SoberLeigh

Maybe your AV is getting the message, Ladybug, that you are onto his tricks.

Leshar

Hello all,
I just came home from the audition. A lot of talent. Whatever happens, it was a lot of fun to try out!
Thinking of you FABL.

SoberLeigh

My fingers are crossed for you, Leshar.

SoberLeigh

Goodnight, Julyers.

Soberwolf

Good for you Leshar I hope you get the part

Soberwolf

Going to make my first tea of the morning & do some reading I uploaded a pic this morning of the leaves cleared that fell last week

letitgo

Reposting from july 15 to share


Had a bad moment of self pity and loathing yesterday. Everyday feels like groundhog day. I feel pointless like i am spinning my wheels and going nowhere in life. I am sure this rigorous work schedule has a lot to do with it.

Anyway i talked to my wife and she was upset because i was upset. I was blind and not being grateful. My pity party was about wanting more and being self centered. Life isnt fair. I had to.bang my spoon like a 2 year old.
So I went to a meeting. The speaker said he had many of the same feelings. I really related. He said he still struggles with this at times. His remedy is talking to people and laughing. H e wss grateful to be alive everyday.

I spoke with a few people and they took my mind off things. Had a chuckle and i felt much better last night.

The speaker also mentioned some days he can just try not to make things worse
Thats the best he can do. That's ok. I really could relate.
So i have been struggling with not smoking lately. I havent smoked but my mind says just do it and have a drink it wont hurt anything.

Its just part of being an addict to have these days. I notice i have feelings of depression, hopelessness and anxiety early in the week when my stress is really high.

The excuse to use is people dont understand but in aa they do understand. They talked about insanity of drinking and how much worse things would be drinking again. So at the end of the day i felt better and hopeful.
I am going to talk to my doctor about my meds. Maybe something can help more medication is not a total solution but it helps.
Look foward to getting some rest in this weekend.
I cant control my feelings but I can control my choice to drink or not.

I know life is tough but i feel fellowship by sharing your triumphs and struggles. Serenity to us all i hope you all have a great week.

Ladybug2

I hope so, Leigh?! But, I know it will be back to try and ambush me again soon. I can't believe how close I came to going to the store on Sunday. I would have just hated myself if I had. I will be ready for it if it tries again though. I HAVE to keep remembering how good I feel right now.

Hope you hear good news soon, Leshar!

Leshar

Hi folks,
Great post, let.

Soberwolf

Afternoon guys I've had a bad migraine all day wishing everyone the best from today

SoberLeigh

Hope that migraine subsides soon, sw.

Maybe try a nice warm, aromatic bath and relax.

SoberLeigh

Great post, letitgo.

Sharing our struggles is so beneficial.

SoberLeigh

When will you hear about the part, Leshar?

SoberLeigh

When that AV starts squawking, talk to us, Ladybug.

Soberwolf

Thanks Leigh the bath & kool n soothe helped going to have an early night tho

SoberLeigh

Hope you have a peaceful and painless sleep, sw.

forabetterlife

Great post letitgo.

Ladybug, glad you made it through the close call! I feel good already too. It feels great, but another part of me thinks how great some wine will be now that I feel better. Duh! What? It doesn't even make sense.

Anyway, I know I'm good for tonight. Tomorrow I am off for Veterans Day. I have a few things planned but it Only takes one minute for my mindset to falter. I need some good sober time under my belt like many of you have.

Leshar

Please stay strong, FABL. Post here if you're going crazy, it's really helped me.
Hi Leigh, the directors (husband and wife team) told us that they wouldn't make their decision for a few days, so it's out of my hands, I have to let it go. I did my best.
Poor Wolfie, you have to deal with migraines a lot. I hope this one goes soon.

SoberLeigh

Please post here, fabl, if you have any of those thoughts (or start a thread in Newcomer's). You don't have to go this alone.

Soberwolf

Thanks guys I went & read Mrs sw said it might be bad but it actually helped plus I have a new kool n sooth strip on my forehead its really helping

I think it's my anti anxiety/depressant med I spoke to a friend a couple months back and I have given it 2 months to see if they go if I keep to a good sleep routine I try to reduce my time on SR (only because of the glare from the screen ?)

Going to speak my Dr this week hopefully

Started my new book 5 mins ago its leaves of grass by Walt Whitman

I have 1 book after this that I have been saving to read as I know il love it The Tao Te Ching

Spk tomorrow guys