Class of November 2015 Part 4
Enfin good! I think that it is imperative that you do not drink! Words mean little compared to action. You have said that the alcohol is to blame for the mess you are in, why go back to it? Stay sober, get out of the house if you need to. Serious talks are best left for when both parties are sober.
They have all gone out to the cinema. ... my husband doesn't want to talk to me, the marriage is over I guess. I am crying and sobbing and googling ways to kill myself... the magnitude of my stupidity is settling in, the harm and the damage and the fool I have made of myself. I think I am probably depressed anyway, certainly have some kind of mental problems, my husband hasn't met my needs really for ages, so pissed brain did something about it. With a guy up the road in the village...I just can't get over my stupidity.....
I can be sober, so far, but can I ever get over this.... I can't see how.
I can also see all the good my husband does, all the nice kind things... and now I have hurt him so bad....he has to deal with me ffs, that's bad enough job. Nown wonder he's grumpy and finds it hard to love me.... I'm a ****** nightmare.
I can be sober, so far, but can I ever get over this.... I can't see how.
I can also see all the good my husband does, all the nice kind things... and now I have hurt him so bad....he has to deal with me ffs, that's bad enough job. Nown wonder he's grumpy and finds it hard to love me.... I'm a ****** nightmare.
First before my self centered post , I want to say welcome to the new people! And hang in there to those of us struggling right now.
Let's commit to another 24 hrs sober together and post away!
Checking in on my day 15.
Like healthy said, I feel like a switch flipped to OFF and I feel very firm and confident in my sobriety.
I feel sort of now just learning to live my days without it- the good days, the bad days, the mundane.
Today isn't the greatest, husband and I not really getting along, anxiety and stress about money- not being able to afford Christmas... (Probably could have saved a ton of money by now for my kids Christmas if I had put in savings what I was spending on drinking) But all in all, I'm sitting at the playground watching my beautiful kids play happily, and so really- life is beautiful. My kids are warm, fed, clothed, with toys and parents who love them. I am thankful to have a house, warm beds, a working car, 15 days of sobriety, and food in the fridge, gas in the tank, car almost paid off.
I may not be able to give my kids a huge Christmas but that's not what it's about. It's about being surrounded with love- being together.
Let's commit to another 24 hrs sober together and post away!
Checking in on my day 15.
Like healthy said, I feel like a switch flipped to OFF and I feel very firm and confident in my sobriety.
I feel sort of now just learning to live my days without it- the good days, the bad days, the mundane.
Today isn't the greatest, husband and I not really getting along, anxiety and stress about money- not being able to afford Christmas... (Probably could have saved a ton of money by now for my kids Christmas if I had put in savings what I was spending on drinking) But all in all, I'm sitting at the playground watching my beautiful kids play happily, and so really- life is beautiful. My kids are warm, fed, clothed, with toys and parents who love them. I am thankful to have a house, warm beds, a working car, 15 days of sobriety, and food in the fridge, gas in the tank, car almost paid off.
I may not be able to give my kids a huge Christmas but that's not what it's about. It's about being surrounded with love- being together.
Thanks guys, I resisted. .. he's stopped at 2.... supper was nice.... I still think I've ruined everything and the enormity is crashing in like waves... scary ****... but booze isn't the answer now or ever. I can't just blame booze for Friday, I was there too... but it made me act in a situation which I should have walked away from. Idiot.
I don't know whether to contact the other bloke and like beg him to keep his gob shut. ... will he have any feelings at all of embarrassment or sympathy. ... or just want a laugh with his mates.... he has message evidence too..... not too rude, but flirty enough. Oh dear.... sigh....
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Morning check in....stay with us strangeangel. enfin...just one step at a time. Welcome to the new people, this class ends huge....must be around 60 now. Kiki counts....
Day 21 here. 3 weeks, 3 weekends. Last night was the first I slept all through, deeply and undisturbed. Woke up feeling relaxed, refreshed, great feeling. Its taken a long time this time. Winning the weekend is way worth batting down the AV, sitting out the solitary moments.....whatever it takes.
Okay new week.....we can make it a good one for all of us, people.
Have a better day today all.
Day 21 here. 3 weeks, 3 weekends. Last night was the first I slept all through, deeply and undisturbed. Woke up feeling relaxed, refreshed, great feeling. Its taken a long time this time. Winning the weekend is way worth batting down the AV, sitting out the solitary moments.....whatever it takes.
Okay new week.....we can make it a good one for all of us, people.
Have a better day today all.
Glad everyone is doing well thus far today. It's day 3 for me and I'm still trying to get my sleep schedule back to normal. I ended up waking up at 11:30AM today so hopefully I can stay awake the whole day and become tired tonight.
Congrats on your milestones jemma healthygoals canguy snowvelvet, pams max kiki curlygirl,. blondsobercoldensands and thumbelina - phew!..
congrats too to anyone else celebrating today I missed.
I'd be inclined just to leave it re the other guy Enfin.
I am glad you talked through that crazy idea of drinking again
welcome back strangeangel & welcome Rich
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congrats too to anyone else celebrating today I missed.
I'd be inclined just to leave it re the other guy Enfin.
I am glad you talked through that crazy idea of drinking again
welcome back strangeangel & welcome Rich
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In fact, I know you are right. But it's an itch....
And we'll done to everyone making it sober in November
.... only 1 more day to join this lovely group. Thanks to you all for your support the last few days. I mean that sincerely. .. xx enjoy the last day of November
Well today has been filled wit ups and downs for me. I am sober and hopeful about that. my husband and I are not speaking today, that makes me sad . I know how you can feel alone at times with others around. I am happy to be here with this support. To have someone o talk to, someone to understand, and not judge. Thanks everyone.
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