while to understand the programme as it were, but the companionship is instant. Currently, the meetings I go to are super busy.
Each session is like individual therapy. I've shared things and seen people nodding back. Things I didn't think anyone else would understand, let alone feel.
I've had counselling before, and I think a month is too long. Each session raises new questions and you need to think and process then, then discuss them next week.
Don't think I can do aa in my town as I am so well known as a teacher...over such a big area.... I just couldn't face it. My parents are well known too. Hell, when I went to counselling I taught her daughter, which put me off... maybe private help till I get sorted more. Then again some actual people to help might be good. I dunno... it all feels like cr@p anyway now. I dunno what I feel now. How can I have been so pleased with myself, just to let myself down. I should be the one supporting me, not hindering me. It just feels like an endless, pointless struggle.....
Gah... thanks for talking and sorry for just moaning back!
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Originally Posted by SoberMarathon
I second the weekly counseling. Even 1hr per week is barely enough for me...but it has really helped me out this time around.
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Originally Posted by enfinthechange
Who do u go with? The doctors one.. or did u find another??? Just curious... x
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