Class of July 2013 Part 24
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Originally Posted by resolute50 
Chocolate lava cake...YUM.
It's a cloudy day here but warm. Just got back from taking the pup for a walk. No Patriot football today, so I might watch other teams play.
It's a cloudy day here but warm. Just got back from taking the pup for a walk. No Patriot football today, so I might watch other teams play.
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Evening Julyers X-factor is on so I've logged in 
Mrs sw is singing
I have 2 sisters & the one who was in rehab earlier this year is coming up for her first year in a few days
My brother was 10 months yesterday he turns a year on Dec 31st NYE I think something will get planned for that
My other sister is off filming for a popular TV show she's an extra
My dad is sober I think it's been a week not sure but he hasn't been sounding drunk lately & he's quick on the phone a sure sign he's sober as normally he just goes on
Mrs Sw is in a bath I'm next but il make the tea first
it's seriously foggy tonight again
Mrs sw is singing I have 2 sisters & the one who was in rehab earlier this year is coming up for her first year in a few days
My brother was 10 months yesterday he turns a year on Dec 31st NYE I think something will get planned for that
My other sister is off filming for a popular TV show she's an extra
My dad is sober I think it's been a week not sure but he hasn't been sounding drunk lately & he's quick on the phone a sure sign he's sober as normally he just goes on
Mrs Sw is in a bath I'm next but il make the tea first
it's seriously foggy tonight again
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Hello Julyers! I know I only pop in from time to time but I'd like to reconnect again.
I've joined many other classes but just can't seem to establish that bond and level of comfort I felt with all of you and you obviously feel with each other. I often read how all of you are doing but hesitate to post because I'm just so darn sick of admitting that I'm still struggling. But here I am and I know I need more so Im reaching out.
My drinking pattern lately seems to be a few weeks on and a few weeks off, two steps forward and one step back. I get all gung ho and feel great and confident and then one day I tell myself I can handle a few drinks and that just sets me off to nightly drinking again.
Work is great, my kids are doing great, and I'm actually making some progress financially ( for me, that means I can make ends meet with a little left over. I'll take it!).
But drinking leaves me stuck physically, emotionally and spiritually. And I know in my heart that one of these days something awful will happen because of my drinking. I've been "lucky" far too long.
So for those that remember me, I hope I can join forces with you again.
I hope to hear from ladybug too...
I've joined many other classes but just can't seem to establish that bond and level of comfort I felt with all of you and you obviously feel with each other. I often read how all of you are doing but hesitate to post because I'm just so darn sick of admitting that I'm still struggling. But here I am and I know I need more so Im reaching out.
My drinking pattern lately seems to be a few weeks on and a few weeks off, two steps forward and one step back. I get all gung ho and feel great and confident and then one day I tell myself I can handle a few drinks and that just sets me off to nightly drinking again.
Work is great, my kids are doing great, and I'm actually making some progress financially ( for me, that means I can make ends meet with a little left over. I'll take it!).
But drinking leaves me stuck physically, emotionally and spiritually. And I know in my heart that one of these days something awful will happen because of my drinking. I've been "lucky" far too long.
So for those that remember me, I hope I can join forces with you again.
I hope to hear from ladybug too...
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FABL, I knew I had a serious drinking problem for at least 3 years before I could get any sober time together. The difference between you and I, is that my 3 year daily struggle is not documented here, FABL.
Every day, I told myself....definitely not drinking today. And I yet I still did. So there is no shame you have that is not ours also. Sadly, for most of us, it gets to craziness before we are beaten down to desperate measures.
In fact, it was so bad, that I even still have days now where I can't believe I got that relentless monkey off my back. It's a blessing, but never think we don't know how frustrating it is to be on that wheel and feeling like a broken record.
Every day, I told myself....definitely not drinking today. And I yet I still did. So there is no shame you have that is not ours also. Sadly, for most of us, it gets to craziness before we are beaten down to desperate measures.
In fact, it was so bad, that I even still have days now where I can't believe I got that relentless monkey off my back. It's a blessing, but never think we don't know how frustrating it is to be on that wheel and feeling like a broken record.
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My daily struggle lasted a long time, also, fabl.
I strung together thousands of day 1s. I was a complete failure at sobriety for years. I was broken and defeated when I entered sobriety.
I know that you can do this.
I strung together thousands of day 1s. I was a complete failure at sobriety for years. I was broken and defeated when I entered sobriety.
I know that you can do this.
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Crois and soberleigh, thank you 
It's so easy to feel all alone in this. And I feel like, I'm not really new at this but I'm also not a success - obviously.
I had almost 2 months back in 2013 with you and another 60 in 2012 with various stretches of sober time since and in between so I KNOW how good sobriety can be. For years before that It was just progressing and I never considered quitting.
Even today, as I sit outside with my dog and read here and enjoy the breeze, I'm so grateful to not be in the fog of drinking. I was slightly hungover earlier today but it has passed, as have the cravings. Forever still seems scary as heck but what's the alternative? Any drinking in the future just puts me right back on the rollercoaster. There is no such thing, for me, of just drinking a little one day and hopping right back on the sober train. No way. But that's always the promise I tell myself when I cave. Once I feed the beast, I'm back into it until I get sick and tired of it - sometimes a few days, sometimes much longer.
Anyway, I'm here and I plan on sticking around. You guys are the best
It's so easy to feel all alone in this. And I feel like, I'm not really new at this but I'm also not a success - obviously. I had almost 2 months back in 2013 with you and another 60 in 2012 with various stretches of sober time since and in between so I KNOW how good sobriety can be. For years before that It was just progressing and I never considered quitting.
Even today, as I sit outside with my dog and read here and enjoy the breeze, I'm so grateful to not be in the fog of drinking. I was slightly hungover earlier today but it has passed, as have the cravings. Forever still seems scary as heck but what's the alternative? Any drinking in the future just puts me right back on the rollercoaster. There is no such thing, for me, of just drinking a little one day and hopping right back on the sober train. No way. But that's always the promise I tell myself when I cave. Once I feed the beast, I'm back into it until I get sick and tired of it - sometimes a few days, sometimes much longer.
Anyway, I'm here and I plan on sticking around. You guys are the best
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Fabl I wonder where you went never be ashamed to post get up but don't ever give up I have that phrase above my avatar I love the group here too the ladies are good ppl yourself Inc
If your finding it hard then really the simple answer is stop drinking sounds easy ?
As you know its not I kept going round in circles for 3 months before it hit me diffrent from all the other times
I have to stop drinking I had that devil in my ear telling me all sorts of madness my angel on the other was telling me its going to be ok
It's hard as **** to get sober some days it hits me that I havnt drunk for almost 2.5 years & I'm like is this real
Stick with us Fabl
write up a new P.O.A plan of action
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Originally Posted by SoberLeigh
Very good to hear about your sister, brother and father, sw. Sounds as though they have taken your lead - very cool.
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Originally Posted by Croissant
FABL, I knew I had a serious drinking problem for at least 3 years before I could get any sober time together. The difference between you and I, is that my 3 year daily struggle is not documented here, FABL.
Every day, I told myself....definitely not drinking today. And I yet I still did. So there is no shame you have that is not ours also. Sadly, for most of us, it gets to craziness before we are beaten down to desperate measures.
In fact, it was so bad, that I even still have days now where I can't believe I got that relentless monkey off my back. It's a blessing, but never think we don't know how frustrating it is to be on that wheel and feeling like a broken record.
Every day, I told myself....definitely not drinking today. And I yet I still did. So there is no shame you have that is not ours also. Sadly, for most of us, it gets to craziness before we are beaten down to desperate measures.
In fact, it was so bad, that I even still have days now where I can't believe I got that relentless monkey off my back. It's a blessing, but never think we don't know how frustrating it is to be on that wheel and feeling like a broken record.
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Welcome back FABL.
Sounds like you're doing that swinging door drinking pattern like I did before I finally nailed down sobriety.
Hang out with us and we'll try and get you through those rough seas to calmer waters.
Sounds like you're doing that swinging door drinking pattern like I did before I finally nailed down sobriety.
Hang out with us and we'll try and get you through those rough seas to calmer waters.
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Originally Posted by forabetterlife
Hello Julyers! I know I only pop in from time to time but I'd like to reconnect again.
I've joined many other classes but just can't seem to establish that bond and level of comfort I felt with all of you and you obviously feel with each other. I often read how all of you are doing but hesitate to post because I'm just so darn sick of admitting that I'm still struggling. But here I am and I know I need more so Im reaching out.
My drinking pattern lately seems to be a few weeks on and a few weeks off, two steps forward and one step back. I get all gung ho and feel great and confident and then one day I tell myself I can handle a few drinks and that just sets me off to nightly drinking again.
Work is great, my kids are doing great, and I'm actually making some progress financially ( for me, that means I can make ends meet with a little left over. I'll take it!).
But drinking leaves me stuck physically, emotionally and spiritually. And I know in my heart that one of these days something awful will happen because of my drinking. I've been "lucky" far too long.
So for those that remember me, I hope I can join forces with you again.
I hope to hear from ladybug too...
I've joined many other classes but just can't seem to establish that bond and level of comfort I felt with all of you and you obviously feel with each other. I often read how all of you are doing but hesitate to post because I'm just so darn sick of admitting that I'm still struggling. But here I am and I know I need more so Im reaching out.
My drinking pattern lately seems to be a few weeks on and a few weeks off, two steps forward and one step back. I get all gung ho and feel great and confident and then one day I tell myself I can handle a few drinks and that just sets me off to nightly drinking again.
Work is great, my kids are doing great, and I'm actually making some progress financially ( for me, that means I can make ends meet with a little left over. I'll take it!).
But drinking leaves me stuck physically, emotionally and spiritually. And I know in my heart that one of these days something awful will happen because of my drinking. I've been "lucky" far too long.
So for those that remember me, I hope I can join forces with you again.
I hope to hear from ladybug too...
Of course you can reconnect FABL . you don even need to ask. Just post , you are always a member of the Julyers.Reading your post I cold feel everything you said .
It's quite raw of me because of my recent relapse.
We are not here to judge you on how many times yo have tried to get it right, we are here to support you to get to that goal.
We all get here in our own time.
Staying close to all of us, your friends here will certainly help you.
This truly is the best group of people I have never met.
One days i hope to catch up with some of you who have helped me turn my life around
It's great to have you back Hun xxx
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