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Old 11-04-2015, 04:56 PM
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Hi everyone, I would like to join the class of November 2015 please! It's back to day 1 for me again but I'm feeling cautiously optimistic.... Earlier this year I had 30 days sober doing the "Dry July" thing and a couple of years previously I managed 17 days sober but then broke my run by drinking champagne on my birthday. Oh well here's hoping it's 3rd time lucky for me! I really have had enough of alcohol and it's effects on my health, my career productivity and most important of all my relationship with my gorgeous partner who has remained by my side through so much despite being increasingly distressed by my drinking for several years now. I want to be the sort of partner he deserves - present and engaged with the good things in life, not mostly out of it on booze. Wish me luck guys, hope we can all support each other in our journey to recovery.
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Old 11-04-2015, 04:59 PM
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I'm glad you're here--you know you can do this!
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welcome back Missy and DryPanda

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Old 11-04-2015, 05:02 PM
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Originally Posted by emme99 View Post
Hi everyone,
Tomorrow, Tuesday 11/3/15 will be my day 1.
I had alcohol here and I know I should have poured it out but I didn't. I have nothing left here now so I have no excuses, tomorrow will be my day 1.
I hope everyone has a happy & sober Tuesday~

How did you do? I'm starting tomorrow like you did to days ago, but I'm allowing myself to drink tonight because of shaking. Were you able to do it?
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Old 11-04-2015, 05:50 PM
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Feeling great Day 4! I have found my recovery in AA and with my sponsor and am working steps one and 2. I am happy to be sober!
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Old 11-04-2015, 05:52 PM
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Saying goodnight, got through the after work witching hour with food, coffee and diversion - the desire was there tonight but I was able to ignore it! Amen!
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Old 11-04-2015, 06:17 PM
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Feeling great Day 4! I have found my recovery in AA and with my sponsor and am working steps one and 2. I am happy to be sober!
Awesome!
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Originally Posted by learntofly View Post
Good morning! I'm glad to be here with all of you. I have 10 days today. I'm already worried about how I'm going to get through my family Thanksgiving without wine, but continuing to drink can't be an option for me anymore. I once read that continuing to drink for an alcoholic is like tying a bunch of knots that you know you're going to have to untie later, but you're in so much pain that it doesn't matter. I'm finally starting to work through my knots. I wish you all strength and positivity in your journey to recovery.
Love this! Not only the Thanksgiving with family and without wine, but the knots we tie are so difficult to untie later.
Great job on 10 days.
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Old 11-04-2015, 07:30 PM
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Originally Posted by Missy7 View Post
How did you do? I'm starting tomorrow like you did to days ago, but I'm allowing myself to drink tonight because of shaking. Were you able to do it?
Hi Missy
I made it through yesterday and today. Tomorrow will be day 3. Today was hard and I almost posted, but I made it through. Good luck tomorrow and if you need support, please make sure to come here and post
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Old 11-04-2015, 07:37 PM
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Evening All, glad everyone is making it through the cravings. If being sober were easy, we wouldn't be having this conversation! It helps me to stay focused on why I'm quitting, as well as goals that I have for myself that I know I could not accomplish if I were to keep drinking.

Take care!
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Old 11-04-2015, 08:50 PM
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Hey guys and gals Just thought I'd drop in and say hello and try to stay part of the class.....I must admit that I was doing well for a couple of days, but am not doing that well now. I let something really stupid run me right back to drinking, and yet again am going to have to start with day one . I'll spare the details because I don't want to trigger anyone, but this is becoming so ridiculous now. I'll share the stupid little thing that drove me to screwing up yet again, and I hope that it makes you giggle at how stupid we are when finding a reason to pick up that awful liquid poison for comfort...

I live in a small town in the outskirts of Phoenix, AZ. Our choices as far as things to do outside of the house are limited, to say the least. If we want to do anything worthwhile, whether it be recreational, shopping, etc., we have to drive 45 minutes into the Phoenix area. We have a quaint mall with a few well-known brand stores, but mostly we are a town of small, local businesses. To make a long story short, I just saw on the news today that one of the major stores that I absolutely LOVE to go to just to get my daughter and I out of the house once or twice a week is closing. I literally saw the story and every fiber in my being was on fire from anger. I cried. My husband laughed at me (as he should have, lol) but me in my sober self couldn't handle the news. It felt like one of my favorite toys was being taken away from me. Seriously, what the hell??!! We barely have anything out here, and now this....I let it be an excuse. Sigh.

If anyone has any advice, if anyone has gone through this in early recovery, please let me know. I haven't had a chance to read through the new posts, so maybe someone has already shared something. I really need some encouragement. I don't want to do this anymore. I will try to be here more often, as I know it will help. I need a new plan for sure.

Love you all, and this class is in my prayers. Thanks ahead of time.
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Old 11-04-2015, 08:56 PM
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Old 11-04-2015, 09:31 PM
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The small hours

I hate booze and I miss it so much. I feel almost as bad as during the time of my worst break-up ever...a break-up which, incidentally, consolidated my love affair with the bottle. What a devilish circle, what a rotten hamster wheel!

I'm not going to pick it up, but honestly - right now i really would like to savour that honey from hell. Two days ago I was feeling great, it's probably insomnia that led me here. Wish someone would knock me out by hitting me in head with a book full of future possibilities. I guess it's an excellent opportunity to embrace the concept of tragic joy. Because in all my distress I am actually happy - happy that the fog has drifted 8 days away.

I know you are all fighting your own special battle, I am thinking of you. Hope you keep taking steps forward.
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Old 11-04-2015, 09:53 PM
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SO I made it through last night without alcohol although I did consider a drink ... I had the worst sensation... felt like I was having a panic attack again. The same thing that let me have a drink again after being sober for 2 weeks...
Woke up this morning with chest pains as well as shoulder and neck pain... although I did sleep well without night sweats.
The panic attacks are scary though because your not sure if it is a panic attack or just bad withdrawal. My head was spinning, heart racing, felt like I was going to die... but I didn't so I am ready for day 2.
Goodluck to everyone today.
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Old 11-04-2015, 09:54 PM
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56 hours in. Last drink 11/3/15 at 5:00 pm. Disappointing & stressful day but just kept telling myself drinking is NOT an option & it won't make anything better! I've realized that I just don't know how to handle bad feelings. I need to work on that because I can't drink every time something makes me angry, stressed, anxious etc. I just do NOT like to not feel well emotionally! Anyone relate? Keep on keepin on!
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Old 11-04-2015, 09:56 PM
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but I didn't so I am ready for day 2.
Goodluck to everyone today.
Stay on that "high," it's the best. Day two will be better
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Old 11-04-2015, 09:59 PM
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@Ambuler I have the same setup in terms of towns. I am in a small agricultural town in the Midlands of South Africa. We have to drive 45 minutes to get to the city.
I do not have friends here so my life is work, kids and work again. We do have a lake we use to picnic at but with the drought there's hadly any water so I try and create my own activities. Playing tennis on the school grounds. I also play in the hockey league although I did not play this season due to prioritising alcohol.
Hope you find yourself sober and clear headed at all times no matter where you are. #hugs
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Still keeping my head above water. I'm one hour in to day 5 now. Working and sad to say excited for the cafeteria to open up. Hungry.
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Hi all, my first post in this forum. I introduced myself in the Alcoholism forum and told my story, so I won't hog this one too :-)

26 years of drinking pretty much daily and everything came to a head in the last few days. That's it for me now, last drink was 3rd Nov 2015.

Thinking of everyone in here and look forward to reading how everyone is going!
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...totally shite day.
It starts sitting in a restaurant for a 'working breakfast.' Downstairs there's the relentless pounding of a compressor, high pressure cleaner. Sitting up here the room is like sitting in a bell, endless amped chatter just rings, I just can't hear the other end of the table past the steaming coffee machine, smile and nod and just want to get out of here.

I've had about 3 hours sleep, 4 hours sweating, I'm not hungover, I'm coming off it. And it takes 4 days , every time. I'm sitting here while they're all having such a great chat, so let's order another round of coffee's . I feel like my head could just explode. Breathe deep, do it ten times.

Actually....it ends. I get out. Home for lunch. I buy newspapers on the weekend, read 'em at lunchtime during the week. Flipping the cover page open, there's a drawing of a baby.

A whole page about a guy who draws portraits of stillborns for the grieving parents. I close the paper, but can't chuck it in the bin with the others.

It's on my mind all afternoon. I feel so withdrawal sick. I go get a 6pack and read it, then chuck it out. Day 1 again.
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