Class of July 2013 Part 27
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Hi all.
Leshar, started watching Enchanted April last night, I'm enjoying it. They've all just arrived at the castle. I went to bed becasue I was tired and don't want to miss all the fun tension that is about to happen! I really like it so far.
Maybe they are strong, or is it just how they appear, Leshar? I know you've said before your sister in Europe was unhappy with her rate of drinking, but couldn't stop? From what you've said, it seems that two of the couples socialise well together. If you removed all the alcohol, would that still be the case? Just some things to think about?
Sometimes people's lives aren't the illusion they want us to see. We've experienced first hand the cold hard truth of stripping every layer back, and we can only focus on that. It's hard not to be envious of others sometimes, but we really don't see all the little hairline cracks...
I too feel a bit lonely at the moment, but I still have to keep building a life, looking forward. Sitting here thinking, why me? Why am I alone? Will isolate me more, but I'm not going to lie, it's bloody frustrating.
Leshar, started watching Enchanted April last night, I'm enjoying it. They've all just arrived at the castle. I went to bed becasue I was tired and don't want to miss all the fun tension that is about to happen! I really like it so far.
Originally Posted by Leshar 
Hello all, I'm at the airport in Toronto, waiting for a shuttle bus home. I feel a bit lonely, back on my own. I envy my sibs their strong marriages.
Sometimes people's lives aren't the illusion they want us to see. We've experienced first hand the cold hard truth of stripping every layer back, and we can only focus on that. It's hard not to be envious of others sometimes, but we really don't see all the little hairline cracks...
I too feel a bit lonely at the moment, but I still have to keep building a life, looking forward. Sitting here thinking, why me? Why am I alone? Will isolate me more, but I'm not going to lie, it's bloody frustrating.
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Sure is Leigh . We see a lot of these little guys out more often in Summer . Kangaroos too. Australia is not so scary as long as you don't go in the water where the great white sharks are.
Or get bitten on the bum by a redback on the toilet seat , get stung by jellyfish , stay away from the edge of the water so the crocodiles don't get you , watch out for the brown snakes when you're outside.
The list goes on , lol .
Seriously it's no different to anywhere else, I wouldn't want to live anywhere else :-) xxxx
Or get bitten on the bum by a redback on the toilet seat , get stung by jellyfish , stay away from the edge of the water so the crocodiles don't get you , watch out for the brown snakes when you're outside.
The list goes on , lol .
Seriously it's no different to anywhere else, I wouldn't want to live anywhere else :-) xxxx
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Hello Julyers I might be offline for a bit tomorrow I thought my unlimited internet deal ran out last night apparently it's tonight it runs out I should still hopefully be online tomorrow but if I'm not I will be as soon as I find a similar package
Spk soon guys
Spk soon guys
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Cute pic, Snoozy. Are you at your friend's? How's it going?
Croissant, thank you so much for your compassion and insight. I know you get lonely too and it seems unfair. We're good people. I can't stop crying this morning. I couldn't get out of bed to go to the gym. I know my brother thinks less of me because I gave up work, and I still question my decision, especially now. I just feel bloody useless, wasting my education. But I don't think I would be fit for it. I don't know. I was drinking heavily after Larry died, and I think I would not have done well for patients. Now I'm sober, it's too late, and maybe it still would not be a good fit because of my mood disorder. It was hard to hear my bro and sis talking about work. He's a doc, she's a vet and I know my brother respects her be cause she a professional. Yes, she drinks too much and I think she worries about it. I know it can't help her anxiety. My bro drinks too much but seems to function well, they both do. It was funny, neither of them asked me about giving up alcohol. I'd been prepared for some questioning, but not a word. Sorry for the ramble. I'd just like to be less lonely to feel like less of a waste of space.
I went to my intro acting class, but I felt shy, the others talked up acting and directing and seem so confident. Mark, my scene partner was friendly, so that was nice. We will begin our scene next week.
I guess this too is the first time I've come home from a family visit where I didn't rush to drink away my sorrow. But feeling feelings is ok, I guess. It will pass.
Croissant, you're right, my brother is a complete narcissist and his wife panders to his every need. He was quite rude to her a couple of times in company. Yet, I crave to hear one word of praise or interest in me. It's hard to accept it will never happen. I keep beating myself up about work. It would be much easier for me financially if I was working. There I go again! Sorry. I hope I will settle down soon.
Tiki's home and happily flying about and mooching off my breakfast.
Thanks folks.
Croissant, thank you so much for your compassion and insight. I know you get lonely too and it seems unfair. We're good people. I can't stop crying this morning. I couldn't get out of bed to go to the gym. I know my brother thinks less of me because I gave up work, and I still question my decision, especially now. I just feel bloody useless, wasting my education. But I don't think I would be fit for it. I don't know. I was drinking heavily after Larry died, and I think I would not have done well for patients. Now I'm sober, it's too late, and maybe it still would not be a good fit because of my mood disorder. It was hard to hear my bro and sis talking about work. He's a doc, she's a vet and I know my brother respects her be cause she a professional. Yes, she drinks too much and I think she worries about it. I know it can't help her anxiety. My bro drinks too much but seems to function well, they both do. It was funny, neither of them asked me about giving up alcohol. I'd been prepared for some questioning, but not a word. Sorry for the ramble. I'd just like to be less lonely to feel like less of a waste of space.
I went to my intro acting class, but I felt shy, the others talked up acting and directing and seem so confident. Mark, my scene partner was friendly, so that was nice. We will begin our scene next week.
I guess this too is the first time I've come home from a family visit where I didn't rush to drink away my sorrow. But feeling feelings is ok, I guess. It will pass.
Croissant, you're right, my brother is a complete narcissist and his wife panders to his every need. He was quite rude to her a couple of times in company. Yet, I crave to hear one word of praise or interest in me. It's hard to accept it will never happen. I keep beating myself up about work. It would be much easier for me financially if I was working. There I go again! Sorry. I hope I will settle down soon.
Tiki's home and happily flying about and mooching off my breakfast.
Thanks folks.
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((((Leshar)))). I wish that you could see yourself the way that we see you - smart and simply fantastic.
I am sorry that you are feeling badly. I am sure that your siblings lives are not as rosy as they make them out to be.
Be proud of Leshar. We are.
I am sorry that you are feeling badly. I am sure that your siblings lives are not as rosy as they make them out to be.
Be proud of Leshar. We are.
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Wolfie, see you when we see you, you are in our thoughts.
((((Croissant)))), (((((leshar)))), you are both wonderful ladies capable and worthy of love. Lonely does suck. Being with someone who isn't right for you sucks more. I learned that the hard way.
There's a saying, "don't compare your insides to someone else's outsides." That helps me a lot. I don't truly know what is going on in someone else's head, behind their doors etc. what we see on the outside is typically people putting their best face forward. Or at the very least trying not to be their worst.
My sister in law has a phD in psychology, took her boards, never practiced. They paid her student loans on my brothers salary. They are fine with that why wouldn't we be? Your choices are your business, leshar. My only caveat is: please don't think you CAN'T go back to your field. You can. You are capable. No need to feel like you should, but you are capable and good enough.
Snooz, I hope you are safely at your friends and ok. Any new word from the detox place, or rehab?
((((Croissant)))), (((((leshar)))), you are both wonderful ladies capable and worthy of love. Lonely does suck. Being with someone who isn't right for you sucks more. I learned that the hard way.
There's a saying, "don't compare your insides to someone else's outsides." That helps me a lot. I don't truly know what is going on in someone else's head, behind their doors etc. what we see on the outside is typically people putting their best face forward. Or at the very least trying not to be their worst.
My sister in law has a phD in psychology, took her boards, never practiced. They paid her student loans on my brothers salary. They are fine with that why wouldn't we be? Your choices are your business, leshar. My only caveat is: please don't think you CAN'T go back to your field. You can. You are capable. No need to feel like you should, but you are capable and good enough.
Snooz, I hope you are safely at your friends and ok. Any new word from the detox place, or rehab?
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